Yes this post is about ME but it is also post about no matter how bad things are it ALWAYS gets better!
My life up to the age of 13 was pretty shitty. Lets count all the things that have happened to me in order.
At 5 years old, my mother and father broke up. This was just after my sister was born and i was told it was because they couldn't afford both children.
Fast forward to 7 years old. My father has a girlfriend and we are now living with my mums partner. The girlfriend is weird and i never liked her. This is the year I found out my mother had an affair which is why my parents broke up. This is also why my sister looks nothing like me.
Fast forward to 11 years, I move to secondary school. I have to go to a state school, while my best friend goes to a private girls school, because my mother cant afford it. I become friends with a girl on the second day and our group slowly gets bigger. One day, they started ignoring me. They rejected me, even though i was the founder. I became friends with others but they all new each other from primary and I felt like i would never fit in.
Fast forward to Jan 2013 (13 years old), I'm staying at my dads and his girlfriend runs in shouting " don't hit me!" I thought she was just drunk and would be fine in the morning but no. I know my dad and he would never be abusive. Our mother picks us up and has a talk with my dad. From the car i could see my dad was crying.
My mother told me the whole story. My dad used to not come home till very late when they were married. My mother had the affair for 7 years, 5 of which while i was born. My sister has never met her real dad and will when she is old enough. The worst thing she said that night was, and I quote, "If we hadn't had you, we would have split up long before". This translated to, I was born not out of love but to save a marriage. I had failed to do what i was born to do. After that day, my biggest fear was that i would disappoint everyone.
After that, I stopped blaming my sister for the divorce, I started blaming myself. I was miserable, until is saw this quote. THIS quote saved my life. "It's always a happy ending. If times are sad, it's not the end"
Fast forward 1 year (sep 2013), I moved to a private school called wimbledon high, one of the top 50 schools in England. I was reunited with my oldest friend and stopped hiding. I moved to the top maths set after a week, starred in the school play and am doing my 4th grade in piano next week. I have many friends and have boosted my confidence!
I survived! I got better and happier and if you take anything away from this it is.
"It's always a happy ending. If times are sad, it's not the end."