#mutual confessions

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I’m doing this on mobile please forgive all my spelling & grammar sins.

Girl, you are just one of those magnetic people I’m attracted to on so many levels.

Through pretty quietly appreciating your existence on tumblr dot com, I’ve discerned that you are this amazingly independent lady who has the most amusing interactions with classic fuckboys. I love how you know your worth and demand that men respect that. Your ability to shut down the guys who don’t respect you instead of allowing them to tear you down is one of those things that makes you an everyday female role model. Whether it’s confidence or whatever you want to call it, your ability to love and protect your worth is something I respect so much. All the women who get to interact with you everyday after very lucky to have such a strong willed lady to lead by example!

You are one of those people who takes everything you can get out of life and I love that. You don’t passively participate in your life, you go out and take what you want. You make your memories instead of waiting for them to happen.

You’ve got the most trouble making smile I’ve ever seen, the kind of smile that makes preacher’s sons skip Sunday school and farmer boys borrow their daddy’s tractor only to wreck it. The way you dress is just exceedingly perfect for your personality and is just downright cute & well put together. You always look like you’re ready to get dirty but also to get any innocent boys in a heap of trouble. This is maybe a weird one, but I love your complexion. Your freckles and just the sun kissed quality of your skin adds so much to your bad country girl vibe. You are drop dead gorgeous in one of the most inviting ways. While my image of you is tank tops and jeans, you could easily rock any thing you wanted.

As an equestrian I have so much respect for you doing all you do. Barrel racing is tough shit and I’m so in love with the fact that you understand the techniques, the theory , and training to really be an effective rider. There’s certainly that anti-western bias on this site where people assume Western riders just sit and kick so I just love love love watching you prove people wrong. I also love how how well you take care of your horses! As someone who nearly went pre-vet I’m it always warms my heart to see people going above and beyond with their horse’s wound/illness care! You’re doing a great job with Chexy in ALL aspects of being a horse owner and equestrian :)

Oh and I totally periodically send you anons when you’re bored.

Keep doing what your doing because you’re just this badass country chick who I’m crushing on a little bit and for sure get post videos of all your runs because I love seeing the control you keep in your barrel pattern!

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Stephy <3I’m not going to say anything about you picking a special different heart, oh wait yes I am: you are so typical lol.Stephanie you are a fuckin’ loser.There, that’s it. The end.

This is sort of a confessional so I guess let’s be all honest about our friendship origins. I find it really sort of perfect that we essentially started talking because you were involved in some drama on my dash so I went to call you out. Basically it’s hysterical now that I’d go on the attack for you and basically just wait for you to tag me into drama. Essentially I loves you.

You have such an incredibly fun personality but you’ve got far more substance than just being someone it would be wicked fun to get a drink with. You love all your friends quite fiercely, you’re incredibly ambitious, you’re far more sensitive and compassionate than I think you like to let on, and you’ve got this wonderful spark for life. You truly embody the concept of a teddy bear playing at a grizzly (not in a bad way though) because once people are lucky enough to get to know you & get your guard down you are such a sweetheart. I’ve been lucky enough to catching glimpses of how you’ve  grown even more into your own just in the past however months we’ve known each other. From our earliest interactions playing League of Legends over skype to our pretty much daily conversations through text/snaps I’ve gotten to be inspired by a you going out and taking what you want in life. Your ability to make the tough decisions that are the best for you in the long run is something I deeply admire in you. In fact, I think I’ve even told you that you have to help bully me into the right decisions for myself when I’m being a pansy.You are a very fantastic dressage rider but I feel that does without saying for pretty much all my dressage girls. Absolute pole queen, but more impressive than your dedication to poles is the work you’ve put on Val since he was just a young horse. The fact that you’re able to keep up your level of work essentially on your own is something everyone should strive to do. You’re a go to source of information of theory and one of the gospel voices on what is or is not “good”. You are my go to lady for talking sexy things with because bless you for having next to zero judgement. You’re one of the people who I am not concerned with finding out about “shameful” type things about myself or my past. I think you’re pretty great at handling almost any information that comes your way without falling toward a black and white judgement. Your complete lack of shyness or awkwardness when talking about X-rated subjects is refreshing but also deeply hilarious at times. You are seriously rattled by nothing and while I have no qualms asking you weird ass shit, I am also a 12 year old boy who still laughs at the number 69. One of the things that I really love and cherish about you is that you bring out aspects of my personality that I thought I had lost-- which I appreciate so much. Your love of life is extremely contagious.You have beautiful eyes and a gorgeous smile. I love, love your shiny long hair. It’s basically unfair and I don’t know how you do it. You could probably wear a dress made out of Kermit the Frog heads and still look very lovely. I told myself I wasn’t going to talk about your titties, but oops. Holy shit your tits are fucking rocking it is disrespectful to both the forces of gravity and puberty. You are A+, 10/10, and The Worst. I love you Wing Street, USA.

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MY SWEDE :3To be perfectly honest I nearly died when you started following my personal blog and thus were able to see the *ahem* scandalous posts I sometimes reblog... I like to joke that you are an ethereal being made of pure light (and thus would not have ever had sex because you are too innocent and perfect).Well, we know the truth there. ;)Who knew this very ridiculous website would find me so many wonderful, perfect friends? I don’t know what to say about our friendship other than it MOST definitely started over a mutual obsession with gossiping and *cough* drama *cough* but I have come to regard you as one of my true friends who I can take problems to AND whine to whenever I feel like being a little whiny baby. Particularly since our age difference really makes it better for me to complain for the sake of complaining and not feel like I am being overly serious about all “my massive problems” that I want to be a baby about. After all, you are Mama Malin and you would most certainly call me on my nonsense if I ever took myself too seriously! You are mischievous in the best sense of the word, beautifully educated, an impressive second language English speaker (it always throws me for a loop momentarily when you ask me what a word is or if it fits in a sentence), quite the sweet caring mommy figure, and my perfectly matched partner in “loving British men, crushing on Alicia Vikander, being dumbfounded by Tumblr, and giving & receiving life advice”. I love how you adore my eloquence and praise me for it frequently but this response is literally word vomit. I do not think I have ever on the history of the planet been mad at you but I am certain if we lived significantly closer I would probably get mad at you at least once. Although if I got mad at you it would be weird because my immediate reaction would probably to try and rant/destress to you about how I was mad at you and then I would just be like “wait, I’m fucking mad at Malin that’s not going to work out.”YOU ARE A GORGEOUS DRESSAGE RIDER and this tiny part of me (it’s actually not tiny at all) has this massive desire to see you jump. Not to mention how much I love the fact that you prefer colours on your tack and just have this boldness in experimenting with colours on your pony! Even though you like colour and aren’t soooo traditional in your attire, you’ve got impeccable I love love love everything you’re doing with Pearl and your openness and awareness about when it’s a piloting issue getting in your way of even more success! I get frustrated for you knowing you’ve been in scenarios where someone would rather no longer be your friend than be able to be supportive of the successes you’re having with your young horse!I love sneaking my phone out to respond to your messages throughout my god awful morning shift and I think my favorite thing about our friendship is that we can literally talk about anything. From our ponies, to hot men, to food, and even the not so fun real stuff happening in our lives-- we can talk about anything at all without being at a loss for what to say!ANYTIME you want to come to the United States, I would go rob an Ikea and make a tiny Swedish bedroom replica in my home for you to stay at AND your mere existence makes the idea of dropping about $1200 on plane tickets look like kind of an attractive offer... I LOVE YOU AND I MISSED YOU THESE PAST FEW DAYS BECAUSE I AM A TINY BABY.

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My Laura :)You are one of those people I feel insanely comfortable with and know I can just be the purest version of myself without any judgement. You are a very selfless, loving, driven, and all around amazing lady who inspires me to be the best version of myself everyday. You’ve coaxed my out of bad moods, yelled at me, and made me laugh endlessly. One of the things I love about you is that it’s okay for you to be mad at me because you’re always willing to be upfront about it and even when you want to be left alone you humor my need to know if you’re still alive. The fact that we’re not all rainbows and sunshine is this amazing refreshing element of realness I have been missing out on.You are a stellar rider and what you’ve managed so far with Arrow is spectacular! Not to mention all the gorgeous work you’ve already accomplished with Riley. You have some insane fortitude riding as many horses you do everyday but holy damn you are so incredibly physically fit it just amazes me. Your ability to handle the workload you set for yourself is awe inspiring. I really don’t know how you do it, but I know seeing you manage your time so well as to do every little thing you do makes me want to try harder. I know you think I tease you sometimes, but I am honestly just frequently vying for President of the Laura Fan Club position and just love praising every new little positive attribute I learn about you (which includes those wicked biceps).Sometimes you make me sad when you don’t think you’re worth my time because honestly you are hands down one of the best, most honest, and worthwhile person I have had the pleasure of getting to know. You always have a place to stay if you need it and if you need me to fight someone I can always just fly down to you. I love our nearly daily phone calls and all the snaps you send me (even though I am really bad at remember to respond to them so much of the time). I want you to remember that as breathtakingly beautiful of a person you are on the inside, you are also a gorgeous person on the outside. You have this warm lovely smile, bright eyes, luscious hair, perfect apple cheeks, and an amazing strong body. You look good in anything.Not to mention your impeccable ability to put up with me periodically being this massive sap. I love you, you are one of my most cherished people, and I look forward to eventually furthering our friendship in person!

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Bahaha man I feel that so hard.SINCE YOU WERE MY FIRST TUMBLR PERSON I MET IN PERSON WHO “doesn’t live near me” I WAS SUPER NERVOUS THAT YOU WOULD BE A SERIAL KILLER. Well not a serial killer more like, “what if this person drives me insane or we INSTANTLY HATE EACH OTHER FOR NO REASON” type scenario.BUT. GUESS. WHAT. You are not a serial killer and you are a super sweet & funny person who is def worth the hassle of figuring out how to use a parking garage. You are super gung-ho and passionate about things that need change in our society and I totally respect and admire that! Plus, we both had the shared experience of sobbing over numerous things in a movie theatre which is a bonding experience because I cry really hard over literally anything.Although, we have to agree to disagree on the attractiveness of Tom Hiddleston and I will NEVER forgive you for calling him ugly.

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DIANA, this is the confession about you one right?Alright, so at that hellish Chablis nonsense Emily made us do at first I was like “wow she is really standoffish and possibly mean” AND THEN as the hours drug on and I saw the shit you were dealing with I was like “OHHH DIANA’S LIFE IS JUST LITERALLY HELL RIGHT NOW AND SHE WANTS SOMEONE TO PITY MURDER HER RIGHT ABOUT THIS SECOND” and then afterwards the rest of the weekend I was just 100% in love with catching the most exasperated looks you were making it was seriously making my life.From what I’ve seen of your riding via the internet, I think you look like quite the nice soft dressage rider and I think you should totally pick a weekend sometime to go trail riding with me because basically I am just always over here silently admiring you. *sees Diana post update about herself* “Damn, nice. This is the stuff I like.”