#negative !!

[natterghast]

one day of work (yesterday) wiped me out and I woke up in major pain so I had to call off. having a really bad time. but I can only push myself so far

anyway, gonna be around today ⭐ if any of my mutuals would like a starter or to plot (even if we already have threads going!), lemme know, hmu

[hctingapples-blog]

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tbh…. most people feel this way. they made maggie a copy of lexie when they wrote her as a girl. she was originally supposed to be a brother (bc they were gonna bring in them in before lexie initially but changed their mind) and making her female they just threw all creativity out the window. she’s a bad mix of lexie/april tbh and they want to make her a golden girl whereas our babes had to earn their love. they try so hard to write maggie as an underdog when it's clear that she's a writer's favorite.* ALSO SORRY I WENT OFF LOL

YES BITCH GO OFF FUCK IT UP YESSS

anyway i have a lot of fucking feelings about greys anatomy and most of them are increasingly negative haha i love !! but seriously idk who’s writing but they need to maybe stop ?

[turipuri]

I don’t know how to handle too many negative feelings or big changes in my life so usually I just kinda shut down. Try to avoid everything. Try to feel nothing. Make myself just ignore everything and mentally just run away.

Not knowing how to process things I just try to give up and not even try, just ignore it and hope it goes away. It makes me feel like I’m just empty while also not empty. Everything just feels wrong. I want to talk but don’t know what to talk about, I want to scream but at the same time I just want to lay down on the floor and just not exist.

My great grandma passed away at maybe 10pm tonight in her sleep. She was 99 years old and was clear headed all the time. She didn’t live in a retirement home and liked taking walks outside on nice days. She was a nice old lady. I’m going to miss her. Right now I just want to not acknowledge it.

Meanwhile my mother, whom I don’t particularly love and would rather not meet, really really wants to have dinner with me to talk about how this affects her and other bad stuff in her life. We’re meeting at ikea on sunday, I’m scared she’s going to bring up things like this. I don’t want to react to anything around her.

[xushiwakatoshix-moved]

Can someone tell me a reason to keep myself alive? Bc right now I can’t find one

[xushiwakatoshix-moved]

I feel like dying, I want to cry tons but if I start I feel like a fucking piece of shit. Nice.

[dogbun]

goodmorning everyone i hate being awake

[feralcleric]

WebMD search for "am I actually nauseous or are my constant feelings of guilt and dread just a lil bit worse today"