#negative !!!!!!

[ct-7567]

You know whats great? Knowing you made the right decision by not going to a csu because itd be a waste of money since i have no idea what i want to do And fucking regretting it anyway because all my friends are leaving and i want to leave this stupid fucking shitty town and this stupid fucking shitty family

[thymiatic]

like im so inadequate and sensitive and inconsiderate and everything is WRONG and completely pointless,,,,, im such a fuckup ahhhh omg i dont want to have All these things to do i just want to die! ! ! !

[haanyo]

i mmiss them so much... a-and honoka too!! umi and eli and nozomi and nico and kotor i !! i mmiss everyone .. .. . b-but did they forget me? i-i don't wanna be forgotte n .. . i-i'm so scared to talk to them again, bbbut !! they're my !! best best fri en d s!! what should i do ?!? (/) ; )

[aoju]

ok ok ok im having major dysphoria rn like really really bad im in the hospital and im shaking what the fuck im???? it feels really :////// i wish i didn't have the body like i could be so much more i could be muscular and strong hh this is weird i normally am really ok w/ my body but i want to be more masculine and i can't do it i fuckin hate myself i just want to be masculine and have strong arms and chest and legs.... What the Fuck is Wrong with Me

[codeinvalid-blog]

what kind of. .sick hjoke is my life

[feelsbot]

[blackgohda]

haha negative stuff im sorry i want to write this somewhere and maybe feel better

my crush is angry at me and my sister has left for another country

im just done with myself......im tired of being myself and people treat me like shit expecting ill just act like my normal positive self, like they can walk all over me

i admit that i was a bit annoying when my crush was feeling bad and i kept asking what was wrong and she got pissed (and all of that in my birthday :') ) but i sent her a message saying im sorry but now she doesn't even talk with me or when she does she sounds angry or just talks to put me down

haha i was just trying to help, i was worried....i never asked for this

and today she and another friend of mine who always go together on the train basically made me go alone because they decided in the moment we arrive at the train station that they wanted to take a walk(in a day full of rain), like did you really not think about my feelings at all? thank you for making my week end with this great note

haha i never felt so awful in my life thank you so much

all because i was worried about a person i care about, im tired of being nice and letting people take advantage of me......just tired

i miss my best friend.......i always talked with her about my problems but we stopped talking and she doesn't care about me

besides my family im all alone now......everyone has someone they care about more than me, im all alone i bet even my "best friend" has someone she cares about more now

i dunno what to do