#my nagging

[freakymafiacult]

im at peace now that i’m not quite in the fandom anymore. u guys have fun with the racist garbage that is postal… show no mercy’s gonna stay up and still be postal related, i have just gotten to see very personally how racist and nasty people are here and how it often goes unquestioned, and i’m not going to give my energy to a fanbase that does not actually care about keeping their spaces safe for black people 😅

the below is largely for anyone who cares or wants an explanation

i have dedicated a lot of this time attempting to help as many others as i could, i have exposed many genuinely terrible people and i have helped other victims get away from groomers and i value all of the perspective i have gotten. i have gone through much change and i thank everyone who was there for me and gave me a chance. i stand by everything i have done, i will not make any attempts to claw at a cleaner image of myself because the conversations that surround me are malicious. it is from white people that simply refuse to believe that someone they know can be capable of such wrongdoing, which is a bad view on relationships and i hope you are all able to change like i have.

it often has felt like no matter how respectful i could have been with people here, it would not matter. i will admit that the past few months have been very distressing for me because of my preexisting trauma related to not being believed when coming forward about abuse i was experiencing. its like a lose-lose, i either don’t come forward with anything and feel tortured with the idea of the people who did it getting away, or i forsake having community because i chose to come forward and no one wants to give me the light of day. i am not the only person this has happened to and this kind of mentality is always going to affect victims everywhere. being able to do proper investigation, interview others, to know the whole story and support another victim brought me so much peace to know i’m not alone on it. i encourage everyone to do this before they begin to spread a mere half of the narrative.

i apologize if there is any side of any story i have missed, i welcome any questions or discussion with me that is made in good faith. i also apologize if there has been anyone i have unnecessarily hurt, as it is not my goal to do that with anyone who is truly innocent in all this. i have cut ties with people like eddie, and i do not support the way he would talk about others involved. i feel the need to mention this incase it is still used as a fact. i wish you all wellness & healing.

[freakymafiacult]

Hello, my name is Nemesis ❤︎. My pronouns are she/he, and I am a transfemme intersex fagdyke bear.

I am black, autistic and schizo. I like to be perceived as an entity. I will block lolisho + tcc + incest and pedo shippers on site.

ㅤㅤ♡ྀི: hatred, postal, bayonetta, overwatch, dress-up games, V系, medical aesthetics + autopsies, metal gear, no more heroes, 2010’s internet culture

Musique: jpegmafia, death grips, devi mccallion, dir en grey, buck tick, jesus loves junkies + various witch house industrial dsbm experimental rap etc etc. I just love music.

[freakymafiacult]

demon theory and its canonization with f&w is just plain ableism and its so strange to me that its being celebrated. do u people just not get bored of the “evil alter takes over and kills people” trope?

[freakymafiacult]

the bots keep trying to have sex with me because i speak eloquently and i am a gentlewoman

[freakymafiacult]

happy pride month to the fagdykes and transfemascs U DESERVE LOVE TOO!!!!!!!!

[freakymafiacult]

that new postal comic bout to be ASS i predict but i bet im gonna see 50 million yaoi arts of the new dude anyway

[freakymafiacult]

in other news, jester/skye has been trying to come back (despite saying he would when its his birthday Lol…?) and i advise u guys to block him! he has groomed my friends and u can likely find things of him on this account. @/beatnikthenitwik on here & tiktok

[freakymafiacult]

white people get so serious about the word larp but not all the aave they misuse