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The Savior is out today!

Just watches the FBLive Virtual Signing for 'The Savior' by J.R. Ward and I am sooo excited to read this book and get to know more about Murhder. The Warden is an excellent author and an amazing person. I won't be able to make it to Cincinnati this year, but it is a priority next year.

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🌟Leitura Finalizada 🌟 Paaaaara tuuudo!!! Que livro foi esse?! SENSACIONAL! 😍 . . Na venerável história da Irmandade da Adaga Negra, um único macho foi expulso, mas porque a insanidade de Murhder não deu escolha aos Irmãos. Assombrado pelas visões de uma fêmea que não conseguiu salvar, ele, ainda assim, retorna a Caldwell numa missão para reparar o erro que o arruinou. Contudo, Murhder não está preparado para o que deve enfrentar nessa busca pela redenção. A doutora Sarah Watkins, pesquisadora de uma empresa biomédica, tem dificuldades em superar a perda do noivo, que também era seu colega de profissão. Então, quando o FBI começa a investigar a morte dele, a cientista leva as evidências ao limite para, enfim, tomar conhecimento de uma terrível verdade. E advinha só? O destino deles se cruzam e é uma verdadeira história de amor, no qual todos merecem uma segunda chance. Tem personagens novos, tem os amados Irmãos, tem aventura, tem romance, tem todo o universo no qual já somos apaixonados e...- Senhor! - que livro! . . Engraçado, a experiência de não conseguir parar de ler e ao mesmo tempo ter que diminuir a velocidade da leitura, com receio de acabar e saber, por ora, esse é o último livro. Definitivamente, esse livro entra no meu top 5 da Irmandade. . . E para quem ainda não conhece a Irmandade da Adaga Negra, corre ler, eu garanto que você não vai conseguir ler e pensar em nada que não seja relacionado a esses machos e fêmeas incríveis! . J.R.Ward você é incrível! #osalvador #thesavior #irmandadedaadaganegra #murhder #sarahwatkins #jrward #universodoslivros #leiturafinalizada #leiturasensacional #books #booksofinstagram #booksbooksbooks #bookstagram #brothehood https://www.instagram.com/p/B_nZX0RjedX/?igshid=hv3v14vyq783

[vishousdelishous]

For by BDB friends, in celebration of The Savior coming out in a few weeks. The return of the Brother, Murhder. Finally!!

[qhuinnbdb]

Just a fuck

Qhuinn:   *Thunder and lightning lit up the night sky and rained down on us like Thor himself was fucked off with Loki or whoever pissed in his cereal this time.  Ducking into a nearby alley on Trade Street, I turned to see Murh following.  The crappy awnings provided some cover, but there was no way shit was going down out here tonight.  We’d been out here for over half the night and not a single lesser in sight.  Cop headed back already in the E, and Murh and I were about to demat back to the manse*

Let’s go, we’re not gonna see any action out here tonight.  Those stinking fuckers are cosying up to Lash somewhere warm.  

*The thought of a warm shower made my body twitch. Yeah, I’m getting out of this shit storm now*

 Murh:  

*Qhuinn moved with the stealth of a well-trained killer.  That lean muscled body causing my cock to twitch.  FUCK.  Go back to the manse?  Yeah. Not gonna happen.  I wasn’t planning on using my hand tonight.  I wanted to feel a body under me.  Against me.   Downpour or not.  I followed Qhuinn into the alley but when he started yapping about going home I held my hand up.*

No.  I’m not going home now.  I’m going to the club.  I need some action.  You coming?

 Qhuinn:   *Fucking Scribe.  There goes my warm shower.  I nodded once and changed course to the end of the alley, until we reached the back entrance of The Iron Mask.  No need to stand in the line, but my eyes scanned the males and females lined up. This club brought out vampires and humans alike, but the humans didn’t know they were mixing with vampires.  If there was a lapse in judgment, it was usually taken care of quickly and the humans didn’t remember a thing.  

We made our way through the door with the usual greeting and headed up to the VIP section, taking our usual seat at the booth next to the large window pane overlooking the dance floor.  Sweaty bodies swayed and seduced their way around to the beat of the music.  Yeah, that shit was not for me.  I prefer to drink and watch.  The waitress made a quick appearance and she was a new one, which means she didn’t have the Herradura here already.  Annoying much*

I’ll have a bottle of Herradura and a glass.  Murh, what you having?

 Murh:

*I followed Qhuinn through the door and up the stairs to the VIP lounge.  My eyes lingering on a female or three as we passed by.  My cock and balls doing a twitch to let me know they mean business. I reached down and adjusted my pants to ease the discomfort as we slid into the booth.  Qhuinn had that annoyed look on his face but his voice didn’t match the look.*

Bourbon.  Jack Daniels will do.  

*I checked out the waitress when she turned and walked to the bar.  Nice firm ass.  But she wouldn’t do it for me tonight.  I needed much more than that.  I turned my attention to the dancefloor and scanned over the mix of males and females. One female caught my eye.  Blonde shoulder length hair.  Built for speed and just soft enough around the edges. Fucking perfect.  I watched the female for a while to check out her status. She wasn’t here with anyone and even if she was.  I didn’t fucking care.  When the waitress came with the drinks I made my move.*

See that female on the dance floor?  The blonde one.  *I pointed and when I was sure the waitress had the right one I continued.*   I’d like to buy her and her friend drinks for the rest of the night.  Tell her where to find me if she wants to fuck.

*The look on Qhuinn’s face when the waitress walked off had me smirking.*  

What?  I’m not into small talk tonight.  I wanna fuck. Why should I waste time making small talk with the female?

 Qhuinn:   *I got a taste of a different angle as I watched Murh.  This wasn’t what I was used to.  The males or females usually came to me.  Threw themselves at me was more like it, and then I’d pick one and go with that.  Murh checked out the menu and picked his dish.  I watched the waitress move down to the dancefloor, giving the girl the schpiel. Both females looked up, and by the way they squinted to check us out, it was clear they were human.  The glass had a slight one way tint, but a vampire would easily be able to see us.  

And what do you know.   They followed the waitress back up to the VIP section.  Murh was in luck tonight.   Neither of them were my style, but I wasn’t gonna begrudge Murh his fun.  I shifted up and nodded over at the brunette.  Yeah, she wasn’t my type at all.  Fuck, this was gonna be a long ass night*

 Murh:  

*I smirked and watched the two females sway their hips up to the VIP lounge.  Qhuinn’s quick reaction to get the brunette to sit next to him brought a half grin to my face.  Team player right there.  I got up and turned to the waitress.*

Bring us a bottle of Jack.  No glasses.  

*I had no intention of getting to know this female. She served one purpose and only because she reminded me of Jane.  The waitress returned with the bottle and I nodded over at Qhuinn.*

I won’t be long.

*The blonde looked shell shocked at first but I didn’t give two fucks.  I opened the bottle and took a few large swigs then tilted the bottle to her lips and poured the liquid down her throat.  I needed her loose and easy.  None of that “I’m not doing that” shit that I always got with Jane.  I took her by the hand and led her to the back where the bathrooms were but I didn’t take her in until we had finished the bottle of Jack. She drank most of it and that was intentional.  By the time we headed into a bath stall she was plastered.*

 Qhuinn:   *I nodded back at Murh and he was gone.  Female and the bottle of Jack in each hand.  Which left me sitting here with the brunette I wasn’t interested in.  

Muthafucka.  Talk about awkward.  Yeah, so… I started the convo in my head and that’s all I could get to.  Relief washed over me as she shifted and turned to me “Do you come here often”. Cheesy fucking line, but then maybe she was as awkward as I was.  Maybe? I didn’t bother answering that question. I called the waitress over and managed a half smile*

What can I get you to drink?

*She gave her order to the waitress and smiled as she turned her attention back to me.  I had no fucking idea what she ordered, and I wasn’t about to ask cause I didn’t care.  My ass was itching to get up and get out of this club.  Fuck.  The small talk started and continued until some pink drink arrived and the blah blah blah stopped for a few seconds before it started up again.  I didn’t focus on a word the female was saying. Whatfuckingever.*

 Murh:  

*My balls ached and the need for relief drove me into hard core overdrive.  My movements were animalistic in character but the female didn’t complain.  I had her turned and bent over holding on to the basin and my cock was free faster than either of us could say the word.  I placed my right hand on her upper back to stop her from turning and looking at me.  My left hand pulled her short skirt up and moved her thong aside.  This female came here tonight to get fucked and she was getting what she wanted.  Win-win.  My fingers slid inside her and a groan had my balls doing a jiggle.  Fuck.  I need to be inside her to relieve the pressure.  My fingers came out glistening with her juices and that was my undoing.

I gripped my cock and pushed inside the female with a groan and a growl.  As soon as I was inside her wet hot cunt I wanted to explode.  I had a moment of ahh relief and then the pressure build up from my balls to my cock which had me slamming into the female.  My hand gripped her hip to keep her in place for my punishing thrusts.  Her release was almost instant and that did it for me.  My balls sucked up and released its load into the female.  The tip of my cock throbbing and pulsing with the best sensation until my ball sack was empty and I was left with a over sensitive cock head.  More groaning.  Two more thrusts and it was over.  The need was over and I wanted to get away from this fucking female.  She was a hole and she played her part well but I wanted as far away from her as possible.  I tucked myself in and left the female panting and struggling to steady herself.  Thank fuck there were basins on the way out.  I washed my hands and splashed some water on my face and headed out to the VIP section.  Qhuinn was where I left him looking like he was about to bolt.*

Let’s go.

*I placed ten hundred dollar bills on the table and nodded over at the brunette who smiled her brightest fucking smile.  Obviously not used to getting paid for a good time. They give it for free.  Yeah.  That should cover the fuck and their drinks for the night plus more.*

 Qhuinn:   *This reminded me of the countless times Blay had to wait for me to finish fucking some random and this sucked ass.  I wanted out. I wanted a fucking shower and my bed. Seeing Murh come around the corner almost had me pissing in my pants.  Fucking yay!!  I got up and when the female next to me didn’t make a move to get the fuck out, I jumped over the edge of the booth chair and I was free.  Freedom!!

I was already half way out the door when Murh pulled out money and placed it on the table for the females.  Oh fuck, I didn’t even think of that.  Fuck that.  I’m out. And with that I was down the stairs and out the door into the side alley in no time.  It felt like Murh was taking forever, and when he eventually joined me I gave him a once over*

You look like you need another drink.  Are you sure you’re doing it right?

*I didn’t give him a chance to answer and headed to the end of the alley into the shadows.  Closing my eyes I scattered my molecules into the air and headed home*  

 Murh:  

*My legs were jelly.  And didn’t that make the stairs a fucking picnic.  The combination of Jack Daniels and a orgasm.  The drunk fucking humans getting in my way didn’t help one fucking bit.  I half stumbled out the door and the fresh air hit me like a motherfucker. Whoa.  

Qhuinn was there one second and the next he was beating feat to the end of the alley and he was gone.  Fuck.  I followed and took a deep breath to focus and demat home.*   

[queenbethbdb]

Therapy

written by @TenaciousDoctor  , @MaryMadonLuce and @MurhderBDB 

Jane:  *Silence spread through the tunnel eerily as I walked down to the room where Mary was waiting for me.  The past few days had been challenging on both me and Manny with all the injuries and the double shifts.  Manny avoided me like the plague, or tried to at least, but that wasn’t always possible since we spent almost every waking moment working together.  To weeks had passed since I told both Murh and Manny that I didn’t choose either of them. It wasn’t an easy decision, but it was a necessary one.  Ever since I got involved in this world it has been chaos.  And Murh and Manny didn’t make that any easier.  I wanted to find peace amidst this chaos, and I wasn’t gonna find that with Manny angry, and Murh losing his temper, all the time.  Finding time for myself left a small window of opportunity, which was usually interrupted by some issue with Murhder.  

 Murh convinced himself I was his shellan, even though that was never the case.  Even after weeks of trying to convince him I wasn’t mated to anyone, he still had trouble letting go of the insane idea that I was his.  Nothing I did worked.  I finally reached my limit with Murh and now I was bringing Mary in to assist.  I was hoping she could get through to him since no one else has been able to.  My hand reached out for the door handle and I pushed the door open to find Mary sitting on the chair in the small office.  Manny and I didn’t really use the office much.  Ehlena used the office most of the time to update patient files from the charts and folders Manny and I give her, which made this the perfect place for this quick meeting before the big deceit*

 Hey, Mary.  Thanks for agreeing to this.  I know you’re also busy, and you know I wouldn’t have asked you to do this if I didn’t think it would help and was needed.

 *Taking a seat opposite Mary, I smiled and crossed my legs at the ankles*

 Mary: Mary sat at the desk in the tiny office, looking around. Unsurprisingly it was extremely neat almost as if it wasn't used that often. Of course with how busy the medical wing was, it wasn't much of a surprise but Mary had expected there to be loose files or scrap paper laying about, yet nothing. Maybe it was one of the doggen keeping things tidy or the medical staff like Manny or Ehlena made sure the office was always presentable no matter how busy the medical wing was. Regardless, it was obviously a quiet place in the midst of the chaos. Mary Had already heard plenty about Muhrder and how he was seemingly obsessed with Jane and creating plenty of problems for both her and the entire mansion with his behaviour. Mary had done her best to not get involved too deeply, though her being compassionate she hadn’t been able to completely keep her mouth completely shut. Which was probably why she had agreed to help Jane out with him in the shape of counseling sessions. Her train of thought was interrupted when Jane entered the room, looking slightly worried, if mary had to say anything about her. Unusual for the calm and collected doctor, though with the chaos the mansion was in, it was perfectly understandable that even Jane could get shaken, especially with everything going on with Muhrder.

 Listening to Jane, Mary nodded and offered a soft smile. “Oh, don’t mention it, Jane. I know how worked up everyone is, so of course. I’m only happy to do my part to make sure things here run as smoothly as they can”, she said and tilted her head a bit. “So tell me about his case, please. I’d like to know what I’m dealing with as best I can”

 Jane:   *Scenes of the past few months rushed through my mind, flashing in bits and pieces as if my brain was trying to syphon the important parts and sort it into some prioritized order.  Murh was as complicated as he was insane, and the two of us together… Well, that was my own fault.  I shifted on the chair as I started talking*

 Where do I start… *I took a moment to think* Murh needs help and I can’t give it to him.  I tried before and it lead to us having a sexual affair.  We are both adults and neither of us are mated, therefor I didn’t see any problem with it, until… Well, Murh became very possessive, to the point of madness.  He has a history of mental health problems which is what I was busy helping him with.  Wrath had asked me to assess his mental health before he was cleared for rotation, and well…  the rest is history as they say.  The entire family knows what transpired down here in the med wing before Murh was locked up.

 I would appreciate it if you could assess him and see if you are able to work with him to get him through this.  We need him back as a functioning member of the Brotherhood.

 Mary:   Mary listened to jane, nodding along as the story went on. Even she had heard of some of the events that had transpired but there was new information mixed into what jane told her. The fact that the two had been in a sexual relationship would definitely complicate the matter, but perhaps not make it impossible, even with Muhr’s mind being all jumbled up.

 “So, if I understand you correctly, you’d like for me to help him move on from you and focus his attention on fighting rather than you, and to assess whether or not he is suited to be added into the nightly rotation. Is that accurate?”, Mary asked and looked to Jane with one of her professionalism looks.

Mary had her thoughts about how Jane had been having sex with someone that technically was her patient, but in reality she couldn’t really say all that much about it. It could quite literally happen to anyone and with Jane being a single woman among the stunning vampires, it’s not like Mary could really blame her. Truth be told, it wasn’t like they were able to go out and meet men and have relations with them. Wrath’s head would likely explode before his temper, if they ever presented that idea and cause him to say things like ‘Over my fucking dead body!’ She gave Jane a determined nod and offered a smile. It wasn’t her place to judge nor did she intend to do that in any way, shape or form. Instead she was going to glance over it, because it shouldn’t matter with how their lives were set up. “I’ll certainly do what I can to help him, and give an assessment as well. If we can get more out in the field, it’ll be better for the race as a whole”

Jane:   *A faint smile lifted one corner of my mouth, and I relaxed back against the chair*  Thank you, Mary.  I am aware this is a delicate matter and I am grateful for your willingness to help me out.  

 Now the next part will be the most challenging.  I need to get Murh to come in here to sit and speak to you, but he won’t do it if he knows what we are doing.  I will have to trick him into thinking I want to talk to him, but I will be here with you and Murh the whole time until you are comfortable being alone with him.

 One more thing… I’d appreciate it if you didn’t tell anyone about this.  Wrath and the Brothers won’t approve of Murh being near me, but I can’t do this without being involved. 

 Mary:   Mary shook her head softly. “Jane please.... There’s no need to thank me at all. I’m only happy to do my part, and truth be told, it’s the only thing I can do”, she said and offered a smile. “Besides, you’ve always helped Rhage when he got injured, so this is my way of paying you back. I’d have been worried sick so many times, if it hadn’t been for your medical expertise, so in terms of peace of mind, this is my repayment”, she said and sat back in her chair. Her head tilted as Jane explained the scheme she had to set up for Muhr. This wasn’t exactly new, and it only made the situation more delicate. Having someone like Muhr around in general was a gamble, but tricking him was outright insane, but often a necessary evil.

 “I understand, Jane”, she said and nodded. “Listen, I’ll be looking to have you out as soon as possible though. You’ll be a distraction for him which will stop him from looking internally and progress”, she explained. “I just wanted to be clear about that. And of course, I won’t tell anyone of what we are doing. Honestly, with everything going on, I’d sound like the abandoned woman that had gone mad and wanted attention at any cost”, she remarked with a smile.

 That last bit was something she was afraid would happen. Now that Rhage had left her, she had avoided everyone,  not wanting to seem like she was craving attention. Sure, she was lonely, but that was no excuse to become pathetic.

  Jane:  *I took a deep breath and got up.  My stomach knotted a little because I had no idea how Murh was going to react to this and the last thing I needed was for him to lose his shit again and become violent.  I gave Mary a reassuring smile, or at least I thought that’s what I was doing, but it was her smile that reassured me.

 When I reached the door I stopped and took another few breaths before opening it and walking down the tunnels to the training center.  Murh was doing rounds with the boxing bag and… okay wow, he did look good…  

 I shook my head to clear it and walked into the room*  Murh!  *I shouted loud enough for him to hear me*  Could I speak to you for a bit.  You may want to change clothes.  I’ll wait outside. 

 Murhder:   *My fists cracked under the pressure with each blow to the red bag.  My knuckles were wrapped in cloths but that was it.  I wanted this to fucking hurt.  I needed this to fucking hurt.  Each blow took me closer to the edge.  Jane was all that was on my mind.  She was MINE.  How fucking dare she tell me to move on.  How fucking dare she do that to me.  Throw me one side like a rag doll she’s outgrown.  Fuck her.  As the next blow struck I hear Jane’s voice and pivoted around to see her standing in the doorway.  Fuck.  She took my breath away every time I saw her.  Her mouth was moving but I wasn’t catching all of it.  My ears were zinging.  Fuck. Okay something about getting changed and she’s waiting for me.  Yeah. Some shit like that.  I stepped back and removed the cloth from both hands.  My gym bag was lying to the left of me.  I grabbed my clothes out and changed without bothering to wash up.  I wasn’t wasting time on that shit when all I wanted was to be near Jane.  After about 4 minutes I was out in the tunnel where she was waiting*.  What’s it?  Is everything okay?  

 Jane:   *With a nod, I turned and walked down the tunnel*  This way. I’d like to talk where it’s more private  *the knot in my stomach twisted and it took a couple of tries when I reached out for the door, to go corporeal.  As the door slid open, I stepped aside and let Murh step in first.  As soon as he was in, I closed the door behind us and blocked his exit.  I had some hope that he wouldn’t try to go through me to get out*

 Murh, this is Mary.  She’s going to talk to us… you for a bit.  Only talk. Please stay and listen to what she has to say.  Please…

 *It didn’t take a genius to figure out Murh was angry.  If he could, he would be spitting fire right now.  I gelled myself to the door and watched him carefully.  He didn’t move*  

 Mary: Mary turned her head as both Murhder and Jane entered into the room. She offers a polite and quite professional smile as she can almost feel just how much Jane is on guard with him in the room. She extends her hand towards Murhder and tilts her head. “Hello Murhder. It’s very nice to meet you”, she said in as neutral a tone as possible. She didn’t want to seem judgy or condescending in any way, so it was important to stay as neutral as possible.  

Murhder:  *Jane fucking tricked me.  The bitch is trying to get rid of me.  I will fucking kill her!  The female in the room spoke up with ease and for a second I felt my shoulders ease down.  My fists still clenched and unclenched.  I wanted to hit something.  FUCK.  The blow that followed didn’t surprise me.  My fist collided with the wall behind me right next to Jane’s body.  My hand ached as I pulled it back.  The wall was fucking solid.  Jane’s reaction to this is what changed the moment. She flinched and pulled to one side and the look on her face was fear.  She feared what I would do next.  What I would do to her.  I was a fucking monster.  The air in the room shifted.  I sensed it.  The other female tensed up as if she anticipated more violence from me. I swore i wouldn’t be /that/ person again.  I wouldn’t go violent on or around a female and that’s exactly what I was doing.  My eyes darkened to black as I watched Jane regain her form*.  This is on you Jane.  This is your fucking fault.  You know better than to corner me like this.

 Jane:   *This was my fault.  All of this.  I knew that, but it didn’t change anything.  I had to fix it and that is what I was trying to do.  I was struggling to keep my form solid, but for Mary’s sake I wanted this to seem as normal as it possibly could.  I waited a few moments before stepping away from the door.  My heart was still beating a trail right out of my chest, but somehow I knew this was it. There would be no more violence from Murh.  Something… maybe the look on his face… I don’t know… but something changed a minute ago after he hit that wall.  I moved away because I thought he was aiming for me, but he wasn't. It was over, or at least his anger tantrum was over*

 I know and I’m sorry.  I need you to do this for you.  Not for me, but for you. Mary is very capable of seeing you through this.  Trust us to help you.

 *I didn’t give him a change to argue. Placing my hand on his arm, I guided him to the chair opposite Mary and I stood next to him*  

 Mary:   

Seeing Murhder react with violence was not exactly a surprise to Mary, but it did still make her flinch. She covered her mouth with her hand to stop herself from making a sound, though she was sure the fact she was startled and had flinched was obvious. Muhrder was agitated and he was openly blaming Jane for it, though something did seem to have shifted. Like he was realising that anger wasn’t the solution to getting rid of his frustrations. She nodded as Jane lead Muhrder to the chair, and took a second to center herself and refocus on being calm and collected. “Well then, it’s still very nice to meet you, Murhder. Is your hand okay? I’d very much hate it if you were in pain while we talk to each other”, she said and looked to him. Her natural worry-wart personality was starting to shine through, even if she was a bit on guard. Definitely she needed to have Jane out of the sessions as soon as possible, to be able to really get any sort of breakthrough with Murhder.

 Murhder:   *Jane stood next to me and I could almost taste her.  My cock did a double take of what the fucks.  I wanted her now.  I would take her on that small fucking desk or against the wall if I had to in front of this female.  I couldn’t care less.  I wanted Jane under me.  Not next to me.  The female’s soft voice rung out in the small room.  Jane picked the right room for this.  Anything bigger and i might have a problem hearing the soft voice over the thundering of the blood in my veins.  I shifted my weight around in the chair. The fuking thing was too small for me and my cock was making it impossible to sit still.  I turned to Jane*.  Jane.  I’m doing this for you.  Not for me.  I don’t want to be here.  You want me to be here.  Let’s be clear on that.

Jane:   *Sighing exhaustedly and rocking back on my feet, I almost lost my balance.  After the grueling 72 hour shift and very little to eat I was about to faint.  I had to get my sugar levels up if I was gonna make it through this session, but leaving now to go get hot chocolate wasn’t an option.  With a soft sigh I lowered myself next to Murh and placed my hand on his arm.  He was nervous about this as much as he was angry.  He didn’t want to let go and right now I wanted him to know I would be with him every step of the way, but he needed to do this for himself.  My green eyes met his dark stare and I spoke soft enough for only him to hear*

 Murh, you’ve got this.  I won’t drop you in the deep end.  I’m here for you, but you have to do this on your own.

 *I got up and gave him a kiss on the cheek before turning to Mary*  He should be okay now.  I will be right outside if you need me for anything.  Two doors down.  

Mary:   

Mary let the two have their moment together. She knew, from what Jane had told her, that the connection between was ran very deep with Murhder, and from what Mary could tell, Jane was also deeply attached to him, though obviously in a different way. She stayed quiet as they had their intensive stares and couldn’t help but give off a little smile as Murhder declared he would do this, even if it was more for Jane than himself. He was willing and that was key in the process. Mary offered Jane a smile and a nod. “Thank you, Jane. I’ll be sure to get you if need be. Don’t worry, he’s in good hands”, she said and let Jane walk out the door.  She turned to Murhder and offered him yet another one of her professional smiles. “Right, first thing you need to know, Murhder, is that whatever you tell me during these talks stays between you and me. I’m not telling anyone what we talk about”, she said and paused to await his answer.

Murhder:  *The room shifted when Jane shared a intimate moment with me. It was her way of telling me she will never leave me.  No matter what.  I already knew that but getting the reassurance from Jane changed everything.  Even if she wasn’t my shellan she would still my person.  The special person in my life I share everything with.  As I watched her walk out the room I felt my heart break.  I felt a piece of myself leaving.  She was the better part of me.  I didn’t want to let go but I had to.  It’s what Jane wanted.  I turned my focus back to the female and nodded as she spoke* Yeah.  It’s between us.  I get it. 

 Mary:   

Mary nodded at Murhder and looked to him. He seemed content with how things were, but of course, anyone could put up a front and hide their true feelings. Lord knew, mary was an expert at that. No, she needed to dig a bit, to get to Murhder, but that required a whole lot of legwork, that much was obvious. “Good. So, tell me about yourself. Anything at all. And, if you want to ask about me, you’re more than welcome to do that too. After today, you can decide how we do these talks. Maybe while you work out, or outside walking around. It doesn’t have to be in small spaces like this at all”, she said and looked to Murh. It was her experience with therapy sessions that the more control you could offer to the patient, the sooner they relaxed and opened up to you.

Murhder:   *Jane’s scent still lingered in the room which didn’t help my cock situation.  I shifted some more and wanted to get up and walk around.  I stopped myself and listened to the female.  Mary…. Yeah that was her name.  She was everything Jane wasn’t and that was a good thing.  Especially right now.  What?  We can do this somewhere else?  Why didn’t she fucking start with that line*.  Yeah.  I don’t want to be here in this room.  I feel restricted and it’s doing my head in. I need air. *I needed more than air but the female didn’t need to know that*.  What’s your deal?  Why are you doing this?  What’s in it for you?  

Mary:    Mary nodded and stood up, keeping her movements soft so Murhder always knew what she was doing. There was no reason to get him worked up with sharp and sudden movements after all. “Right, let’s talk a walk then. Do you want to use the hallway, or maybe go all the way outside?”, she asked and looked to Murhder as she opened the door to the small room to let both of them out. She blinked a few times as Murhder fired a line of questions at her, while not surprising that he did ask questions, Mary hadn’t expected those particular ones at all. “In it for me? Well, for starters, this is what I do for the vampire race. I’m a therapist of sorts and a natural helper, you could say. Part of my nature”, she said with a smile. “As for what’s in it for me… A purpose, I’d say. And the satisfaction of knowing I made a difference for someone. That’s about it”, she said and looked to Murhder. “Why do you ask?”

Murhder:  *Getting up was a prayer answered.  My legs ached as I stretched them out and once we were walking down the tunnels it felt a shit load better.  I didn’t answer the females question.  I took the lead and steered the picnic down the tunnels and out the back door past the garages.  Once outside I could feel myself breathe again.  My pants weren’t as tight but that was thanks to not smelling Jane anymore.  The walk and talk thing could work somehow.  I led the way toward the gardens and took in the view as we descended to the lower level*.  I ask because I don’t know why any female would want to be close to me after what happened.  I’m surprised Wrath approved this.  

 Mary:   

Mary followed Murhder, her feet having to rush to keep up with him at first as he almost stormed out of the tunnels and out into the open air. She didn’t pressure him to talk, since that would be counterproductive, but rather she followed him to see where he would go. She looked to him as he finally started talking, listening to him answering her question with a very rational answer. So he obviously was aware that others perceived him as both unstable and dangerous, though she tried avoiding those words at any cost herself. “Well, from what I can tell with what I’ve seen so far, I’m not in danger with you at all. I don’t think you’d purposely hurt anyone. The past isn’t important right now, it’s how you are now that’s important”, she said and looked to the male. “Let’s not worry about Wrath for the time being. I’d much rather hear about you, Murhder. Tell me about yourself”

Murhder:  *The past isn’t important?  That’s the reason I was in this mess.  But if she wanted to skip that part I wasn’t gonna argue*.  No you’re not in danger.  I don’t make a habit of attacking females.  Jane IS MINE. Or was mine.  I walked in on her and that Rat kissing and I fucking lost it.  That shit happens to everyone at some point.  I know it does.  We all have our breaking points.  *I had to breathe slow and deep.  Slow and deep.  Just thinking about that day made the hair on my arms stand up*.  

 Mary:   

Mary looked to Murhder as he spoke, nodding her head a bit as she listened to him. She had been right to try and stay out of that whole thing. It was a mess and a half, but there was something she could do here. Murh was heartbroken, it was obvious, so at least they had that in common. They had just reacted very differently to it, and one could always argue which one of them had handled it better. Mary knew exactly what Murhder likely needed. A distraction. Something to help him take his mind off of Jane and move on. Easier said than done, naturally, with how he was seemingly obsessed. It was clear though, that Murhder was considering Jane’s feelings quite heavily and respected her choices, even if he was deeply hurt. “Does it hurt when you think about those things, Murhder?”, she asked knowing how stupid the question was, but she needed to know If Murhder was aware of his own feelings and that they could have a physical effect on him.

Murhder:  *What was she talking about?*.  Hurt when I think about Jane with that Rat?  Yeah it fucking hurts.  She didn’t choose him and that makes the hurt so much fucking better but she didn’t choose me either.  Look.  Let me tell you how this is gonna go.  We are gonna take a nice walk through the gardens to kill some time.  You can ask your questions if you’d like but at the end of all this nothing is going to change.  I’m still gonna be fucked up and Jane is still gonna be the only female in the world who……  *who fucking what….  Rejected me?  Broke my heart?  Yeah not going there*.  Jane is the only female for me.  There is no other female out there for me and we are an animalistic race.  We have to mate.  It’s a driving force in us and when we meet /that/ one.  There is no stopping us.  

 Mary:   

Mary listened to Murhder, letting him air his frustrations directly in her face. It was good he got some things off of his chest and by all means, if he wanted to unload on her she welcomed it if anything. “Murhder, I know how the vampire race works when it comes to all that stuff. But as animalistic as you are, you can still move on. Feelings can change, if you let them”, she said and offered him another profesional smile. She wanted to reassure him, encourage him to at least give things a try. He had walls up, and she wanted to lower them, but that would take a lot of effort on her part. Effort she was willing to give. “Alright, we’ll take our walks and you’ll talk. I don’t expect you to change who you are, but maybe have you see more of the big picture. Have you zoom out, so to speak”

Murhder:  *Zoom out? Of what?  A hunter zooms in on his prey.  I am a hunter.  A warrior.  A Member of the Black Dagger Brotherhood.  I don’t zoom out.  I zoom in*.  Whatever. *My reply was short and we kept walking past well trimmed hedges and shrubs that were styled to keep the eye entertained.  Flowers ranged from Roses to Hydrangeas.  Most of the colored flowers looked nice but I didn’t know their names.  Neither did I care what they were called.  We walked and talked for another hour but to me it felt like the entire fucking night.  This talking biz was working on my nerves but I would do it if it kept Jane happy*.  #Therapy #BondedBrothers

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BDB Unpopular Opinion

I don't give a fucking shit about Murhder. Therefore, I'm not excited about "The Savior". Like at all. I just don't know enough about Muthder to care. Actually, no. Wait. I do. He's a fucking asshole. Period. Just fucking keep him Warden tbh. There better be like a shit ton of JM and Xhex to get me through that book.... Possibly Murhder getting bitch slapped by John too.

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Pentup Release - by Murhder and Jane.

Co-written by @MurhderBDB and @TenaciousDoctor 

Murhder:   *Dawn broke with a big “FUCK YOU”.  Another night being trapped in this hell hole.  The chatter and laughter that went along with Brothers and soldiers returning home had finally faded out as everyone made their way to their rooms or wherever else after last meal.  I wasn’t a prisoner here but I may as well be.  If I go out on the streets there wasn’t a chance I wouldn’t get into it with a lesser or two and then I’d be kicked out because the blonde bitch hadn’t given her stamp of approval.

If I could get her to stand still I would wrap my hands around her small neck and squeeze slowly until she begged for me to stop and then… would I stop?  Fuck knows.   Lucky for her she ghosts faster that I demat.  

Aggression was boiling inside me and eating me up. Weeks of isolation does that to a hungry male.  I avoided everyone as much as I could.  Or did they avoid me?  

The only one I couldn’t avoid was Jane and each time I saw her I couldn’t figure out if I wanted to fuck her or kill her.  Tough choice.  

Talk about the devil.  Jane closed the door behind her and walked down the tunnel toward the training centre*

Hold up! *I growled out and half smirked as she turned and forced a smile on her face.  We were at the point where we were both annoyed with each other.  Maybe she was facing the same dilemma I was?  We should fuck hard and get the frustration out of our system*

Wrath said you still haven’t given me the all clear. What the fuck is going on?  If you want to keep me around you can always move into my room.  That way we will have plenty of time to do what you like.

 Jane:   *I grabbed my empty hot chocolate container and left the medical suite to refill the container and stop by Manny’s office.  It had been a quiet night injury wise, but it gave me time to update patient files and do a stock take of our medical supplies.  Manny has been in his office most of the night and if I had to admit it to myself, I missed him.  I wanted to see him.  

A loud growler of a male stopped me in my tracks. Oh, just great.  The Mad Hatter form Wonderland, although I was sure this one was a Martian.  He wasn’t like any of the other vampire males I’d ever met.  I took a deep breath and turned, forcing my lips to curl up in a professional smile until he let go with the verbal diarrhea again*

No, you hold up.  First, you haven’t done anything to earn my approval.  Second, you are a ticking time bomb and I’m not allowing you to explode while you’re on rotation.  

*Raising a brow, I crossed my arms over my chest* What makes you think you’ve earned the all clear?  Running your mouth every chance you get?  Or trying to get into my bed?  Which one do you think qualifies you to go out on rotation with males of worth to protect your race?  *As the Brother opened his mouth to, no doubt, shoot another cocky remark at me, I continued* Don’t answer that.  Think about it.  

 Murhder:   *Fuck this female was hot when she was pissed.  My cock pulsed and kicked against my zipper.   The black jeans I was wearing visibly straining to contain the rock solid piece of equipment.  I did nothing to hide it.  To the contrary I closed the distance between us and backed the female up against the wall.  My hard bulge pressing against her stomach.  She didn’t ghost.  What do ya know.  Miracles do happen.  

For a split second I was surprised that she didn’t ghost. My mind raced down all the avenues this could lead and came to a halt as my body took over.  I lowered my head and my mouth took control of hers.  Tasting, licking, sucking.  Fuck.  I wanted to take my time with this female but raw desire burnt a whole in my intentions and everything went up in smoke.  I hadn’t been with a female in too long and I wasn’t waiting another second.  I turned all the Chosen away because I wanted this female.  MY female.

My hands guided her back to the closed door and when she didn’t budge to get the key out I growled into her ear*  I will fuck you right here in the tunnel.  Your call.

*My balls clenched.  My cock throbbed painfully.  Hot blood rushed through my veins.  Flames threatened to consume me.  I pinned Jane against the wall with my body and held both her wrists up with one hand to free up my right hand which moved down her blouse.  Ripping buttons as it made its descent to her pants.  One button popped and I slid my hand down to feel her smooth velvet bonnet.  One finger sliding into her warm sex.*

 Jane:   *The Brother’s eyes darkened and the air changed suddenly.  It was sexually charged and I knew instantly the ticking time bomb had run its course.  As the large male backed me up against the wall, I thought of ghosting or screaming, but none of that would help the situation.  He wasn’t leaving here without some relief, and there are a lot of females in the mansion.  God forbid… I didn’t want to think about him running into any of them in his current state. All logic had forsaken him.  I could see it in his eyes.  

I stayed put and allowed the Brother to explore, while I tried to figure out what to do.  Manny would hear me if I screamed, but last time he got involved, it got messy. I wasn’t sure if any of the Brothers were down here and the trainees were no match for this Brother, especially while he was in this state of mind.

I forced myself to stay in place and it went against every fibre of my being.  It felt like I was about to have a panic attack.  My mind couldn’t come up with a solution fast enough.  The Brother was moving so damn fast.  His words interrupted my thought process.   The door.. oh, yeah.  I need to open it.  Shit. Would it be better or worse if I opened it and we were locked in the room together?  Damnit.   Worse. Definitely worse.  Stall Jane, stall, at least long enough to come up with a workable solution.  When nothing came to mind and the Brother’s hand slid down my pants, I took a deep breath and spoke as calmly as I could*  The key is in my back pocket.

 Murhder:   *Fucking Scribe she felt good.  Back pocket. Okay good.  My hand left her warm pussy and moved around to get the key out. I hesitated for a split second to change hands.  Gripping her wrists with my right hand and unlocking the door with my left.  My body moving hers into the room as soon as the door flung open and my left boot kicking it closed behind us and hearing the locking mechanism click into place.  Home free.  This was it.

I backed Jane up against the bed and ripped her blouse off.  Next was her pants and then my hand reached down to spring my cock free.  Fuck.  That felt good.  I wasn’t even inside her yet and my hips were thrusting.  My balls ached for release and this time she wasn’t gonna get away with shoving me into the bathroom to release myself.  I needed to be inside her.  I needed to burst inside her.  FUCK.

My head dipped down and my mouth latched onto her neck. My hand let go of her wrists and moved to her thighs.  One hand sliding under her tight ass and lifting her onto the bed and the other hand spreading her thighs wide open for me.  

My voice a desperate hungry command against her neck* Slide my cock inside you.  I don’t want to hurt you leelan.

 Jane:   *The room was spinning.  My chest ached and everything was closing in on me.  I couldn’t breathe.  I could ghost away but then what?  He still had the key to the room.  He’d be out in a flash.  My mind searched for options and then suddenly I realized I was entirely naked, and sitting on the gurney with the Brother between my spread thighs.  Holy hell.  How did this happen so fast.  

I realized he had freed my wrists and a thought came to mind.  It wasn’t a great one, but it was the only one I could come up with under this amount of immediate pressure.  I nodded and gave a forced heated moan in an attempt to convince him I’m completely on board.  I gave my hand a quick lick and wrapped it around his cock, stroking slowly and letting the tip of his cock slide just past my entrance.  His hips went into full thrust mode and I shifted back.  

As luck would have it, he was too far gone to question or realize what was happening.  His body pumped and his mouth devoured my neck and then my breasts.  I was gonna be full of bruises at the rate this male was going.  His hands latched on to my hips and kept me from moving back again.  The tip of his cock almost entered me with each powerful thrust and the struggle to keep that from happening was almost enough for me to give it up and let him have his way.  A vision of Manny’s face gave me the willpower to keep up the struggle.  

 Murhder:    *Sweet Scribe in the fade this felt good.  MY female sucked me into her wet pussy like a hurricane sucks in moisture. She was wet and wild and I fucking craved every second of it.  My hands gripped her thighs tight.  Moving her with my thrusts as my head dipped down to suck her nipple into my mouth. One by one before I captured her full luscious lips and brought her to a full moan.   My tongue invaded her mouth and owned her inside and out along with my bonding scent which was swirling around us and seeping into her skin. Soaking her and marking her as MINE.

My cock jerked and burst out ropes of seed into MY female.  My hips slowed it’s pace until her walls milked me dry.  Lifting my head from her mouth I looked down and saw her hand wrapped around my cock.  FUCK.  

I wanted to punch a wall.  I wanted to punch her.  That’s it.  I wasn’t having any of this bullshit anymore.  My hand shot up and wrapped around her throat.  My mouth close enough for our lips to touch as I snarled*  What the fuck are you playing at female?

 Jane:   *His lips on mine weren’t awful.  They were actually very soft, but the intensity of the kiss was bruising. Focus Jane.  FFS.  The heat of the situation was getting to me or maybe it was his reaction to me?  I wasn’t sure, but I did start warming up way too much for my own liking.  I had to stay alert and keep my hand wrapped around him or he’d push inside me easily. I caught the aroma of his bonding scent and closed my eyes.  Could this get anymore complicated?  A sigh of relief washed over me when he ejaculated and returned to his senses. On some level anyway.  

The relief was short lived.  His reaction to seeing my hand wrapped around his cock was instant. I didn’t even have time to ghost. His hand was wrapped around my throat too tight.  When he didn’t loosen his grip and I couldn’t breathe, I felt tears well up in my eyes and spill over my lashes and down my cheeks.

His grip loosened instantly and I gasped for air and watched as he took a step back.  Was I crying?  Holy shit, that was weird.  I wasn’t the crying type, but given what just happened between us….   I was already dead, so it wasn’t like I was afraid he would kill me.

Wiping away at the tears I turned and looked around for something to cover myself with*

 Murhder:   *Something wet touched my fingers.  Jane was crying.  Scribe no. MY female was crying.  I let go and stepped back.  She was completely naked and I was still fully dressed.  I’d only freed my cock from its material prison, but she was completely naked.  Beautiful and MINE.   And crying. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK.  

My cock was hard again.  My body wanted more from My female.  My mind wanted more but I had to work this at a different angle.  As Jane looked around I stepped forward and wrapped my arms around her.*

I didn’t mean to hurt you leelan.  I’m not in control.  I didn’t mean to hurt you.

*Weeks of pent up aggression and sexual frustration lead to this moment and it wasn’t over.  Not by a long run.   My body was seconds away from another “autopilot” episode and I didn’t want to hurt Jane again.*

You need to go.  Now. I…  *I looked down at my hard cock and cursed under my breath.*

 Jane:   *The Brother embraced me with a kind of warmth I hadn’t felt from him before. Thank the heavens I had stopped crying or I’d be sobbing right now.  I knew I was crying because I was ashamed.  Ashamed because I ended up wanting this... with him…   It didn’t change how I felt about Manny, but it was alarming to think I wanted to be with this male, like this…  Him, of all people.

Go… I heard him say.  It took me a second to realize what he was talking about when he looked down. Ohhh….  Okay, we’re in for another ride or ten.   I wasn’t going anywhere.  That much I knew, but this had to happen in a different way.  I wanted to be with Manny and I wasn’t going to let this get in the way…  Or had it already….  

I hopped off the gurney and didn’t bother covering up. I knelt in front of the Brother and took his cock into my mouth, sucking and stroking until he released again and again. With each release his aggression subsided and the tension left the room bit by bit until he was completely sated and my mouth was raw.

Completely raw.

 Murhder:   *This female worked my cock with her mouth in ways no other female had ever done before. My hands fisted her hair and the edge of the bed and then they reached down to grab hold of any place on her body I could find.  One release after the other.  Jane rocked my fucking world over and over and she swallowed down everything I gave her.  

Once my cock stayed down long enough for her to get off her knees I pulled her up and steeled her in my arms by leaning back against the bed.  My own legs were jelly already but I didn’t want this to be over.   I moved us both up on the bed and got rid of my clothes. Skin on skin with My female felt better than it did in my dreams and my cock felt that way too.  Jane was still half asleep with her head on chest when I moved her up and draped her leg over mine for my cock to slide inside her.  The thrusting was as gentle as her moans until I released myself inside My female with a satisfied roar.

 Jane:   *The world moved around us, or maybe that was us moving.  I was exhausted and barely aware that I had ignored a few knocks on the door during this all day long session.  I did this to help him, right?  Why did this feel like I did it because I didn’t want to resist him anymore? Oh hell… I’m too tired to think about it.  I need sleep, food and then maybe I can think about this.

I felt the Brother move us up on the bed and, oh… he was moving me up along his body and draping my leg over him, and… Oh god… that feels good.  My core was aching and wet… and I didn’t notice until now how badly I needed a release too.  My hips moved with his gentle thrusts, and I felt myself come undone as he picked up the pace ever so slightly.  Slamming in deeper and harder until we both went over the edge and hit that perfect wave of ecstasy.  After today my body needed this, but I needed Manny*   #PentupRelease  @MurhderBDB and @TenaciousDoctor  #BondedBrothers