Just had like 10 heart murmurs in a row

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Just had like 10 heart murmurs in a row
Iiiiiiii
Maybe if I rip out my vocal chords people like me
My mood goes from "yeah I'm okay sometimes" to "I'm a freak of nature and am unlovable" in like the bat of a fly's eyelid
Grandma saw the mp3 player i got mom cause her ipod broke. She immediately turned to me, who is coughing and sneezing and sick af. Screaming "WHERES MINE, WHY DIDNT GET ME ONE TOO!?" whatever *goes back to sleep*
OK but literally, thinking of reasons why life is worth it while depressed is like solving math problems when you're really drunk because you know there's an answer but you just can't think of it or you just don't care
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today in biology class we worked on a group project. my group is two freshman, one girl one guy, and me a sophomore. the project allowed for us to pick from two prompts and work from there. the girl and I agreed on prompt B, and the guy didn't really say anything about it for five minutes. I had already figured out how I was going to do my part of the project. then the guy says he thinks prompt A would be easier. he made a good point but we had already agreed on point B, his time for challenging that had passed. the girl and I sort of half heartedly agreed with him, and he said "cool so are we doing prompt A now?" and it wasn't like negative or anything it was really casual hes a nice kid really he's a good friend and despite that I still preferred prompt B but the girl said 'sure' and she didn't seem all too okay with that but she said it anyway so I nodded too. I didn't want to cause trouble, didn't want to upset anybody. if the group were three girls, I would've spoken up but I feel like I've been socially conditioned to not want to bother or upset men and that scares me so much.