i have five old wip asagao selfinsert fics i just found and i wanna share these mmmmm
so here ya go, dropping external links to sta.sh files for each cause the post gets really messy if i put them all here hhhh
(these are old as in mads is still referred with the old pronouns [she/her] so pls ignore that i dont have time to fix them atm i’ll do that if i ever finish these lol)
quick tags @ @coughedfeathers & @blue-bismuth cause kit and avery are here too woo <3
1 this was based on the prompt “OH you’re jealous!” with the ship of mads and peanut
2 this was gonna be a quick sweet nate/avery things based on this prompt ~ hopefully i’ll finish it some day cause i still really love it hhhhh
3 you remember that thing i talked about WAY back when titled ‘welcome to the poetry night’? this is the beginning of it. idk if this’ll get finished, but basically this is one moment of natemare taking over the school radio and spends time by reading mads’ poetry while making fun of it and. well yeah. shit escalates from that and yeeeah. maybe i finish this some day cause i still really like this idea mmmm
4 on the natemadness route, mads opens up about her home life and reasons for being in the academy to nate first, which results into natemare throwing it all back in their face come october anddddd heres the beginning to the aftermath of that. i do believe this was the point where i wanted nate to open up about his problems as well to mads? as they opened up to him, he ruined a whole lot of shit, and yeah. theres just a bunch of things in this that i just still really like so mmmmm
..the last one isnt really even a wip as it only has the idea written down and i still reALLY wanna write this one but yeah. ‘nate stuck in the studio, some shit goes down, he gets confronted by natemare as he gets locked into the recording booth over an anxiety attack’
Also might I suggest as spar//klehar/per isn't a thing now for obvs reasons, it runs parallel to another natemadness route? As Mads spends more time with Nate and the bosses, Kit and Shane slowly start getting to know each other whilst the others are preoccupied. (?)
i have actually been thinking about this too in relation to things, like. it might start as a sparkleharper route, but through things one way or another it either leads to a breakup or these two never become a thing, which makes mads either leave the normal boots club or refusing to join when asked, depending on where we were at with things when they fall out
which kind of. gives her a reputation of sorts i guess? i mean this IS the big popular club in school and shes declining their invitation to join/is leaving them, and she stands out in the school crowd anyways like a sore thumb with her hair and everything so it gives her some attention for sure. ..which in turn attracts nates attention tbh cause theres? rumors?? about someone else than him flying around for a change??? and he knows this girl and they share a class and are probably in somewhat terms at this point anyways so. yep
so they start spending time together. through that mads spends more time with the b3. which kinda drops kit to hang out with shane as they kinda wanna get to the bottom of this normal boots situation to find out what happened with mads and all as she wont really talk about it or anything, and shane seems. friendly enough (oddly enough tbh) plus hes jirards roommate and kit knows jirard and they sometimes see him in the arts center too so they know him somewhat and. yep. thats a thing
"are you trying to give me a heart attack" w/ natemadness?
what do you mean i poured some personal angst into this i dont know what youre talking about LOL
Kit stirred in bed, eyes slowly fluttering open. It was still dark,obviously not anywhere near the time they needed to be awake in the morning.With a little sigh Kit closed their eyes as they turned to their side,shuffling underneath the covers a little bit.
Stopping asthey heard a soft sniffle coming from nearby.
Kit’s eyesopened again, staring at the dark wall in front of them. Had they been hearingthings? They knew Mads was in the room as well, sound asleep in her bedunderneath theirs, was she catching a cold maybe? Sniffling in her sleep?
Anothersniffle, being followed by a sharp breath.
Kit sat upquietly, before slowly leaning over the railing of their bunkbed, peeking tothe bed underneath. Even in the darkness they were able to recognize the figuresitting on their bed, buried under the blanket, the shapes slowly forming inthe dark as Kit’s eyes got more used to it showing the face that was buried inher hands.
“…Mads?”
At firstshe didn’t react at all, but eventually she had to breath. Inhaling a sharp,shaky breath her hands slowly dropped from her face, revealing the puffy eyesthat Kit didn’t need to see to know they were there.
“Are youalright?”
“Just… Baddreams.”
She triedto flash them a smile. Kit wasn’t buying it for a second, but Mads didn’t letthem ask any more questions as she pushed the blanket off from her, her legs gettingthrown over the edge of the bed.
“I’m justgoing to get some water.”
Kit dodgedtheir head to the side a little, giving Mads room to stand up, watching theirfriend wobble out of the room. As soon as the door of the dorm room closed, Kitrolled back to bed, laying on their back as they pulled their phone from underthe pillow, eyes narrowing a little at the bright screen as they started to gothrough their contacts, before pulling up the number they were looking for,sending out a simple text.
‘Mads is sad. Need help’
It tookalmost no time for a respond to arrive, just like Kit had thought.
‘On my way’
Kitproceeded to tap up another quick text in response.
‘She went to the bathroom to get some water’
Droppingthe phone to their chest, Kit let out a yawn. It was fairly obvious that thiswas an issue that they needed to delegate to someone else to take care of, asMads wasn’t in the mood to talk, and Kit didn’t want to push the issue. There wereothers that she could maybe open up to instead at the wee hours of the morning.
Besides,Nate never slept anyways, so Kit knew they could bother him with this withoutdisturbing his sleep at three in the morning.
******With a sigh she lowered the glass under the running tap, filling it up with ascold water as she could get out of it, before turning it off. Taking a quickdrink, Mads inhaled deeply, avoiding looking at herself on the mirror – she didn’tneed to see her reflection to know how puffy her cheeks were and the redness ofher eyes. Staring at the bathroom wall, she tried to focus on the feeling ofthe cold water instead, taking in deep breath between drinks, just trying herbest to calm herself down.
Nightmares weren’tanything new for her, truth to be told. Mads was very familiar with the tricksher mind was able to play on her, especially when she got really stressed, and,well… The dreams reflected that on the worst nights really heavily, up to thepoint where the nightmares were starting to get unbearable and sleeping wasmore exhausting than being awake all night.
It hurteven more to have a nightmare about something bad happening to one of your bestfriends, especially by your own hand.
Mads wipedthe corners of her eyes with her free hand, slowly lowering the empty glass tothe edge of the sink. Turning the faucet back on, she splashed cold water onher face, hoping that it would relax the muscles tired from all the crying.
She didn’t usuallytake it this hard. Crying only happened every now and then, but maybe this timeit had just really stabbed her harder than usual when it had been a familiarface on the bad end of things, even if had been a dream. It just felt so real,so awful, the pained look on his face…
Herthoughts were derailed at the sudden sound of the bathroom door being opened, Mads’eyes widening as she quickly lifted her head up, spinning around on her heelstowards the door. She was supposed to be alone here, it was in the middle ofthe night, everyone else was sleeping, god if she woke anyone up or if its Kit,she’s –
Butinstead, in the doorway, she saw the familiar raven-haired young boy standing.
“Oh my god,Nate, are you trying to give me a heart attack?”
But herwhine was cut short as Nate basically ran across the bathroom, without a wordpulling her into a hug. Mads stood there for a second, stunned at this suddenturn of events, but slowly gave in to his embrace, arms wrapping around hisfigure.
“I heard youweren’t feeling so good.”
He didn’t needto say any more. She knew what had happened, he knew she knew, and it wasenough to let the waterworks flow. Burying her face into his shoulder, Madsinhaled sharply, her hands digging into Nate’s back as she pressed as tightlyagainst him as possible, feeling his arms around her tightening as well. Shesobbed quietly into his shoulder, the two of them just standing in the bathroomin silence, it only being broken by an occasional shaky breath coming fromMads.
Nate gentlypetted her hair, his head leaning on top of hers, just letting her stand there.He wasn’t going to ask anything, all he knew was that someone needed acomforting hug, and he was there in a heartbeat, whatever the reason might havebeen. If she wanted to tell him, she would, but right now that wasn’t hisconcern. Nate’s current task was just to allow her to let it all out and helpher calm down so she could get back to sleep.
After awhile an actual silence fell into the bathroom. Nate could feel her arms slowlyloosing their grip from around him, gently allowing Mads to step back a little,letting out a sniff as she proceeded to dry up her eyes.
“Feelingbetter?”
She nodded,trying to put up a smile as Mads was finally look directly back at him.
“Yeah. Just…A stupid nightmare.”
Nateoffered her a smile.
“Happens tothe best of us.”
He offeredher a hand, Mads quickly turning to grab her glass in one hand, grabbing a holdof his with the other, Nate leading her out of the bathroom.
“You were always here for me. Time for me to be here for you.”
okay but this is like. post the first october with natemare on the natemadness timeline tho?
~ its natemadness post the whole. jrd incident and shit. they arent established (i’d say it happens around new years/after the holidays? cause thats romantic LOL) but nate has been there for them a lot with things and everythings just kinda nice - however, mads is unaware of natemare. they know somethings up as they have been on the receiving end of natemare that october which put a wrinkle in their relationship with nate, but not like. ultimately so badly that it threw everything in the garbage with the two of them
~ its like after october, just the beginning of november i guess? (this is also very much post natemare taunting kit stuff so these two are to be kept apart, mostly by caddys request) so it gives mads more time to talk with him in private about stuff and they have noticed that nate. hasnt been himself. especially since he returns to normal right after october so its all just really fucking weird to them
~ so. cue this. mads wants to know. nate has helped them through so much in the recent months and despite what happened between them in october (imma elaborate on this at some point cause i have IDEAS but nowhere to put them really lol), they are still like. considering nate a close important friend. and have been opening up to him about their problems and about stuff at home (something mads doesnt openly talk about with. pretty much anybody tbh) and yeah
~ it takes some coaxing but eventually nate bites the bullet and spills what he understands and knows about natemare. how that convo goes im not exactly sure but. mads is supportive. understanding (esp as a writer who kinda understands the darker side of the human mind) and they are. so ready to help nate with whatever he needs to handle the consequences of what he did in october and will possibly do come october again and whatnot
Natemadness: nate gets mads a lil friendship bracelet set for them both. One is in aro colours, one has arrow shaped charms. He wants her to know he loves her regardless. 💚
