I have been struggling to wake up of the mornings. Some people will see this and laugh because honestly, how hard is it to get up and go? For me, it takes everything in me. I takes minute after minute of convincing myself that I am needed in this world today. I would rather deal with the nightmares than be awake. The anxiety eats me up, it tightens my chest and it feels like it is ripping open. My depression sends aches through my body. Who says you cannot feel a mental illness physically?
Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to not exist. Not to die, but just be a ghost. Then I think of all the wonders of this world. All the animals and creatures who have not known how this feels, yet have had it harder than me and still go. All the people of the world who have made themselves successful and made the best of these feelings. If they can do it, you know what? I can too.
Everyone has their struggles.
Everyone has their moments where they feel like everything would be better of if they were not even around, but let me tell you, if you can get even one person to smile, you have made a difference. You have shined brighter than you thought possible by making someones day a little better.
My struggle is waking up, continuing on. But you know what? It is that one smile, that one tear of joy, that one hug that keeps me going onward.
Every single one of you have a sun in you that is just waiting to shine through on others. Go out and make the world brighter<3
