#my brooding

[mar-metal]

“In the world, I find no remedy. In humanity, I find no treatment.”

-my recent journal excerpt

[mar-metal]

Shoutout to all cashiers and janitors in my town that know me. They don’t know my name, and I don’t know theirs. But they tell me they haven’t seen me around in a while if I haven’t gone shopping, have helped me carry heavy things, walked me to my car to avoid creeps, complimented my outfits. I don’t know these beautiful people, but they make my day. A simple smile has given me more of a connection to them than some of my friends. My heart goes out to humanity and all of its fondness.

[lookingfortranquility]

Got my first shot of AstraZeneca today. Fingers crossed that I don’t suddenly die in my sleep. Or at all.

[lookingfortranquility]

I need a new laptop. I mean, I can’t afford a new one. But really, I need one.

[lookingfortranquility]

Today I was extra helpful at work to try and show what a valuable employee I am. I think it earned me some brownie points with the team leader. Go me!

[lookingfortranquility]

I think my autistic side might be preventing me from fully understanding what all this drama is about...

[lookingfortranquility]

My mother’s crying because there apparently was some kind of attack in Vienna with multiple people injured or maybe even killed. Now she’s afraid that there could be a similar attack in our town. How am I supposed to comfort her if I can’t even promise that there won’t be?

[lookingfortranquility]

Eating lasagna in the middle of the night together with my 3 cats while listening to Pavarotti.

This is the life.