#negativity-ish tw

[sohelish]

I’m trying to kick into writing/being a human being)) not quite there yet but I am getting there I think

after I had a nervous breakdown I kinda felt really bad about having any sort of perceivable fun? sorta? but I think I’m finally feeling better

[sohelish]

ok due to me constantly fighting str.ess over irl stuff, my activity might get pretty sporadic, depending.

I had the chance to socialise in the past few weeks and it was a bit scary bc I think I forgot how to human properly? I also feel like I'm not polite enough because I'm on the sadder side lately and I tire easily)

+I had to buy new clothes bc... two years have passed... and that for me is always a nightmare

+I knew full well that I was leaving people behind when I moved, but like, never thought it would be like it is now. which is even scarier bc of my husband's dad's health issues which are serious. kinda sucks we can't be there and maybe won't be... also scary if we have to go back...

so in other words I'm having ffffun))) and I'll be escaping into the world of writing whenever possible but also I can only write helena if I'm having positive emotions or if I'm unemotional/chill. I can never write her when I'm feeling down)

[bridexffire]

masterofmirrors disse: ((-cuddles you- If you need to talk, I’ll be up for a bit. <3))

// *hugs and smooches your cheeks* I’ll probably end up sending you something via Skype, but right now I just don’t wish to bother you with negativity. But thank you, really.