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[chaosz]

Did some doodling. 2021 is here, let’s make it count. #doodling #2021 #mythoughtsonpaper #chaoszsays https://www.instagram.com/p/CJhRKgIFeUz/?igshid=7l41u9hxf4aa

[ourlovelyminds-blog]

I will be okay.. I will be okay.. maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow, but one day. All of this struggle I feel will look golden on that day. I will realize it all made me who I am and that is what life is all about. It is all about becoming. It is all about living and overcoming stuff you thought you never could because never in your beautiful mind could you have ever imagined enduring as much as you have. But once it is over, my dear, it will be beautiful. And you will praise yourself and you will love your scars and you will love the you that you have become. The day that you are okay you will be more than okay. You will be invincible, my love.

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What is a being mom? Being a mom is sleepless nights. Being a mom is being terrified you're going to break your baby somehow when they're first born. Being a mom is freaking out every time you're baby has a new symptom you've not seen them have before. Being a mom is having to choose between chores and sleeping while your baby naps (which we all know sleeping wins). Being a mom is tears streaming down your face because you don't know if you can do it. Because you're so emotionally drained you're terrified you're not going to be good enough. Being a mom is putting your babies needs first. Being a mom is skipping meals because they want attention or because you've tried everything possible but they just won't go to sleep. It's trying your best to get them to lay down for a nap or go to sleep for bedtime but they just cry and cry so you sit there and cry too. It's waking up four or five times in the middle of the night to feed them and pray they go back to sleep soon because god, you're so exhausted you just about fall asleep holding them. Being a mom is tough, but watching them grow and knowing who they will become is so much more than worth it. It's looking back and seeing how fast time really has gone by, and wanting it back..

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Shoutout to the people who can help others, but not themselves.

[ourlovelyminds-blog]

Mornings In My World

I have been struggling to wake up of the mornings. Some people will see this and laugh because honestly, how hard is it to get up and go? For me, it takes everything in me. I takes minute after minute of convincing myself that I am needed in this world today. I would rather deal with the nightmares than be awake. The anxiety eats me up, it tightens my chest and it feels like it is ripping open. My depression sends aches through my body. Who says you cannot feel a mental illness physically?

Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to not exist. Not to die, but just be a ghost. Then I think of all the wonders of this world. All the animals and creatures who have not known how this feels, yet have had it harder than me and still go. All the people of the world who have made themselves successful and made the best of these feelings. If they can do it, you know what? I can too.

Everyone has their struggles.

Everyone has their moments where they feel like everything would be better of if they were not even around, but let me tell you, if you can get even one person to smile, you have made a difference. You have shined brighter than you thought possible by making someones day a little better.

My struggle is waking up, continuing on. But you know what? It is that one smile, that one tear of joy, that one hug that keeps me going onward.

Every single one of you have a sun in you that is just waiting to shine through on others. Go out and make the world brighter<3

[uniqueanchorsuit-blog]

If you knew me you ought to know that I do not do night clubs, they are deafening.  In my opinion flowers are beautiful and can make some women all warm and fuzzy, but plants are more appealing to me. While I enjoy good cooked meals from time to time, but the “actual” cooking does not entice me. I think children are adorable and I love them, but I have no interest of having one of my own, nor do I want to be someone’s wife. This relationship is perfect. I am beginning to wonder if you are at all interested in getting to know me. Or you want to change me to what you want me to be? Say something,

[jotmedown]

Running

We sit and we pray for the things that we want but when we finally receive the things we've been always asking for, we don't know what to do with it. We ask for Love , we ask for persistence and Consistency but when we receive it, we don't know what to do with it and we automatically don't want it anymore. We never thought that someone or something could Care so much, so we run from it. This is just life as a HumanBeing.

[youllcomealivewhenyoulearntodie]

My mind spirals all over the inhumane way of things that go on around me each day. How can this world be so cruel and even chastise the ones that they love the most, not even caring for what grief they are causing. I can never elaborate enough on the fact that every breath that is taken on this earth has a sole purpose for great things; things only that person can do but is subdued by their own insecurities floating around inside. I can only hope for the future that lies ahead of me no matter how drastic and unsettling it may seem, I will always see the light of day in the end.