At Odds With The Hero

prev. briefly known as 'nocthane' fantasy/sci-fi/crime MATURE 21+ I own Helena and all the written material on her (potential book character) TUMBLR BLOG EST. FEB. 2012 CHARACTER, CREATED IN CURRENT FORM, IN 2005

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pinnеd post pls don’t reblob thank

In Helena’s opinion, a story that had been could not equal an adventure that was about to happen. Even though it likely made her who she was. She could always be more.

hello there

this is an rp blоg for my оriginal character Hel

sсi-fi/fаntasy/mystеry/humоur plоts preferred

mаture 21+

I own Helena and all the written material on her (potential book character)

the blog has been around since 2012

the character in her current form has been imagined since around 2005 (honestly I’ve had her since forever and there have been lots of changes)

please help yourself to these:

rulеs // shоrt about // story recap // f.a.q // verses // voice // first impression

how I run this blog // interest tracker

p.s.

send a meme - entertain your local roleplayer today ;)

open posts for easy access?

p.p.s. reply speed: slow, with outbursts of nobody asked for this

my disc.ord is sohelish#4830 / pls specify who you are when adding unless obvious

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all these years I asked for feedback. all these years nobody told me how bad my writing was...

was it because people were afraid to hurt my feelings? or couldn't put it into words how bad it was, because it was that bad? or thought that since english isn't my native language there was nothing they could have suggested?

big sigh.

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😘<3

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miss you, guys 💜💜💜

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😘~❤️

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I'm going to leave this here cause daaang

[edgeofthemultiverse]

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'Can it be a coincidence? It can be.'

'But I've rarely seen so many patterns across a number of accidents that I start tracing a system.'

[rabbitloser]

{\__/} ( • . •) / >♥️  i give this to everyone that is struggling right now. it’ll be ok.

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the best decorated house award goes to!!!

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didn't expect to be emotional about the latest ve.nom movie and yet... daaaang)

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some more snek

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anyway, something positive. happy 🎃 halloween

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ever since my grandfather died I was not in a good place. he was the only father figure I had, and the women in my life have always been on the toxic side. I did not take his death well and even though I cried my eyes out for weeks I still didn't get over it. especially since my mom and grandma... well... they are something.

I've been trying to disengage from reality as best as I could for the past... half a year or year? I drank a bit too much.

I woke up a few weeks ago. overweight for one. but I expected that. can't eat that much junk food and pretend otherwise. but I woke up with a couple extra wrinkles on my face. that sent me right into the middle aged crisis. I'm middle aged. I have new wrinkles. I was planning to learn and start prepping for a new profession, but because of the stress, covid and my grandpa's death I procrastinated. what's worse... well, looks like my husband and I are on the same page and wouldn't mind having a kid if we're lucky???

I thought my life is sunny side up eggs, and turns out it's scrambled eggs. I started learning the thing I wanted and I'm having fun, but I find it so hard accepting that I'm 35 and middle aged... I find it so hard accepting the wrinkles. like I woke up one day and the filter fell off and suddenly everything around me is not prettified anymore.

I thought I wouldn't care or worry about this stuff. kinda ashamed that I do. I feel like if I lived my life farther from my abusive family in a better environment I would've made slightly different choices. ah the useless what ifs.

I thought covid and the war and everything didn't mess me up this much, but they did. I don't recognise myself in the mirror and it's a scary feeling.

I thought by 35 I'd have my life figured out. turns out at 35 I'm a pretty huge mess and it hurts. I don't much know what to do... that is, I know that I need to study and workout more, already on it. I just struggle with accepting that I'm 35 and no longer youthful, joyful and humorous...

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didn't mean to post so much today and tbh pretty sure that I'm mostly posting into the void but!!!!!!!!!

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some photos of the pai.nting reproductions I bought in otta.wa + some Hallow.een stuff