#nakhodeh

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pov: outdoor book fair / vintage botany collectible books / buying flowers

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Walt Whitman

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crumpled white shirt / dual-shaded blue jeans / vintage watch / homemade iced coffee shake / apple pie

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chaotic academia things I have lived (dark academia but more like dumbass academia)

(a mix of (mostly) androgynous classic academia, punk academia, rockstar gf, downtowncore aesthetics) - made by ✨ me ✨

- my glasses do not get clean no matter how much I wipe them :’)

- dispose my used/crumbled-up sticky notes in my long-finished coffee mugs

- get Dressed with makeup to boost confidence when facing creative block late at night

- untucked button-downs and jeans

- ink blots and pen doodles on my hands

- a new spotify playlist for every nuanced emotion on the human spectrum

- having a favourite colour but not owning/wearing a single piece of clothing in that colour lmaooo

- kiss my excess lipstic onto a napkin that I use as a bookmark in my poetry anthologies

- listening to jazzy renditions of contemporary songs

- wearing brown lipstic instead of red and channelling 90s ethnic lana del rey

- crumpled white shirts with pajamas + smudgy eyeliner + red lips = rockstar academic gf? 

- wearing tangled headphones as-is 

- sipping energy drinks slow like tea instead of chugging them lmao

- blazers w/ jeans

- vintage polo shirts w white collars

- too many empty mugs stacked in various shelves, out of the cat’s reach

- sticky notes on laptop + monitor screens

- unfinished lists in email drafts

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Dilbastagi si hain kisi zulf-e-du taa ke saath,

[My heart has got entangled in her plaited looks,]

Paala para hai hum ko Khuda kis bala ke saath.

[What a deadly beauty, Lord, I have come across!]

Yaad-e-hawayein yaar ne kiye kya na gul khilaye,

[When the fragrant breeze from the garden blew,]

Aayi chaman se nikhat-e-gul jab hawa ke saath.

[Breezy memories of my friend set abloom my heart.]

~ Ghazal by Momin Khan Momin, late Mughal-era poet

Translation + transliteration by K. C. Kanda

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Some lighthouse/seacore aesthetic activities that don’t get spoken about enough (Pt 1/?)

- learning crochet (to knit sweaters for yourself and your cats)

- playing cards

- writing letters, journals, stories, poems, songs. anything and everything

- wearing that vintage sea captain hat and never taking it off

- pretending you’re an old sea captain and journalling your voyages and adventures on ship

- playing board games

- pressing wildflowers in old biology textbooks

- bicycling to the city for new books

- having a sublime rock collection

- rocking on your rocking chair for hours just petting your cat

- having countless vintage collectible books on entomology and ornithology 

- having a seashell collection

- play with your cats

- go paddling off the shore once in a while

- bicycling to the closest seaside city for fresh bunches of flowers

- taking naps on your rocking chair

- teach yourself to draw insects, birds, fish

- learning folklore and folk songs for sea monsters from multiple languages/cultures

- having ivy and creepers flourishing on the windowsill

- picnicking on the shore, on the rocks

- dressing up in your grandparents’ vintage formal clothes and having fancy dinners with yourself and your cat

- baking 

- hot chocolate with marshmallows

- reading letters from old friends

- taking long walks on the beach

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- always having a boiling kettle on the stove with fresh tea

- collecting different types of tea to try

- sewing kits

- writing letters to your friends and loved ones describing your life in minute detail

- teaching yourself embroidery

- owning a telescope and referring to guidebooks to spot constellations and planets at night

- writing long letters to your old professors/librarians/teachers

- owning paintings with sceneries of the sea and the sky 

- owning too many woolen socks (but you just can’t get enough)

- books, obviously

- sliding across the floor with woolen socks because they’re cool

- clips and bows and ribbons in your hair

- wearing aprons on long skirts and nostalgic for your non-existent husband who died at sea (it’s a fantasy)

- owning too many horror and folktale books from all over the world

- learning to make sketches of the faces you’ve seen at night

- owning too many keys belonging to unknown locks

- owning books of asian ghost stories 

- dissecting watches and clocks to learn the inner workings and fix them on your own

- painting with watercolours

- learning to play an instrument (preferably piano or violin)

- owning a record player and dancing to the old records in the living room

- learning to read water and weather

- learning to draw human anatomy and physiology

Feel free to add on!

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Desiwear is always good for the summer.

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Sunday evenings