(2000)...The 1st day we met... You were already 7yrs old... (just a boy) 😲😲😲.. Already off to a bad step and the #biggestsurprise of my life... Here you were... a child in the world I never knew existed!?!?!... 😲😲😲 All I knew was that... You were my son!!!... Thats all I knew by this point.. and I would never turn you away EVER!!!.. Had I known about you, so many things would be different!!!??? But Life didnt seem to play our cards that way???... My life changed that day!!!... I've missed you terribly since you were taken away!... (2001-02) Dates are blurry due to a #headtrauma... (#nearfatalcollision) (2018).....You've only known me a year or so of your life... I pray every day that you are ok!!!... I am a #prouddad knowing that you have chosen to serve this country (now a man)... #gonavy 🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸 I hope that 1 day you will find it in your heart to find me again... I cannot recall if we've ever shared a #Christmas, but I know it will be another Christmas without you... My Heart breaks, but #Dads are always expected to #getoverit #beaman #toughitout ?!?!?!🙄😪😪... and so I have for all these years!!... But the pain, never fades... #MerryChristmas Son!!... I LooVe you and Miss you!!.. Just wanted you to know...if you doubted it??... God Bless you...wherever you are #cesarsnow #jacksonvillenavalbase #thelightisalwayson #christmasmiracles #neverforgetyou (at Orlando, Florida) https://www.instagram.com/p/BriP5teAJpb/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=l2digs0zo3lu