🌤️ CURRENT CONNOR 🌤️
How is Connor's energy right now?
His mind's very busy right now. He's constantly thinking and working on issues, and it's causing him to be restless. His energy's giving closed off and hush hush but tbh it's just how his cards have been since the start, he processes internally before anything comes out of him in the open.
He is in a state of deep transition, and is feeling exhausted from it. (Dare I say spiritual transition might be heavily linked to it too). Like this is major change and transformation. Something is ending and being released to make way for a new beginning. I want to say something from his past is being confronted after a long period of neglect. The book being picked up, the dust wiped off and finally going through it one last time to never have to pick it up again.
He's carrying some heavy emotional weights that are pulling him down, seems serious. He is actively trying to move away from the stress towards relief and because of all this, he is preferring to limit his emotional exposure and wanting personal space or atleast predictable spaces so his mind atleast knows what to expect already.
There is also some feminine energy coming through, this could be either some woman really being there for him or it could mean his own emotional vulnerability underneath his current guardedness.
He is trying to carefully think about what's fair, how the decisions affect the outcomes and how the outcomes then look like.
What is upsetting Connor right now?
He is mostly upset by external pressures and energies surrounding him when he just wants peace and privacy. Things keep happening around Connor, like he's either always busy or restless, and can't escape from these. Something about incoming news, messages, constant stimulation and movement. Also some immature energy and reactive environments around him currently.
The energy of withdrawal and carrying something emotionally heavy shows up again here. His social dynamics are directly affecting his emotional state, which is why he probably only wants to be in spaces that will not shock his nervous system. Could also be some other visibility related pressure like, how the fandom sees him on some level. Pressure to keep up with some rigid social expectations and appearances that box him in, which might also be upsetting him.
There's some situations that have him feeling misunderstood and frustrated with how they're handled or percieved, could be some unequal dynamics or some narratives that he is unable to fully correct currently. (Statement gate mayhaps good sir?)
What he really wants right now is stillness and peace. Emotional stability and release from his past attachments and history, which is again is attached to the transition that showed up earlier.
What is making Connor happy nowadays?
There is some increased activity that is making him feel less stuck emotionally and socially "moving" again. He might be happier in situations that he feels in control or where he can manage things successfully, so basically the same energy that was coming up earlier regarding the spaces.
Situations nowadays that give him some admiration, praise, admiration or some invitations with uplifting interactions. He might be feeling inspired by someone and creatively energized.
There is something that feels important, that is making him feel that things are moving in the right direction like oppurtunities opening up for him. Connor's happiness is tied to light moments, and small joys that might come unexpectedly.
While the things that upset him are heavy, they are being kept away by a lot of smaller joys that make him feel like he is successful.
A bit of a duel energy tbh, like he wants to be in social situations as it helps him feel good but also some social spaces that make him use too much energy so back and forth on social life? I hope that makes sense sissbisfnjd
2 readings in 12 hours. Never say I don't do anything for you guys :p
Hope you guys enjoyed this one too x2