distancing myself from the group? probably not the best idea, but the rest of them have their own stuff going on and maybe it’s not a good idea with my dumbass being around and questioning things. i don’t wanna get mad. i don’t want people’s stupidity rubbing off on me and making me snap. i want people to think i’m doing good.
i fucked up with gahyeon today. i’m trying to work around the fact that we didn’t know each other, and it’s just forcing all this stress on her. my contract runs out soon, and i had to tell her. she snapped and it just turned into a huge fucking argument and i hate that it did. because she’s nice and i really don’t fucking know how to make up for 19 years of not knowing each other
and for some reason? i’m flirting with jeno? or trying to at least?
and this????? is happening i guess