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Dangerous thoughts

I’ve always felt like I was born the wrong gender, but I don’t hate the body I’m in. I’m okay with my looks, but sometimes I feel like I would be happier with hormone treatment. Then people would make fun of me, and I wouldn’t be able to stay in my hometown. I don’t know these days. It seems the more I figure out, the more I find out is wrong with me. I can’t put something like this on my parents.

[poetrygh0st]

Run away love (can you believe this was just a year ago?)

When everything was all at once When I was alive and emotions couldn’t catch me. I did what I wanted and I saw the world. In the arms of another Escaping our realities in the dead of night Arm in arm, facing the ocean. Watching the moon rise and fall over the horizon. The flames crackled and you kissed me. I never meant to get attached. I never meant to care. But I messed up and mistook my emotions I had for someone else, for you. Now I’m trapped. You never cared, our fling is gone. You lied, I hated. But you showed me who I was.

[poetrygh0st]

Cold air in November

I think about

A flower box

With its colors that pop

In that tiny brown box

It reminds me of us

When we were just seeds

And love came to plant us

And joy came to water us

We picked weeds

Of jealosy

And deciet

As problems kept falling on us

Like bugs and weather

We still grew

So slow so steady

It seemed never ending.

We bloomed and shined

In the midday sun

Others stood in awe of us

As winter approached

We wilted away

As seasons are

apart of life

When i walk away

I still see the flower box

And a ghost

Of those beautiful flowers

That used to grace my eyes

[jiminearrings]

I got everything working again thank you friends who replied to my post

[poetrygh0st]

The inevitable

Death. It creates a big impact on all of our lives. Some of us handle it better than others. There's people who want to die. There's people who never want to see their loved one die. There's also those who believe they will never die. But one never really understands how powerful death is until it hits home, Someone very close to you kicks the bucket. Why does it happen? I wish I had the answer. But losing someone is possibly one of the worst pains a person can experience besides chopping your limb off. I know my Nana is going to die very soon, her frail body can't handle skin cancer, stomach cancer, and heart problems. I'm not quite sure how to handle it. As that gurney is pulling her away to the hospital, all I can say is that I wish it was me.