Dear Vector, so just curious, when your gender presentation changes in a universe, how does it feel? Does it ever make you feel you feel like yourself or comfortable?
Your question is a difficult one to answer, as my relationship with the nature of universes I visit has changed since the falling of the Shroud. Before, I was a singular being, transcending multiversal boundaries; when I traveled to a universe, my essence would fill the space of whatever role "Vector Prime" was to be in that reality. In the world of the TransTech, I was an academic, prone to use of complicated jargon and obscure terminology; in a world where my siblings resided on Earth, I became a trickster and emissary, watching over human travelers and heralds. Though my memories and consciousness maintained continuity, there was a malleability in my nature that meant I would behave in one universe in a way that I never would in another; it is this that made me so reluctant to ever visit a negative-polarity universe, for fear that it might corrupt me in some way.
Now, however, I exist in a far more mundane context. Though my status as the Guardian of Space and Time still allows me to walk between planes of existence, I remain the same across all of them. In many ways this is limiting, as I am but a fragment of the entity I once was... but in others, it is liberating. There is a certain constancy to who I am now that I lacked before, that made travel between dimensions uncertain even as it was necessary.
All that said... now that I dwell within the Realm of the Primes, I bear a connection to countless other splinters of the Vector Prime that once was across the multiverse; indeed, it is only thanks to the awareness that this transcendent space provides that I can remember the nature of my existence before the Shroud. As such, I can recall being a noble warrior queen, or a humble shrine maiden attending to the great Sigma Oracle; I have the memories of a Vector Convoy who founded a civilisation on the planet Athenia, and of a Vector Maximo who defended xir homeland from Quintesson conquerors. On an intellectual level, I know these were lives I never led, but that does not stop them from feeling true.
I cannot help but wonder whether, if I were to set aside my preconceptions of what my self is and instead embrace the truth of all that Vector Prime can possibly be, I could fulfil some greater potential.
And yet, I wonder what I might lose if I did so.