Yesterday, my tita handed me a piece of paper and said I should have it. Tita Sally said she found it when she was organizing some things in their house. On that paper was scribbles, erasures and lines, but they were in groups. Then I realized it was a poem. It's written by my late aunt (my dad's and tita Sally's sister, too), who is also my Ninang, or NangNi. "NangNi" something I used to call her when I was still a young lad.
The first line of the first stanza immediately indicated the day and month of my birth. I presumed it was supposed to be a birthday gift to me (or I just really wanted an extension to my birthday), but it was written on January 27, 1998. I was two years old at that time and if I'm right, NangNi Liza was still at Saipan when she wrote it. She worked there for some time.
Anyway, as I read the poem, I can't help but feel overwhelmed by it.
Ika-19 ng Mayo, mundo'y binulabog,
Iyak ng isang batang lalaking malusog.
Pinanabikan ko ang iyong pagsilang
Kaya't ng masilayan, kaagad nagdiwang.
Kutis mo'y kaypula, mukha mo'y kay amo
Ikaw, para sa aki'y munting anghel ko.
Ingat na ingat sa paghawak sa 'yo,
Pagkat ikaw ang tunay na mahal ko.
Ang ngiti mo anak ay pang-alis-pagod,
Lahat ng hirap ay parang hinagod.
Sa masuyo mong yakap at halik sa akin,
Mga problema'y aking kakayanin.
Pagiging pangalawang ina'y aking gagampanan
Ito'y gagawin sa abot ng kakayahan
Lagi sa alaala, malayo man sa iyo.
Sa puso ko'y mananatili ka rito.
Sana naman sa iyong paglaki,
Huwag malimutan ang iyong Nangni.
Daniel, anak ko, iyong pakatatandaan,
Ika'y mamahalin ko magpakailanman.
After reading this, I just uttered "thank you, Ninang." I seemed to have lost my words. But lo, I just want to say that I love you ninang, you will be remembered. I still recall how dedicated yu were when you organized my 7th birthday. Maybe that's the reason why I treat my birthday so special - because you knew how to make your inaanak feel special, too.
Honestly, I feel very privileged that my Ninang wrote me a poem. I never thought...
I will still consider this a birthday gift. And this will inspire me to write poetry again. (You still write better poetry though, Ninang. :) )
Thanks, NangNi.
D. Marquez
5/23/13