#muna thoughts

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I've been getting a voice in my head every day now to WRITE. To just write. It's been so long for me since I've just sat down and WROTE. Writing without a destination, without a purpose, without a desired outcome.

I need to find my voice again; my creativity has gotten in the way of my productivity, and that's no way I want to live.

Going to try and do 10 minute one shot quick writes without any backspace, revision, or criticism!

Anyone interested in joining me to do this daily, and create a tag for it? :D

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When I get back home, I'd like to print and bind some of my favorite scripts just to have them around whenever I'd like to read them. Plus, I've been wanting to give a shot at book binding!

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I'm finally reaching a point where I can start to work on a new project without overwhelming feeling of doom and frustration because of crushing perfectionism... today I thought of a quick little project I can work on for a while and I didn't feel overwhelmed by anxiety when I started working on it. Actually made progress and enjoyed every part of it! It feels nice to slowly come back to myself after so long.

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I’ll be studying abroad soon!!!!

I’m so excited but I’m having some anxieties because I’ll be away from my beloved as well as all of my friends and of course…. To my absolute dismay…. My PC

BUT I’m reminding myself that despite all the discomfort and anxiety it’ll be an AMAZING experience. Some of the goals I have while I’m abroad is

1. Touch grass (yep…. It’s that bad)

2. Explore, actually take pictures of myself, and start posting for my friends and family on my Instagram more (I didn’t realize how distant I’ve been, this will be good for my posting anxiety and also to stay connected when I’m far away)

3. Use my time away from gaming to do art WITHOUT GOALS OR EXPECTATIONS (at least 50% of the time)

4. Work on affirmations and hopefully fully believing and trusting good feelings such as feeling worthy, loved, and feeling safe to feel my damn feelings.

Anyways, just thought I’d share that for those following to expect some writing as well as some documentation and thoughts of my adventures, and maybe even pictures! We’ll see.

I’m also sharing this for my future self, to exercise the idea that it’s okay to take space and it’s good to have something to look back on and remember, even if it’s uncomfortable sometimes.

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Painting is so hard. I have a hard time figuring out where to post my art, too. I have an art page that’s more professional with a brand, maybe I can post side projects as reels or on my story? Or I could just post it all here. Although, I kind of like this blog to just be for writing/fan art.

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I kind of miss what we learned in elementary school... honestly why were those timed math sheets so fun? And having a vocabulary quiz every week? We really did have daily and weekly quests and I kind of miss that.

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I want to make this blog cuter and prettier while also embodying everything but I’m ashamed to say that I cannot because I am in fact a chameleon.

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Anyone else get so anxious about other people stealing your work? Sometimes I want to just dump out all of my ideas on here, but what if I put it out there and someone does it better…