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Essentially we're just working on the job ordered to us, so what's really the difference? Everywhere is the same.

SENTENCE I REALLY HATE

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Yes, I am adaptable, yes I flexibly morphing my personality, I can be everything and every roles, I can do and become so many things that suit the situation, yes I can be in any situation like a spy,

Except I don't have what it actually takes to be a spy like logic and basic physical strenght, and all of that is result of survival instinct in narc abusive environment.

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Hardest thing about being narc survivor

For me the most difficult one is feeling that everything is useless.

I would no doubt objectively could be said making progress, development, change, and all those good things about improvement, but I lose all my senses to be aware of the progresses that I make. I feel trapped in a loop.

All my senses are blocked, it’s like nothing is flowing inside me. I feel stagnant. I feel like I’m in a box and just running around it that the only progress I make is moving around inside the box. Everything new I make just feels like another variation of activity I do, still, inside the box.

I want to break free from this perspective and feeling alive again. I know that it is all the condition that I was made to grow and think about, I know this is all not me. But I can’t help feeling that way of years living in that conditioning. But I don’t know what to do to actually feel the break away. Should I kill the originator? to actually feel like I put an end to it?

Some people said they are dead inside. Me, I feel that I’m too much alive inside, but can’t express it. I actually can just begin here, and out of this perspective since I can be alone and everything is actually available, and it strange that I can’t use this objectivity.

I am sad. I don’t even know where to begin. I certainly make so many changes, but it still feels so far away. I can’t feel close to my own self and that breaks my heart. I don’t have no thought other than, if I keep going, I may reach the exit someday.