Jan 5, 2020
My birthday...
is in a month...
and...
I still think it’s October.
Again: my birthday is February 16 and I KEEP FORGETTING ITS SO CLOSE
I’M GOING TO MEET AMBER LIU THAT FOLLOWING WEEKEND AND I WILL FINALLY BE ABLE TO LEGALLY DRINK. YOU’D THINK I WOULD BE MORE EXCITED, BUT I JUST KEEP FORGETTING 2020 ALREADY STARTED
#my brain doesnt function#im working on Eat Til Full and i just had to stop and realize that#thats a tentative name for my exo collab piece btw#but like... wut#im going to be 21 and my stupid aquarius ass should be hella happy#but i just... forget#i just wanna move to korea already#im so sick of everything#my mind is so full but so blank at the same time#im hating myself and hating my writing and hating that i have to go back to school#my mental health is in shambles#but its also not even there#i cant even tell that im not doing well mentally#its all very confusing and i just want to start over#i want a tattoo for my birthday but im broke#i need to use my financial aid to buy a new phone#and i need to find a job if i even want to think about getting the tattoo#i feel like im going insane#someone wanna send me cute kpop mental health boys???#please???
