#mytranstruth

[mytranstruth]

Will I Confess To My Trans Truth?

I have a Doctor's appointment at 10 to 5 to open up about my transsexuality and ask for referral to a gender therapist. I am scared *beep*less I have no idea what to say or how to address the issue. I need help!!! I have no idea what to do :'(

[mytranstruth]

My Deep Dark Secret

So being transsexual is my deep dark secret but I know that I am going to have to open up about my trans truth eventually. It just sends shivers down my spine having to speak about, laying my transsexuality on the table ready for the world to see and react to.

My first point of call is to tell my doctor (but I need to register with one first) and this scares me immensely. I just don't know if I can handle doing it.

At the same time I know I need to do it.

This is such a sucky situation to be in and I wouldn't wish it upon anybody!

[mytranstruth]

My trans truth is rocking my world, I just dunno what to do, I cannot handle this!

[mytranstruth]

What I Can't Handle About My Transsexuality

Being a trannsexual

Being a woman trapped in a man's body

Being a woman

Feeling like a freak

Feeling dirty

Research trans* issues, just to find links to sites saying how we are freaks and how we all do sex work and commit suicide and get aids etc

I can't handle having to transition and change bodies

[mytranstruth]

Story Of My Trans Discovery

Well it all started last year when I bought some sporty girls clothes. Me and my friends planned to go to a party as the Spice Girls, I wanted to be Sporty Spice so I wouldn't have to wear a dress (I didn't know I was trans at this point) so I went to the shop and purchased a blue top that like showed me belly and some grey shorts that were for ladies. When I got home I tried on aforementioned clothes in the privacy of my room prior to the party, I made breasts out of things that were lying around, e.g. shirts, socks, etc I then moved around my room wearing this outfit and I looked in the mirror then I was like "what the hell am I doing? this is weird" so I took off the clothes. In the end me and my mates never wore the costumes to the party and I ended up throwing out the costume after a few weeks. After trying on the clothes I had a few whirring feelings in my brain like something was being uncovered then about a week later after I came out to my mum about being "bisexual" and it not going as well as I hoped, I was also drinking each night (out with friends, I was still a student back then :P) then one night I was alone in my room and thne I got the whirring feeling and I was like "OMG I AM A TRANSSEXUAL ASJKDJSFDJLFDSJ JFDFDJFDJK JFKFDJFD"" MAJOR BREAKDOWN!!! I WENT FOR A WALK TO TRYI AND CLEAR MY MIND. When I first said "I am a transsexual" I got a sensation through my body, I think this was gender euphoria.  Then for half a year to a year I was really worried I was trans, I was like "OMG I am trans but I don't want to be/ I wish I could stay as a man / etc etc etc"" Then a few months ago I was like "OMG I AM ACTUALLY TRANS, I am not just scared of being trans, I am actually trans" This was a shock to me and it has been rocking my world. And that is the story of my trans discovery