// I’ve always had trouble sleeping so I would always tend to sleep late. Now...lately this year I’ve been noticing something quite terrifying for myself. At times, I’d get drowsy and fall asleep for a nap or so. Now it doesn’t sound scary but when I try to wake up I have had at least 2 to partially almost 3 cases I’ve been unable to MOVE, BREATHE, or Speak to try and cry out for help. Just today (Since I woke up early..) I took a nap but thankfully I didn’t have trouble breathing but I couldn’t keep myself awake or move my arms as they felt very heavy making it difficult to push myself up. I kept slipping in and out of trying to sleep, struggling to fully wake myself even as I tried to keep my arms/hands moving. I’m up now...though I am just...afraid of what’s happening to me..these changes because It’s something that’s never happened. I don’t know if this is sleep paralysis or not..I don’t want to self diagnose myself but I KNOW SOMETHING WRONG. I just don’t know If I will make it to tomorrow...
I’m about to attempt to do a thing I’ve been putting off for nearly a decade. I’m nervous as hell. Pray for me that it goes well and it will unlock new doors for me and the dreams I’ve had since I was little.
Call me as Drya or Shury, people know by those nicks. There won't be real name, sorry folks.
↬ Physical age || Mental age:
20 || I don't know, it may be between 5 and 50.
↬ Birthday || Horoscope:
November 5th || Scorpio.
↬ Falling for:
Exhaustion. My eyes need to rest for a hole century, please and thanks.
Cuddling.
Any kind of fantasy world.
Vampires.
Sweets.
Music.
Gothic things.
Memes.
Old romances, Marquis of Sade's writing, mythology and Historical romans.
Fluffy stuff.
Draws, animations.
Roleplay roleplay~♪
↬ Running from:
Humid places. Achoo!
Nowadays' romance books. Sorry, I don't like when toxicity is called love. It hurts in my soul—— (that doesn't mean I don't gall in love at all...)
All house duties. If I do them it doesn't mean that I like them.
Sneeze and throw up.
Loud places.
Crowdy places.
Being so damn anxious about drawing.
Being the center of attention, bye bye~♪
↬ Skills:
Have an always loading memory... It's more like a chicken-like one :p
Mind like a cobweb, everything is there and related.
Em—— Paint? Sorry still being auto-critical.
Understand everything fastly, when I'm focused, obbiously.
People always complain about their lives with me, they feel confident around me even if I don't say that they can or not. I think they watch me as an grandma? Even so I'm not uncomfortable with it.
Sing: I'm always singing, it's easy, you don't need a right time to do it. I don't know if I do it well but at least I'm a decent karaoke partner.
Solve problems in the last moment.
Have a damn bad luck——
Have the right image for the right moment. How? I dunno man, maybe I'm a witch and I never noticed it.
Do two or more things at the same time.
↬ Species:
I swear I'm not an alien. Still. So, human.
↬ Sexual orientation || Romantic orientation:
Demi-heterosexual and demi-romantic(?) All this tags confuses me, sorry ;;
↬ Gender || Pronouns:
Female || She/Her.
↬ Occupation(s):
Uneasy artist.
Ill payed non housewife.
Student of Graphic Design, the career of my fucking life.
Pillow and handkerchief.
↬ Status:
Almost engaged with my eccentric and lovely soulmate @sauthorgod || Also almost alive :D
↬ Languages:
Spanish (main).
English (conversational).
French (conversational).
↬ MBTI || Enneagram.
INFP-T — The Mediator (Turbulent) || 4w5 — The Bohemian.
↬ Me looking the girl in the mirror:
Schrodinger's cat between procrastinating and working.
Runaway lover.
Cottagecore girl vs. Gothic girl vs. Dark Academia girl vs. Pyjamas. P.D.: Pyjamas always win.
‘Oh look! A butterfly! So… What we were talking about?’
↬ Now listen.
↳ Personal related clarifications.
↳ Sometimes I have bunch of things to do with my reality and I don't have any time to do anything, neither sleep. But there other times when I'm present but no so rebloging or answering, that's when I stop suddenly to interact. When I do that it's because I'm taking time for myself. It's a need. I could say you when I start that period of hermitage but myself I'm not sure how much time it will take me to come back again. I need to reestablish my emotions, my thoughts, remind myself, heal myself, and it takes time. I always will alert when I will take this off period.
↳ You may be asking what about that rude rule when I forbid people to go to my DMs to talk about my personal life. It's not too easy for me to interact with people who refers me with a direct approach. I almost always will feel frightened and I will stand my defenses. And my defenses are quite... Radicals(?). You may think that I will block you without reason, but take in mind that I'm social anxious and I can't see anything good behind a direct approach. I can't, honestly. I see desperate people, cheaters, hackers—— and anything like them. It feels to me exactly the same that you may feel when you are calmly waking down the street and suddenly someone intersects you and ask you “how's your life? Are you feeling good? I want you to tell me how have you been feeling”. Guys, it freaks me out. I always run away from those situations, and here in Tumblr I won't do an exception. So, go to my DMs only to talk about the main topics of my blogs and I will be happy to share with you. If we connect as friends, maybe you will be able to know more about me. But the kind of conversation “Hello, I will like to be your friend” it's not the best starter with me. Build a relationship, don't force it. So... Go easy on me.
↳ Other clarifications.
↳ Roleplaying issues.
↳ I prefer to roleplay with people over the age of 18 years old. It doesn't mean that it will be NSFW content but—— Cassandra contains a lot of mature topics in her story so, it would be sad to stop an interaction because you aren't supposed to know about those topics. Also as a clarification, I won't roleplay explicit sex in the blog. I don't feel myself confortable with that. But Kisses, bites, caressing, bold touches, BDSM ‘light’ traits (bondage, bandages, manacles, ashes, slaps, scratches, etc.) and light nudes could be roleplayed but not far from those. Not to mention that it will be always with mutuals and characters that already build a relationship with my OC.
↳ My OC can say somehow her opinion about triggering topics, but that doesn't mean I have the same opinion. If you feel uncomfortable with something that my character is saying, for your own good I will ask you to DM to talk with me about it or stop following me. I don't like the hate and I'm not sure how I will manage it so I wouldn't like to be exposed to it.
↳ Remember that this is a side blog, so you will never get a follow or like from it. Instead you will get if for sure from my mains @dryams03.
For munday , I will post but one picture. The love of my life , who at this particular time is out of commission. Previous owner allowed her to get rust bad in certain areas, one such area was the attachment of her upper rear control arm. It detached and my tire is bowed out immensely. Rubbing horribly and destroying my tire and who knows what else. So she is officially docked until I can figure out a close body shop, or a friend who can weld.
Meet my wife, the Morrigan of Blackwater -- yes , I named my vehicle that. She is a 2006 Subaru Baja.
But just letting you all know the amount of stress I’ve been under lately has put a damper on my muse and reply times. Bear with me. .
To all my rpers. I injured my shoulder two weeks ago and are now having surgery on it tomorrow. I will be unable to write for a week or more. I will miss you all. See you soon.
I’ve been in a pretty bad place for the past several weeks. I’m not really asking for a pity party, but a simple understanding. I want to write, I want to interact with every single one of you beautiful people. My anxiety often gets the best of me among other issues that cripples my creativity or over all comfort . Just know I am trying, trying to lighten my load and get out for a bit of fresh air every once in a while. In hopes of it all helping..
It was the reason I was so keen on doing short replies here lately - which I still need to get to. I have every intention of doing so. . I’m just in an incredible snail mode at the moment.
