Right. Soz. Long post incoming.
Actually you know what I've got another canon squicks thing I wanna talk about. It really really weirds me out when people try to find every possible reason to excuse my behaviour/make it out like I'm just misunderstood or something like that. Like I guess it's not technically wrong because technically I guess I am ""misunderstood"" but using that to try and make me out to be less of a horrible person just makes me kinda... ehhhh.
Like, I wasn't even that good of a father. Like, I see all this art and fic about me and my soft spot for Noodle and of course I loved her so much and I still do - that's my kid, y'know - she also wasn't really safe from my mood swings and general rudeness and difficulty to... be around. I mean, if El Manana is any indication. Sure I did eons better than my own dad but the bar wasn't set particularly high.
Also people who act like I'm not sexist in-source make me raise an eyebrow. I know in Phase 4 I said that "treat objects like women, not women like objects" thing but I feel like it flew over a LOT of people's heads that that's kind of just... still thinly veiled sexism... I don't know, it's a little ironic in a way because when I see people give into the crazy shit I put out like "I'm a feminist now! (Gravely objectifying statement about women)" and react like "he's really a feminist now! character development!" it's just... no, you're just... falling for my lies again.
The same applies when people think I'm misunderstood or whatever. I am evil. I am a terrible person at least in-source. A criminal. An abuser. Blah blah blah. Thinking it's a front and that I've got some softness underneath is honestly just falling for my manipulation again but I mean, I guess it isn't technically WRONG, because there are people I could be less crazy around and things I genuinely had sensitivities to... I don't know, I feel like people just jump the gun and want to make me a good guy or at least like "chaotic neutral" because it's safer than acknowledging my monstrousness.
Whatever. Had to let that out sometime. Niccals out, cheers, hydrate or diedrate. #⛓️🥃
