the music :: “human”, off things i will need in the past // rachel’s been in love exactly twice in her life. the first time was in college, with a fellow dancer she met her sophomore year named effy bennett. effy was everything rachel wasn’t - brash, wild, chaos incarnate and when rachel took an interest, effy did her part by dragging her out of her spoiled shell and showing her another side to life rachel had never seen before.
the two quickly became inseparable, where one went the other followed. while effy had a reputation that preceded her, rachel took no notice. while effy may have been promiscuous sexually, there was only two people she could truly say she loved, and rachel knew that one of them was herself.
after graduation, the two started to fracture apart at the seams. effy moved out to vegas, and the distance was too much to bear for rachel, missing her best friend, her other half, the girl she thought might have been the love of her life.
working through her heartache, she penned a song while visiting her surrogate mother down in arizona one weekend. all of her pain, misery and loneliness seeped into a ballad that she’s performed on stages around the country - and once in front of effy herself, two years ago at a bar in vegas.
though she’s moved on by now, effy was a large influence in her life, altering her and forcing her to grow. while rachel is still often sheltered, spoiled and a ‘diva; by all means, the connection the two shared is ultimately what rachel yearns for now, with someone new.
well time saw us take the fall / but you stayed in one piece
‘cuz if you bleed after all / it ain’t over me
baby you let me down / & just my blinded eyes are to blame
‘cuz who could love still / without the power of sight
across the sea that holds us in place
so get out of my mind / & get out of my heart
it’s only midnight here in arizona but the sun’s come up where you are
i don’t blame you for wandering / ‘cuz you’re only human