Mar 9, 2022
Mustard: I'm tired-
Kurogiri, cleaning a glass: Then take a nap.
Mustard: -of life.
Kurogiri, still cleaning a glass: Then take a nap.
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Mustard: I'm tired-
Kurogiri, cleaning a glass: Then take a nap.
Mustard: -of life.
Kurogiri, still cleaning a glass: Then take a nap.
All I want to do is nap
Want to watch a new drama or anime... Overwhelmed with choices (and the need to binge watch)... I'll read a book instead.
Looks at shelves and Kindle library... Overwhelmed with choices...
Nap.
Repeat.
I want a nap
Fellas, is it normal for your chest to hurty?
It's just venting I'm fine
Hey guys my folks I would normally go to for this venting aren't around right now and honestly I'm fine. It will be fine. It feels less stressful to put this here then call the scary nurse hotline. Just going to let the feelings out and go to bed. The lowest lows never last more than an hour or so. You wake up in the morning and it's just another day. Venting, possibly over sharing, begin:
I'm so tired of feeling like an outsider in almost every aspect of my life. It's like no amount of struggling or effort reflects on anything.
The only times I'm getting ahead or starting to resemble a functioning human creature is when I respect the boundaries of what I'm incapable of doing. I take it slow or there isn't any progress. I push past what I can handle and it all goes to shit. It's all gone to shit enough times that it's as if I know what will make me mentally and physically break down. I keep getting people asking why I'm not farther or why I haven't done a big investment yet and they just can't understand that I'm fighting so much bullshit that is preventing progress at the speed they expect. I was really sick for 2 years (and not actually better just better at hiding it), just got out of a really scary abusive situation that set me way back and it's taking most of my time and mental energy to fight back this useless depression.
I'm actively seeing a doctor and therapist while figuring out the whole depression thing but they offer 0% help for this hyper vigilance that keeps turning on from every stupid little thing. It is my constant companion and I'm so tired from it. I'm so tired that having the hyper vigilance and the act of coping it away is inconvenient for others. I'm tired.
Pretty much lol
tired? anxious? depressed? it's naptime