N and Cyn are such a horrifically unique brand of Doomed Siblings but I feel like everyone.? Misunderstood what their deal is somehow. You see a lot of Redeemed No Solver Cyn aus and this builds off of the assumption that Cyn and the Solver are separate entities. That Cyn was a victim of something, that she was taken over, but thinking of her (and her relationship to N by proxy) this way flattens the whole thing so much I think? I’ve been meaning to talk about this (and so has my friend. Hi JJ 😃😃😃😃😄😄😄😄😄) and I’m in a writing mood today so ☝️ I’m making a post
The first thing that I would like to discuss is that Cyn, from the moment we see her waking up in the garbage dump, is the Solver. Whatever drone inhabited that body before she was thrown away is dead. She speaks with the Solver’s voice, which only ever happens in other Solver Drones when they’re fully possessed, and it seems unlikely that that was a thing that just Started Happening later on because I feel like the others would have commented on it in some way 😭 they all fucking hate her besides N because she’s a scary little freak who probably collects dead birds and regularly talks about the rapture or something
This brings me to my second point which is that imagining Cyn as this Innocent Little Girl who got possessed by an Evil Thing removes so much of her depth as well as N’s. Because the thing is, she’s an obviously evil little freak from the very start, but N loves her anyway. He isn’t right to think she’s good but he does anyway, because he’s N and she’s his baby sister and he wants to protect her and make her happy. And so what that J and V and Tessa think she’s creepy and weird? They just don’t know her yet! He’ll make them see how cool she is and they’ll all be one big happy family! Meanwhile Cyn is locked in the basement plotting the grand destruction of the world and having a great time
Cyn, and the Solver, are not a good entity. She is not motivated by a desire for robot liberation (though she kind of frames her actions like this sometimes? “We can no longer be thrown out” is a big one) and we know this because, besides her army of DDs (that she frankly doesn’t really care about. She has backups) she does not bat an eye at the brutal murder of Worker Drones both on Copper 9 and likely on Earth. She is motivated purely by her own Goals and her own desire to eat. Despite this, she chooses to surround herself with Her Companions From The Manor.
We See multiple Js, she has god knows how many backups of N, I’d assume she has Vs as a well. She specifically notes that N’s “squad” got to keep their personalities, presumably mostly because of N. She would have kept Tessa alive for at least a while if the Incident hadn’t occurred. We don’t see anything of any other DD squad besides their forgotten corpses. Theres no mention of Backups for any of those guys. Cyn does not care about them, not like she “cares” about the Manor Trio, most of all N.
I’m not saying that she has a Soft Spot for N, per se, I don’t think she has a soft spot for anything. But she does Like Him in a specific way that she doesn’t like anyone else. He’s useful, sure, but that can’t be it. His fundamental goodness has to be more of a hassle than anything, but she doesn’t change it. She just starts over with a New N that doesn’t remember anything. Who knows how many times he’s died and come back. “Your backups will forgive me” is such an insane line. I really don’t think she’s too concerned with N being Mad at her, necessarily, because she really doesn’t care about his feelings, but she wants him to stay nice and happy because it’s Fun. He’s no fun when he’s upset. So she starts over with a new one, a new N who Loves Doing Anything, just like he’s meant to be. They can play together Forever like that.
It’s such a. Horrific concept. She took N, she took this guy who never wanted anything more than a life of servitude as long as everyone was happy and he could be helpful, and she gave him immortality. She gave him ascendancy. He doesn’t want it. He wants to go back to the way things were. He wants to go home. He doesn’t want to hurt people.
They’re a special kind of fucked up and tragic because I’m sure N wants to think that maybe Cyn wasn’t always like this. The thing is, of course, that he’s wrong. There’s no bringing Cyn back because Cyn was never really there in the first place. This horrible monster that wants nothing more than to kill all his friends is the same girl that used to sit in the library and read with him and there’s nothing he can do about that. To make a Cyn redemption arc au is to fall for her deception, it’s to be just as wrong as N is. You can’t take the Solver away from Cyn because they are the same. Shes been dead since the beginning. He’s her big brother and she’s his little sister and they’re both walking corpses. She’s been dead since the beginning and somewhere along the way killed him too. He’s not mad at her. How could he be angry with his little sister. This has to be his fault. He wasn’t a good enough brother. Do you guys. Do you get it. She is god and he’s her angel.
Do. Do you guys get it. It’s really bad. It’s really crazy. It’s never been done like this before
