#ncmesiis

[woedwolf-a]

so  since  i’m  making  absolutely  no  progress  in  writing  because  of  needing  to  answer  the  birthday  asks  from  yesterday,  this  is  a  general  post  to  the  last  of  them  instead  of  individual  answers.  i  was  sent  an  overwhelming  amount  of  them  &  i  truly  need  all  of  you  to  understand   just  how  much   that  means  to  me.  me,  someone  who  usually  feels  isolated  or  alone  in  this  world,  receiving  so  much  love  on  a  day  i  dreaded.  it  literally  means  so  much.  i  cried  &  had  to  turn  my  asks  off  in  the   best  way  possible!  you’re  all  so  kind  &  honestly,  i  don’t  know  what  i  did  to  deserve  you,  but  i’m  glad  i  did!

@APOCALYPSEDETERRENT      ⁄      @LCDGERBLED      ⁄      @SECONDCHAIRCELLIST      ⁄      @ARTIFEXED      ⁄      @OFGRIEF      ⁄      @STUHRK      ⁄      @DEADGCRL      ⁄      @NCMESIIS      ⁄      @SRGTJBRNS      ⁄      @THEWONDERINGSORCERESS      ⁄      @DARKENEDHEARTS      ⁄      @RELISHINGVAMPIRISM      ⁄      @ANXIETYWON      ⁄      @SOUTHSIDELOVER      ⁄      @ILOVEARROWS   (  fitz,  you  dumb  bitch  )      ⁄      @KILLEDINSTEAD

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“it’s been a tough few days. how are you holding up?” post-trauma sentence starters (not accepting) // @ncmesiis​​

          this, right here, has to be the understatement of the century --- and he would laugh, if only he had the energy [and mirth, optimism, hope] left in him. Ellie looks like she’s gone back and forth through Hell at least five times, much as he does himself... much as they all do, the ones who are yet left alive; is it truly the worst outcome for PRISONERS OF WAR, to be killed? especially when we’re talking about HYDRA? some questions are likely best left unanswered, the young sergeant has come to realize, after the first weeks of captivity.

‘ peachy. ‘

          you can cut the sarcasm with a knife, really, but James offers the best smile he can presently muster. funny, how they’ve led such different lives yet the heavens above saw fit to toss them both into a now same fate... locked up in this cell like animals, after long and long hours of working the assembly line; just the dull, painful, humiliating routine of every day so far --- though something tells him they have nothing to complain about. not when the ones who get picked, every now and then, by the creepy doctor, end up never returning.

‘ did they feed you today? ‘

[galaeus]

STARTER > @ncmesiis

“WE GOTTA TALK.” Her hands can’t fidget anymore than they are in this moment, eyes so blown she thinks she’s seeing an aura of stars every time she whips in her lightning pace. Ellie will know what to do ---- right? Ellie always has sound advice (sort of) and Echo’s the levelheaded one (sort of) but she can’t even remotely blink without getting the jitters. “I was ---- stupid? I was stupid. I am stupid. Don’t repeat that to anyone or put it on a keychain.”

[snowinabottlearchived]

𝐏𝐈𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐄𝐒𝐓 𝐁𝐀𝐒𝐄𝐃 𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄 𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐓𝐒 → 𝐀𝐂𝐂𝐄𝐏𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐆 @serpernt 𝚊𝚜𝚔𝚎𝚍 : ❛ you don’t think you deserve something so you ruin it ❜ ( hehe )

WORDS  AS  SHARP  AS  KNIVES  DIGGING  THEMSELVES  INTO  SOFT  FLESH .  the  world  was  on  fire ,  burned  down  to  ashes  and  still  she  seemed  to  haven ‘ t  changed  a  bit .  stoic  gaze  attached  to  her  guest ,  emotions  on  a  roller  coaster  mutant  was  not  able  to  stop .  DID  SHE  COME  TO  OFFEND  HER  ?  ?  was  this  what  she  did  nowadays  ?  ?   trying  to  dig  in  the  dirt ,  to  elicit  something  human  of  people  formerly  known  as  monsters ,  as  heroes ,  as  criminals ,  as  heroes .  swallowing  down  rising  up  anger ,  fingers  clenched  into  velvet  fabric  of  little  cushion  on  her  lap .  ❛   i  don ‘ t  know  what  you ‘ re  talking  about ,  ellie .  ❜  ,  unsteady  voice  pressed  out  while  fingertips  froze  over .   ❛   you  wanted  to  chat ,  to  visit  for  a  little  talk ,  not  for  QUESTIONING  THINGS  you  don ‘ t  know  anything  about .  ❜   not  when  she  was  already  questioning  herself ,  when  amelia  knew  that  she  was  messing  the  only  good  up  she  had  left .  ❛   what  is  it  YOU  CAME  FOR  ?  ?  ❜  

[owedbcttcr]

❝  HOW  CAN  I  SAY  THIS  WITHOUT  BREAKING?      HOW  CAN  I  SAY  THIS   without  spilling  over?     How  can  I  put  it  down  into  words  when  it’s  almost  too  MUCH  for  my  soul   a l o n e ?  ❞      //      ( hurts like hell - fleurie )

@ncmesiis  liked  for  a  lyric  starter

[carnagemoved]

@ x 3

for every @ I get, I have to tag someone I love/look up to! // hella accepting

@ichorimbrued: annie is dEF one of my best friends on here. we talk about work and school but I know I can count on her to be there for me at like two in the morning, even if that’s just to talk about our muses or something heavy. and I found out this week she considers my ocs canon and thinks how they would be in every spn episode and honesty it made my week !!

@ainthero: my other best friend on here !! jay is amazing and honestly I can’t compare writing to him but if we need to rant we’ll go to each other and spam our IMs like it’s a group chat. I love that we can share our thoughts to each other, either it be spn or t100, and easily make up a new canon timeline. ily boo !!

@ncmesiis: I know what it’s like to have to build an oc from the ground up and elisabeth did it beautifully !! Ellie is amazingly crafted and cared for like a canon character and honesty I totally see her as a canon character in the mcu. elisabeth has no fear when it comes to ellie and that makes me go all heart eyes !!

[honeyglaze-a-blog]

GAZALA BRAVARD RECEIVED AN ASK   /   ↺ @ncmesiis , MEME. ❛ what’s this between us? ❜

GENTLE FINGERTIPS DANCE ALONG THE TENDER CURVE OF WOMAN’S THIGH, somber gaze following touch, admiring the supple cream beneath her caress -- feather soft, like a whispered breeze kissing porcelain flesh. she’s quiet, question lingering in her mind, head tilting as she contemplates their new found position -- tangled among wrinkled sheets, bare and kissed by morning sun.    ‘  -- what would you like this to be?  ’    

eyes lift, fingers returning to the soft of lover’s hip -- leaning over to rest her lips to ellie’s shoulder, not daring another word should she ruin what peace she’s managed to find. for once her mind was silent, for once she did not feel GUILTY. for once, gazala had felt at home. she couldn’t risk this -- ellie, could not begin to imagine a world without the calm she had found...

[dazzleshe]

“  i  dont  have  nightmares  often                  but  that  was  insane.  thanks  for  being  here.  ”    maybe  it   was  jean’s  own  night  terrors  seeping  into  the  minds  of  other  students,  but  this  fire  was  all  too  real.    “  i  just          can’t  even  imagine  being  controlled  by  the  phoenix. ”       @ncmesiis   sc.