Unconventional problems require unconventional solutions
(Behold, that will be a wild trip of thoughts and switches between different viewing angles! Math and physics content ahead!)
I could finally understand why I have such an incredible affinity towards metaphors, analogies and speaking in pictures: It is far less abstract than the way I perceive the world and think, as my "language" is really, and literally mathematics. People tend to understand metaphors with more familiar terms better than if you try to explain like interference and highly advanced mathematical concepts and quantum mechanics. I literally can NOT think in 'normal human terms'. Where others tend to think in words or pictures, I imagine function plots, patterns, knot constructions, and, like, the full branch of math and physics.
It's really true that quantum mechanics comes natural for me. Somehow starting to indulge in the math some months ago: I was like: That actually makes really much sense!!! As others tend to become more confused. It was somehow the opposite for me. And it was baffling.
Somehow, if I remember, my passion for science, physics, mathematics ignited when I talked with a guy whose passion was physics. Somehow I told him how my mind works. The part of "When I observehmy perception or thoughts, I instantly change it." This triggered huge associations in him and he told me about the double slit experiment and such.
Some months ago, looking at the math of the double slit experiment, it was a real eureka moment, as I could finally grasp it concretely! Interference and diffraction. It's neat.
In the end, to end this "entangled" thought detour,
Who could understand chaos better if not chaos itself?
In a sense, the question where the attributes if elrmentary particles stem from, ten years ago, ended in my concept of information weaving and the "emergence of form and function" - or: elementary particles are, in a sense information geometries containing all information of all their previous interactions. Due to emergence, patterns of behavior, say, tendencies towards certain ways of interaction "solidified", the results lead to emergence of the elementary particles and their attributes, such as spin, charge, and mass - well, that one is the most interesting, as it is directly that "information knot", we call the base of matter: in a sense, interwoven spacetime - quantum foam, in John Wheeler's terms. Interestingly, that is related to information re-distribution, which is what quantum gravity is about: a kind of emergence of these tendencies of "form and function": Quantum gravity is hence the density of information - or, speaking in terms of quantum field theory: the probability intensity. These two interpretations are interestingly similar - as if they are two sides of one and the same "coin" - reffering to that idiom, I'd say that coin is actually a möbius strip.
