#my thaughts

[alfaaz-words]

Kuch is qadar tuta hai dil tere intzaar mein , pyaar bechne chal diye hum nafrato ke bazaar mein

-unknown

[the-duchess-of-dank]

I just re-watched Vampire Knight and the morale of the story was that two guys were so straight for the same girl, that they became gay for each other. 

[leto-atreiides]

This episode was definitely the best one so far and as predicted, well sort of... they were trying to mislead us with the promo because the whole tune in this episode was different from the very begining and not comparable with the three other episodes.

I was hoping that Henry's and Lizzie's diskussion in the last episode has changed something between them... and thankfully so it was. The fact that they have always been used by their mothers, that they never had a free will, a saying in anything... both must have understood, how much they have in common, especially Lizzie and who has probably  recognized and hopefully understood how different Henry is, from his mother and all of those who only want to gain more power.

So when being in bed together, aside from the fact that it looked really hot :P it has been also utterly intimate, not just the way they touched each other, it was the way they looked into each others eyes. That was breathtaking!! And so important for their relationship. Of course his mother had to disturb them *unbelievable*...*grrr* but then... after all the ups and downs in this episode the kiss at the end. Beautiful! The kiss was just perfect ♥♥ and while I hope they will tell each other ILY soon, it was defiantly enough to convince me that she has started to not only care but love him and Henry, he fell for her "a long time ago" although still being unsure about what really being in love means, because experience... it's just sweet and cute and sometimes difficult (when bad things happen) to watch them become a real cupple.

Omg, I have never planned to write that much :O!

[alfaaz-words]

Log kehte hain ki tu badal gya

yahi ilzaam tera mujhi par hai

badla to yeh waqt hai

main main hi hu

tu tu hi hai....

[alfaaz-words]

kuch zakhmo ko waqt par chodh dena chahiye kyuki agar dva har zakham ka marham hoti to log dua na kiya krte....

[calamansi-calamari]

Idk if this is just me but every time I see anything about queer history online, it's always about usa which is just so depressing. I'm not saying posts about American queer history are bad, but American culture is just so prevalent everywhere, and it's kinda sad that this is the case in queer spaces where I'm supposed to feel safe. On a similar train of thought I wish more queer people in the states would support queers in other countries that are still fighting for rights, from marriage to just decriminalisation.

[music-never-sleeps-inside]

So ig yeah

Ig I'm just a self centered idiotic prick of a son. I know everything and everyone else is ignorant and stupid. I'm always right... Yet... If any of this were truw.... I wouldnt be rubbing your fucking feet at every beck and call... I wouldnt come down the stairs after being so comfy just to get you a water or food or throw something away for u.... I wouldn't fucking "help u" clean the fucking house the 15 times a fay that u do it....

[shadowrelms]

You know being a back round character is wonderful, I may not do anything of much interest or impact in the grand scheme but I'm glad I can be there for others.