It was hotter than expected for this time of year, and as a result, Spirit was--well, a mess.
He never dealt with heat well, partially because he was insistent on wearing a black suit to work every single day (Shinigami-sama had never actually given him a dress code, but Spirit always assumed that if you were going to be working in the presence of a literal God you should at least try to dress nicely?), partially because his skin heated up at even the slightest bit of discomfort, so hot days were pretty hellish for him.
So, on days like today, when he was at home, he found himself wearing minimal clothing. Today, he was at Stein’s place, lounging around in nothing but a pair of boxers, his hair tied back into a messy bun. He didn’t really think much of his appearance (Stein had seen him in much less, after all), until he glanced over, and saw Stein staring at him with a pretty strange look on his face.
“...What?” Spirit asked, reaching up to wipe his forehead with the back of his hand. “Is there something on my face?”
Blair had invited him and Stein out for drinks to celebrate...what were they celebrating? Fuck. He couldn’t even remember. But Stein couldn’t go because he had work to get done, so Spirit went with her alone, and, that was just about how much he remembered before things started to get fuzzy.
And then, he woke up in a stranger’s bed.
Fuck.Fuck.Fuck.Fuck.
He scrambled out of bed, locating his clothes, and bolting out the door before whoever the hell was sharing the bed with woke up.
Tossing his jacket over his shoulder, and fixing his appearance enough that he could walk home without being completely embarrassed, Spirit looked around outside, realizing he was actually just outside of Death City. So he wasn’t near his own apartment. But...
He was near Hook Cemetery, though.
So, Spirit started walking, trying to figure out how he was going to explain all of...this to Stein.
He cheated. He fucking cheated. The one thing everyone had warned Stein against once they had gotten together. Spirit just went ahead and proved them all right. He couldn’t handle a relationship. All he ever did was hurt people. He hurt Kami, he hurt Maka, and now he was going to hurt Stein again.
Spirit stopped in his tracks as he let out a sob, biting down on his jacket as he let out a scream around the fabric. He was such a moron. He was so stupid--how was he going to fix this?
Finally, he found himself standing in front of the Patchwork Lab, letting out a shaky breath as he knocked.
Stein came to the door a few moments later, clearly having just woken up (Or maybe he was just exhausted from not having slept at all?) He could hardly get a greeting out before Spirit was sobbing again, hugging him tightly.
“I screwed up.” He breathed, his hands clawing to get a better grip on him--to pull him closer. “I screwed up--I’m sorry. I’m so sorry. I love you. I’m so sorry.” He whimpered, repeating the phrases over and over again, before slowly trailing off and eventually going completely silent as Stein started questioning him.
Letting out a shaky breath, Spirit squeezed his eyes shut, shaking his head.
“I got--I got drunk last night. I woke up in some--some stranger’s bed. I didn’t...I don’t remember any of it, but...” He whispered, pulling back slowly. Wiping his eyes, he shook his head. “But I put enough together to know that I...I cheated on you...”
“What’s...ya...o...i...?” He’s pretty sure he didn’t even say it right. He’s also pretty sure he doesn’t actually want to know the answer. But he’s concerned.
Send a 🎵 and I’ll post a song from my muse’s playlist
Starset edition...cause I love them, and felt like picking a song of theirs for each lad
Icarus - Starset
Fell out of the air and you broke your wings
Like you're doing every other time
Made a new pair
Out of broken things to give it all another try
And you climb right up to the highest peaks
And reach out to the edge of the world you seek
Afraid of heights so you don't believe
You could ever be good enough
Go on then Icarus
Take your turn
You always fly right up until it burns
Your wings you never could change
Always the victim
Into the flames again
Go on then Icarus
Take your turn
You'll never go through them
~
Perfect Machine - Starset
Show me your insides
Show me your secrets
Show me what you desire
I can fake it
Show what you wanted
So I can be it
And if I bend just right
I can make it
I didn't want you
I wanna watch you change
From a butterfly and into chains
Lay your heart into my perfect machine
I will show you what you wanted to see
Just a mirror 'til I get what I need
The reverie was not of me
You never saw nothing
Never saw nothing
~
Frequency - Starset
There's something here that's broken
There's something here with no end
It's paralyzed
It's in your eyes
'Cause I can feel your soul fade
I can feel your heart change
It falls out of phase with mine
While you oscillate inside
Or is it only in my head?
I was scanning through the skies
And missed the static in your eyes
Something blocking your reception
It's distorting our connection
With the distance amplified
Was it all just synthesize?
And now the silence screams that you are gone
You've tuned me out, I've lost your frequency
~
Trials - Starset
Hear me from the bottom
Forged in regret, I'm the silversmith
Doomsday, you had it coming
Marching the streets with an iron fist
Obey no more in silence
The steel in our hearts will be monuments
Today, they'll hear the violence
We'll rise from the dark like Lazarus
These trials make us who we are, who we are, we are
We're motivated by the scars that we're made of
These trials make us who we are, who we are, we are
We take our places in the dark
And turn our hearts to the stars
[text] Wait. Fuck. Seriously?[text] Yeah. Yes. Yes, I do.[text] But. Shit I’m at WORK.[text] You want Shinigami-sama to kill me, don’t you?[text] You want him to chop me so hard that I drop dead, huh? Because that’s what’s gonna happen if you send me a pic right now.[text] …[text] …but send me a pic anyways? I’m pretty sure my death would be worth it.
