#9 for the Dragon Age Day prompts!
Happy Dragon Age Day! I don’t even know what this is, just a bit of introspective maybe? But it was fun to write!
The tourney in Denerim isn’t as grand as the ones inTantervale or Orlais, lacking the celebrity of the career knights errant whopopulate the fields of those high-stake competitions, but Ferelden has enoughwarriors of its own that the mounted joust still draws a heaving crowd.
Sat in a raised box with the rest of the nobility, Rosslyn Couslandrolls her eyes at her brother’s antics as he shows off the paces of his greatgolden charger. She herself is only three months shy of the competition age, andsour about it not only because she can’t show her skill, but Oriana sits nextto her, trying to draw out her opinions of the competitors.
“Why does it matter beyond their skill?” she asks, when thecrooning becomes unbearable. “And shouldn’t Fergus hold your eye?”
“My dear sister, I am not looking to partake,” Orianareplies, pleasantly enough despite the bite of offence in her tone, “but thereis no harm in looking for the appreciation of form. Did the Maker not make usall? It would be a shame not to admire such handiwork.” She smiles. “Which isyour favourite?”
“I don’t know any of them.” She’s more interested in thehorses. She’d judge the riders for their training, if nothing else.
“Surely you must find at least one of them pleasing?” Orianaasks, with the coy little smile Rosslyn has come to despise, the one that’sdecided she must have a secret she’s just unwilling to share. “Look, there isBann Auldubard, and Teagan of Rainesfere – and Vaughan Kendalls is around yourage, is he not? That must be new armour he’s wearing.”
Mention of Vaughan only just stops her short of grinding herteeth. From what she’s heard, it would be worth sneaking in to the melee justto wipe the self-aggrandising smirk from his face.
Unfortunately, her aloofness attracts attention as thetourney progresses. Her favour becomes a prize for them all to win like theother trophies as the day wears on, but she sees behind the facades worn in theshining armour, the vapid self-importance and the pandering. Like the warriorshe was brought up to be, she takes great pleasure in deflating not a few ofthem by pointing out flaws in their technique, finds each one hypocritical thatcalls her proud as they stalk away. It’s a petty vengeance, one that amuses theking even as Oriana and her mother despair, but it’s her only way to soothe thechafe of the court, the silliness of a rose without thorns where the only meaningfulthing is the fluttering of pennants and eyelashes.
It's only later, a year and a half, a world and a life awayin the muddy fields of Ostagar, that her mind wanders back to all those shiningknights on the parade field. They would have made a garish contrast to thequiet desperation surrounding her now. Thesesoldiers are caked in blood and ichor, exhausted, without squires or audienceto congratulate them even in their losses. Darkness has fallen, withoutceremony. She stands before a raging bonfire, darkspawn taint crawling throughher veins while an ill-fitting cuirass digs into her neck, listening to thepart assigned her in the coming battle with dull understanding.
The man standing beside her is little better suited than sheis, in dented red steel with its blue enamel coating mostly scratched off, the too-smallplates linked by worn leather cords and the gaps between them padded by mailand gambeson. The same one who took her into the Wilds, who flinched forward asif to intervene in Jory’s murder. He’s frustrated, angry about not being allowedto join the battle, and for a moment a spark of recognition flickers brightlyenough to pull her from the void of her thoughts to hear him mock hisdispleasure.
“If the king ever asks me to put on a dress and dance theremigold,” he grouses, “I’m drawing the line.”
“I’d like to see that.” The words are hollow, acerbic, harsh,and because she truly didn’t mean to speak she can’t tell if she means seeinghim stand up to the king, or in a dress, or dancing.
But he turns to her, his voice softening though maybe not onpurpose. “For you, maybe.” The quirk of a smile. “But it would have to be apretty dress.”
And then it’s like her armour doesn’t matter at all.