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It is important to be aware of what our unconscious truly desires. We are so distracted by money, status, everyone else’s lives, and always critiquing ourselves. The Universe is always trying to shine light on what we need to remember to focus on, and what we truly want in this life. Earlier this week I had to go to the podiatrist to figure out why my right foot was in so much pain. Because I have to wear dress boots to work everyday I’m not really getting the support that I need on the bottom of my arch. The doctor said I had plantar fasciitis and that I should stay off my feet as much as I could for the rest of the week. So I had to call out of work this week to put my health first.
I know that when physical challenges arise, that the Universe is really trying to show me something. For the first time in forever I was forced to stay home and focus on healing myself. This meant not having to think about work. With work out of my mind I begun to really dig deep inside. What else would I be doing since I don’t have to work this week?
I’ve been meditating every morning. I updated my photography blog with photos I took at the new Wizarding World of Harry Potter at the Universal Studios in Hollywood. I just sat and listened to music. I took my sweet time with everything I did. I got crafty and made the invitations for my bachelorette party. I went outside and took some photos. I started painting a wooden table that my mom found for my niece and nephews. I'm getting involved in this non-profit organization that my friend is putting together. Getting back into artist management and social media marketing. And the list goes on.
Last week I went to my friend’s house warming party. In Long Beach if you have a house that you can have live bands playing at that is a gem. There were instruments set up and people just played throughout the night. My fiance is actually in a band with our friend and practices there every weekend. But the fact that we were surrounded by friends who were all artists in that house reminded me of how blessed I was. I have so many creative people in my life. Just being around that was inspiring. Being with them allowed me to step back from my busy work life to see what really meant the most to me.
Creating is my life. And I have to remind myself of that every day. I got so lost in the hustle of making money that I forgot to feed my soul. I am an artist first. I am here to create and to express myself. I am here. I have lost so many talented friends to death. And the lesson I learned from each of them is to never stop creating. No matter how hard things get or how tired I am, I need to keep on creating. Till the very end. I need to let go of the distractions at work and really focus on my intention in life. The most important reason why I am here right now, is to love.
Love is my intention. I am here to love and be loved. I am here to heal and be healed. I am here. Every day I wake up is the biggest gift. It is another chance to be the very best version of myself. How much can we do in a day? How far are we willing to go in order to explore? How much do we trust the Universe? How open do we make ourselves to receive? We are the creator of our lives and we need to remember that.
