Kosher v Celiac, Round 1.
I was talking the other night about wanting to slowly be able to move myself toward eating more and more kosher over time. In the course of that conversation I realized that I actually find it really comforting to focus on eating more kosher over time rather than my celiac - to focus on making a conscious choice to eat a certain way in order to focus on my relationship with G-d rather than having to constantly obsess over my disease forcing me to eat in a certain way.
I dunno how else to explain it. The control I have over my diet due to eliminating treyf from my diet and so on feels more liberating than having to nitpick every little detail due to my celiac. The more I focus on ‘what can I do within the bounds of kosher cooking’ the more new things I find to eat, so I end up with a less limited diet.
Still don’t have the ability to go fully kosher, and probably won’t for a long time, but making these choices a deliberate part of my movement toward G-d feels a LOT better than being controlled by a genetically-transmitted autoimmune disease.