Book Review #32:
Title: The Phantom of the Opera
Author: Gaston Leroux
Genre: gothic literature, historical fiction, classics, horror, mystery, romance, tragedy, France.
Page count: 262
Rating: 5/5 ⭐️
Spicy: 1/5 🌶️

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Book Review #32:
Title: The Phantom of the Opera
Author: Gaston Leroux
Genre: gothic literature, historical fiction, classics, horror, mystery, romance, tragedy, France.
Page count: 262
Rating: 5/5 ⭐️
Spicy: 1/5 🌶️
My Inspirations for Lost Boy's Solace
So, this has been something I've been wanting to do since I started my analysis of Re:Kinder's inspirations, and well, I have my own inspirations that coincide with mine, and I wanted to give at least six. So, without further ado, let's get started.
1: Next To Normal (Musical) - Brian Yorkey and Tom Kitt
I've talked about this show before, and I've used songs from it in my musical character analysis series, so I won't linger for too long. Like Re:Kinder, this is a show about mental health and struggling to deal with it, both as the person with the illness and the people who surround you. This show is messy and honest. It's very good, but also very hard to sit through. It's also my number one favorite musical of all time. The plot of this show revolves around Diana Goodman and her family, which consists of her husband, Dan, her daughter, Natalie, and her son, Gabe, as they navigate her bipolar disorder and her delusions. I relate this show to Re:Kinder, namely due to the struggles Diana faces, and how Yuuichi's Mom's struggles are similar. The major difference is that Diana gets help while Akari can't, and that help still isn't enough for Diana. It shows the reality that even with the services we have today, it's still a flawed system that sometimes focuses more on stability rather than happiness, despite that only being one part of what the client needs. Next to Normal has a Proshot available on BroadwayHD. I also have access to the musical if any of you are interested. I highly recommend it. The London Cast Album that came out last year is one of the best cast recordings I've ever listened to. The Broadway Cast Album is good, too, but it has a lot of baggage, and I can't recommend it because of that baggage. If you can't see the show, listen to the London recording; most of the show is on there.
2: Waitress (Musical and Film) - Adrienne Shelley (Film) and Jessie Nelson & Sara Bareilles (Musical)
If you want a raw matriarchal show, I can't recommend Waitress enough. Both the film and the musical are very good, and I can't recommend either enough. Waitress is a story about a woman named Jenna trying to regain control of her life after a series of decisions landed her in an abusive relationship with a man who's never loved her at all. The musical and the movie both showcase how hard it is to break free from a cycle of abuse. While also showing the little joys that make life worth living. Both are great. Both are messy. And I can't recommend it enough. Both are what inspire me to try and write women as complete characters, and the abusive relationship in Waitress is very reflective of what Yuuichi's Mom deals with, even though Yuuichi's Dad is not as bad as Earl (Jenna's husband), although the bar is in hell, and Earl is sitting very comfortably on that bar, Yuuichi's Dad is honestly not far from said bar, with his self-awareness being the only reason he's a slim better than Earl.
3: Good Will Hunting (Movie) - Matt Damon, Ben Affleck, and Gus Van Sant
Good Will Hunting is in my top five movies of all time. This movie is just as messy, but also really healing for me. With excellent performances by Robin Williams (one of my favorite roles he's ever done) and Matt Damon, and a great ensemble cast of Ben Affleck, Minnie Driver, and Stellan Skarsgard. This movie is about healing, surviving everything life gives you, and using it to make something of yourself, especially when you have the talents of our main character, Will Hunting, who is a very smart and educated young man, and an excellent mathematician despite not being able to go to college. Will Hunting, however, lived in a very abusive home, and while he hides it very well, it's still affecting him to this day. This is the movie where the "It's not your fault" scene comes from. And that scene is just one of many scenes that really show just how hard it is to heal and make the right decisions for yourself, even if it's outside your comfort zone. While the "it's not your fault" scene is highly praised for good reason, I have to give special shout-out to Robin Williams ' monologue that he gives to Will after their first meeting. The scene that has him say, "I doubt you ever dared to love anyone that much." That scene really has his character, Sean, really call out Will's defence mechanisms and how even though he's intelligent, he doesn't have any wisdom. That he uses his intelligence as a flex, but doesn't do anything with it. That everything he knows is from a book, instead of it being real experience. It's a great scene, and I am not selling how good it is. But I really have to give love to Minnie Driver's scene where she is telling Will that she knows he's not perfect, but she wants to try a real relationship with him, even knowing he's afraid of something real. And one of my personal favorite scenes is "Best part of my day" scene with Ben Affleck, where he gets through to Will that he is wasting his talent and he should be using it to make himself a better life, even if it means separating from his best friend. There are so many great scenes in this film, and I love it to death. This film really shows what it's like to heal from a traumatic childhood and how you can use that experience to be a kind person in this world, even if you're jaded and cynical. And I think this film really works as a companion piece to Re:Kinder
4: Silent Hill Series (Video Games) - Various
Oh, Silent Hill... One of my favorite horror video games of all time. Okay, so I can't really go into which specific Silent Hill game is an inspiration for my story and how I think it fits Re:Kinder because, honestly, it's more so the vibes of the games, and the themes of some of them. For example, Silent Hill 3 and Silent Hill f are games that talk about the struggles of growing up as a girl, but both do it differently. Silent Hill 3 is more subtle, while also having implications for the main character being used as a vessel, while Silent Hill f is more overt with its message about women growing up in a society or world that looks down on them. But then there are other series like 2, Homecoming, Downpour, and Short Message, which are more about grief, depression, and regret. Even the ones like the first Silent Hill are about what someone will do to protect the one they love, and all the hardship they're willing to face just to keep that person safe. And then there is Silent Hill 4, which really speaks about confinement and isolation and how that can affect someone. Honestly, I am surprised that Parun didn't list Silent Hill as an inspiration, since Silent Hill acts as an entity of its own, creating monsters based on the personal demons of the protagonists (except for 1, 4, and, honestly, Downpour, because that game didn't really think about the monster design at all). And in Re:Kinder, the Priestesses we fight seem very reflective of Yuuichi and his own personal demons... Plus, with how Shunsuke seems to comment on the town in the game, it just gives Silent Hill vibes.
5: The Strange Men Series (Video Games) - Uri
Okay. Time for me to recommend an RPGMaker Horror game series that really pulled me back into the genre. We have this series (and Omori, I thought about putting that down, because there are a lot of thematic threads between the two, but I decided against it because it didn't really inspire me) to thank for me ever finding Re:Kinder in the first place. While I haven't replayed it in a hot minute, the feelings this series gives me are all too similar to the feeling Re:Kinder gives me. Each game tells a different story with a different protagonist and a different style of horror. If you've heard of any of these games, it was The Crooked Man, since that came out around the era where big-name YouTubers were playing RPGMaker horror games, but the other games are just as good and worth your time. The Crooked Man and the Hanged Man are probably the closest in tone to Re:Kinder when it's serious, while The Sand Man has more of a surreal, dreamlike atmosphere that matches Re:Kinders setting, and The Boogie Man is probably the game that really has the more B-Movie style that matches Re:Kinder when it's silly, but also has moments of introspection that go in line with the series really well...
6: Monster (2023) (Movie) - Hirokazu Kore-eda & Yuji Sakamoto
So... I consider this movie to be one of the most important movies of the 21st century, and to explain why would be to spoil the twist of this movie. Monster is a coming-of-age, psychological drama mystery thriller, with the psychological drama mystery thriller part coming in the first two parts of the film, and the coming-of-age part coming in the last part of the film. This movie goes over a timeline of events from three different perspectives: the Mom, Saori Miguno, the teacher, Michitoshi Hori, and the son, Minato Miguno. This film showcases how we as people perceive others as monsters based on incomplete or flawed information, and the story kinda acts as one big puzzle. We're given one story, then it's followed by another story, and these two stories contradict each other heavily, but then we get to the final POV, and everything makes sense. I genuinely want to say more, but you need to watch this film. This film is best experienced knowing as little as possible. I will be making a post of each of these inspirations and analyzing them, likely starting with Monster. To give you an incentive to watch this film, this is where the queer aspects of my inspiration come into play, and that's really all I can say. Even that might be too much. I will say, once you watch this film, look up what the director said about the ending, because your first interpretation of the ending may or may not be incorrect. In that regard, the director underestimated how many people would interpret it in a certain way despite his real intentions... Man, I really want to talk about this film in relation to Re:Kinder because I genuinely think if Parun was still alive, this movie would've been an inspiration for one of his works... This is basically the closest we'll ever get to Parun's works getting a movie, and to describe it another way, it's basically like seeing an alternate version of Shunsuke and Yuuichi... and I'll leave it at that...
So, yeah, if you ever need to kill time, or if any of you want to see what makes my mind tick, watch these films and play these games. They get a glowing recommendation from me, and I especially recommend Next to Normal, Good Will Hunting, and Monster. If nothing else, watch those, because they really did help me through a rough time, and I can't praise them enough.
Hey everyone! 💖 Since spring is here and summer is on the way, sunscreen is now more important than ever. (Even though we should all really be wearing sunscreen year long, but that’s beside the point.) Anyway, I thought I’d share my sunscreen collection along with a review of each one! Btw these are all fragrance and alcohol free. And I’ve worn each of these in the sun for several hours and have not caught a burn.
*I have sensitive, combo-dry skin and a light complexion, but my mother who has oily skin and a medium brown complexion (she’s about Kerry Washington’s color), has tested these out as well so I have an idea of how these work on both skin types.
-ROHTO Skin Aqua Super Moisture Milk (SPF 50 PA ++++) 40mL
Actives: Zinc Oxide, Octinoxate, Uvinul A Plus
Evie (@jaderoller) thank you so much for suggesting this to me, 💖 it’s absolutely fantastic! (Here’s Evie’s review) Definitely the most “cosmetically elegant” sunscreen formulation I own. Despite the zinc content, this doesn’t feel pasty or heavy at all. Texturally it’s like a runny, liquidy cream and it’s incredibly easy to rub in. Upon first application it feels very emollient/silicone-ish and slightly oily but once it’s completely rubbed in it leaves behind a barely there, soft, satiny finish. The finish isn’t tacky or sticky feeling in any way shape or form. Actually, as I went about my day I forgot I even had it on. The skin aqua is quite moisturizing so people with oily skin could probably skip moisturizer, but it wouldn’t be quite enough for people with dry skin. This left no white cast on either me or my mother, so I think people with darker complexions would enjoy this as well.
TLDR; Suitable for dry and oily skin types, zero white cast, suitable for light and dark skin complexions, light texture, spreadable and moisturizing
-MyChelle Sun Shield Unscented SPF 28 / 2.3 fl oz
Actives: Zinc Oxide 11.6%, Titanium Dioxide 0.67%
Listen, this stuff is like spackle. Once it’s on, it’s not coming off unless you remove it with an oil cleanser. It has a lotion texture that I find relatively easy to blend in with only minimal resistance. Mind you, I do use moisturizer’s like jojoba oil underneath all my sunscreens so that does improve their spreadability. It sets quickly to a matte finish so this formula is perfect for people with oily skin. Despite it’s mattifying qualities, I don’t find it overly drying so people with combo-dry skin could potentially like this as well, just remember to apply moisturizer beforehand. My only gripe is that it’s just too sticky/tacky unless you’re layering makeup over it. On the plus side, the sticky finish allows it to work wonderfully as a primer. Also this is the only mineral sunscreen I’ve ever used that doesn’t give my skin a white cast. And it’s the only mineral sunscreen that hasn’t given my mom a white cast, which is even more impressive. Now I’m not sure how suitable this would be for someone who’s, lets say, Lupita Nyong’os color but if you have a medium brown skin tone this could work.
TLDR; Better suited to oily skin types but could potentially work for dryer skin types, mattifying, tacky/sticky finish, effective makeup primer, suitable for both light and medium-brown complexions
-Burn Out Broad Spectrum SPF 30 For Face and Body 2.4 oz
Actives: Zinc Oxide (non-nano) 18.6%
So, for a sunscreen with 18.6% zinc content this is actually quite pleasant to use! Unfortunately though, I still have mixed feelings about it. Texturally it feels like a unique cross between a lotion and a gel. And although it’s easier to spread than most mineral sunscreens, it still takes a bit of effort to completely blend in. Once it’s blended in it leaves behind a slightly tacky film. Personally, I don’t find the tacky finish too bothersome, but it definitely keeps me aware that I have sunscreen on. However, similarly to the MyChelle sunscreen, the tackiness of this makes it a fantastic makeup primer! This stuff keeps my makeup locked in and looking fresh for about 7 hours. Also, unlike most zinc sunscreens, this formula feels moisturizing and gives my skin a slightly satiny/dewy look. For folks with dry skin who want a purely mineral sunscreen this would be ideal (I’d still suggest wearing a moisturizer underneath though). Oily skinned people would probably enjoy this too, since it’s not overly moisturizing/dewy. On my complexion, this leaves a slight white cast.
TLDR; Suitable for dry and oily skin types, slight white cast, not suitable for darker complexions, slight tacky finish, effective makeup primer, moisturizing
-Bare Minerals Prep Step Broad Spectrum SPF 50 / 40 mL (This may have been discontinued, I’m not quite sure)
Actives: Zinc Oxide 23.8%, Titanium Dioxide 4.1%
This is hands down the most cosmetically elegant mineral sunscreen I’ve ever used. Considering the high amounts of zinc and titanium included in this sunscreen I’m actually shocked by the thinness and spreadability of it. Kudos to the Bare Minerals chemist team for figuring out how to make zinc and titanium behave this way. In fact a lot of “chemical” sunscreens aren’t even formulated this well, but I’ve sadly come to realize that this formula just isn’t the best option for my skin type 😢. So, this is a featherlight liquid-y lotion that feels like a light oil when it’s first applied, but then dries down to a powdery matte finish. The matte finish is pleasant at first, but even for someone like me who preps with multiple moisturizers and whose skin is more on the combo side, throughout the day my skin still managed to feel dry and look dull. And despite it’s mattifying properties it doesn’t manage to keep my makeup intact like the Burn Out sunscreen does. On my complexion it gives a very, very slight whitish-peach tint to the skin. One last thing is that, at $30 this is pretty expensive, especially when you consider how little product you get. Now, with all that said, this is still an excellent sunscreen, it’s just better suited to oiler skin types.
TLDR; Suitable for oily skin types, not suitable for dry skin, very slight white cast, not suitable for darker complexions, mattifying, spreadable
Based on my skin type and textural preferences here is each sunscreen rated from most to least favorite: -ROHTO Skin Aqua Super Moisture Milk, Burn Out Broad Spectrum SPF 30 For Face and Body, Bare Minerals Prep Step Broad Spectrum SPF 50, MyChelle Sun Shield Unscented SPF 28
I hope this is helpful! :) 😉
Do you know any good nude lips for the brownie girls ? 🍫💋👩🏾
Hey honeybun! I sure do 😉 Most of the colors I picked range from dark brown to light tan since I feel like these kinds of nude colors are harder to find than mauve nudes, but I threw a few mauve shades in there too. If you or anybody else wants some more pink/mauve lip suggestions just ask me and I’ll make another list!
Also, you probably already know this but for anyone who doesn’t, dark skinned people can look great in pale nudes as well! As long as you wear a brown lip liner or use a darker lip shade underneath to “ground” the color, it’ll look good.
*Each category is ordered from least to most expensive
Lip Liner
Jordana Classic Lip Liner - Hot Cocoa
Nyx Slim Lip Pencil - Espresso
OCC Makeup Cosmetic Colour Pencils - Sybil
Mac Lip Pencil - Cork, Chestnut
Lipstick
Nicka K Silky Matte Lipstick - Irish Coffee
Colourpop Ultra Satin Lip - Tansy
Colourpop Lux Lipstick - Friends
Nyx Soft Matte Lip Cream - London, Dubai
Nyx Turnt Up! Lipstick - Dirty Talk
OCC Makeup Lip Tar - Ghostwood, Sybil
Mented Cosmetics Lip Shades - Dope Taupe, Foxy Brown
Dose of Colors Desi x Katy - More Creamer Please
Dose of Colors Lip it Up Satin Lipstick - Cinnamon Swirl, Toast, Fudge, Mocha
MAC Matte Lipstick - Velvet Teddy
Smash box Be Legendary Lipstick - Chai
Too Faced Melted Liquified Lipstick - Melted Chocolate Milkshake, Melted Chocolate Honey
Bite Beauty Amuse Bouche Liquified Lipstick - Caramelized, Chai
Bite Beauty Amuse Bouche Lipstick - Molasses
Fenty Beauty Match Stix Matte Skinstick - Espresso
Bite Beauty Multistick - Honey Wheat, Anise, Almond, Cocao
Lip Gloss
Colourpop Ultra Glossy Lip - Atole, Cheat Code
Nyx Butter Gloss - Tiramisu, Ginger Snap
Nyx Intense Butter Gloss - Peanut Brittle, Apple Dumpling, Cinnamon Roll
Nyx Strictly Vinyl Lip Gloss - Sugar Mama, Bombshell
Mented Cosmetics Lip Gloss - Send Nudes, Baby Brown
Anastasia Beverly Hills Lip Gloss - Toffee, Amber, Gilded, Sepia, Fudge
Dose of Colors Stay Glossy - Honey I’m Home
Fenty Beauty Gloss Bomb
Here are some of my fave nude lip looks:
I know this list is quite long but I wanted to give you a lot of options! Lol Anyway, I hope this is helpful to you and all my other brown beauties 💖
if u had to choose between cream blush or powder blush which would it be? and any particular favorites?
Hey! I like cream blush a lot, but I would have to choose powder blush. I feel like creams can look really pretty, giving you that “naturally blushing” look when they’re first applied, but they tend to wear away quickly. Powder blushes generally last longer on the skin.
Some of my favorite blush formulas are the:
-Nyx High Definition Blushes (my favorite colors are Electro, Crimson and Double Dare)
-Milani Baked Powder Blushes (love the color Luminoso)
-Colourpop Super Shock Cheek Blushes
-Sephora Collection Colorful Face Powders
-Juvia’s Place The Saharan Blush Palette Vol. 2
Thank you for hearing my desperate plea and sending me an ask lmao 💗
What is your Skin prep before makeup?
1. First I wash my face! At the moment I’m really liking the DERMA-E Purifying Gel Cleanser. Sometimes I’ll cleanse with the CVS Skin + Pharmacy Microdermabrasion Scrub when my skin is feeling particularly rough.
2. Then I exfoliate my skin with the Glycolic Acid 7% Toning Solution from The Ordinary so that my makeup will apply smoothly.
3. After that I moisturize with jojoba oil (from Desert Essence) and squalane (from The Ordinary). I use both because jojoba oil alone isn’t enough to keep my skin moisturized. Jojoba oil is an emollient, which is nice since it softens the surface of the skin, but squalane is an occlusive meaning that it creates a barrier on the skin which prevents water loss, keeping you moisturized longer. I also like using oils because it makes my foundations look dewier. However, if you’re using a heavily water based foundation it’d probably be better to use a traditional cream/gel moisturizer since, you know, oil and water don’t mix lol
4. Lastly, I apply the Nyx pore filler primer to my smile lines, or the milani mattifying primer in my t-zone depending on what foundation I’m wearing
I hope this is helpful to you 💖
Favorite setting powder?
My favorite setting powder ever is the Cover FX Illuminating Setting Powder! It extends the wear of my makeup, and stops my skin from becoming excessively oily whilst still leaving my complexion luminous. Also, it’s a “translucent powder” but it comes in light and dark colors so darker skinned people can use it too!
I also really like the RMS Beauty “Un” Powder. I only use this in my t-zone since it’s mattifying and I like a dewy look to my skin, but it’s the best powder I’ve ever used for minimizing pores. My pores are really big, (to the point where people have pointed them out to me 😒) but this makes them look nearly invisible. Also, while the un powder is mattifying it isn’t overly drying. Be careful not to apply too much though because the main ingredient in this, Silica, can cause flashback in photos.
I hope this is helpful to you! ☺️
Best natural looking highlighter?
Hello! I’d say the RMS Beauty living luminzer. It has a glossy finish with a slight pearlescent sheen that looks very natural on the skin. It’s a bit expensive though, so a good dupe would be the Glossier Haloscope highlighters.
When I went to Sephora the other day I swatched the Milk Makeup highlighter and it’s super nice. It’s slightly more metallic than the living luminizer but it still looks fresh and natural when applied! 😊