I can’t recall a time where I ever imagined having a boyfriend throughout college. I didn’t necessarily think about not wanting to be in a relationship, I think it was just one of those things my self conscious skipped over and left for another day’s worries. but being where I’m at now, fully involved in this crazy journey with an incredible guy by my side, I couldn’t be more thankful for our relationship.
I had a tight group of friends throughout high school, only to be disowned by them at the end of our senior year. I’m not bitter over this and I am thankful for the friendships and all it has given me over the past years. but it left me in desperation: how was I supposed to get through the beginning of my adult life without them who were, what I’d thought, my biggest support system? I wasn’t close to any one in my family and I’m not very involved with my church.
I was scared and wasn’t sure what I’d do.
but by blessings disguised God provided me with Chase. Chase has supported me the past almost 2 years. how lucky am I? (: he shows me love, and friendship, and laughter, and joy, and his heart is so kind and it makes me so full. I know he doesn’t see it but his heart is very much like that of Jesus’ always showing kindness and considerate but firm and disciplinary when needed. I never saw it coming but thank The Lord it did. I didn’t realize how much I would need a best friend, lover, and supporter until he became part of the picture.
I spend so many days struggling but The Lord knows how to sooth my heart and there is nothing more comforting.