Just another 24 hours...
Counting each second as it passes...
..Hiding these words from my lips...
.....But never hidden...
......I've waited so long to tell you..
....I Love You.
April 19th, 2013. You and I were at the Vera Project Studio (KEY ARENA), backstage to Jason Chen and Tiffany Alvord's Concert. You wore a dingy black pair of jeans, a purple top, and a long sleeve button-up that wasn't buttoned-up; for more of a casual dress compilation. You had these large loop earrings that beautifully accented your face, as your bangs parted to the left. You had a thin pair of frames with lens' as thick as a magnifying glass with these cute black boots on... But to me, ------all that was just details... To Love someone in a distant parallel as I have loved you, could only be defined as Loving someone-unconditionally.
I Loved You, unconditionally.
...and then some.
As I cherished those fleeting moments where having you adjacent to me were already a rare occasion, I chose to spend each precious moment of it solidifying your certainty on how much I Loved You.
As our fickle relationship began to consist of one-sided text messages, glittered starlight-nights laying in the grass, and too little time-and too busy being busy for me, again-days; I had realized that not Loving You was NOT an option. Instead, I had spent those days and nights as my pockets clenched my Phablet like a lighthouse to a ship, jumping and at each sound of my ringtone-just in case you decided to reply. All in the while, wishing you were at my side instead of spending another night alone.
"Honestly, I'm not sure if I should Just keep holding on or let go;
its stupid to hold on to something that just keeps hurting, but its also
stupid to let go of everything you've ever wanted". -Torin Rush
You made me happy thinking about not being alone, anymore.
Do you remember what I said??? "No matter what happens, I just want you to be SURE that I LOVE YOU... KNOW I LOVE YOU. .. BECAUSE.. I'VE ALWAYS LOVED YOU."
Lastly, go to your E-Mail. [email protected] I left one final message for you there.