#neis dream

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Have fast and crappy Grimmjow sketch from my last night's dream. I've been HUNTING "beyond resurrection" Grimmjow from the summoning 2 days like LUNATIC! I've been playing HOURS! I have use ALL my saved soul tickets (hundreds of them), I'm running out of EXP orbs and money since I found out you can BUY some characters with game's coins from the SHOP!

Been buying them and leveling them up, then using all orbs on summoning but NO Grimmjow! I would need ONE MORE! JUST ONE! Q_Q I've a bit more than a day left until the summon ends...

And this has affected in my sleeping since last night I dreamed I had 2 Grimmjow but for a some reason I GAVE THEM AWAY! QoQ Then, in panic, I tried to get even one back. Don't know why but I was searching him from a box of toys inside the house.

What I found was THIS Grimmjow instead. Apparently it was EXTREMELY super rare Grimmjow who's fur was long, matted and PINK in color! Plus he had hooves! I have to confess, a sight of him made me so confused I stopped even thinking while I holding and staring at him :'D

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Had to get this moment from the dream out of my head. I still can't get over the sound of his purrs and growls! <3

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I obviously have been playing too much Bleach: Brave Souls since last night I had very short dream where, in the said game, was an event with a theme of Beauty and The Beast.

Of course Ichigo was Beauty and Grimmjow was the Beast :'D Ichigo was wearing golden suit with a red rose while Grimmjow was wearing dark blue suit with white shirt. Otherwise they looked like themselves.

I'm tempted to suggest such idea to the game company, ahgdjhb! :'D

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Just woke up from a dream where was some kind of Japanese / anime demons. They were chasing / following me since I had this weird "demon puppy" of some kind, which I was carrying in my arms, and they wanted it back. Perhaps to even kill it since it was, apparently, the most powerful of them all. Tho, this demon of mine didn't know it, yet, since he was a puppy.

At the end of the dream this demon group finally stopped me, appearing infront of me. I don't remember them actually speaking or making any sounds but I knew they've had enough. They would take the puppy by force.

I then saw myself, as Yuuji, from the front point of view. Yuuji was sitting on the ground while holding the demon puppy close to his chest while demon Sukuna (white kimono) was standing between him and the demon group.

Sukuna had very light silverish, almost white, hair with big furry wolf-like ears and tail. Their color was the same as his hair. His expression was calm but serious. He was there to make sure Yuuji would get to keep the demon puppy. I do remember hearing / feeling Sukuna warning the other demons, what would happen if they tried to take it from Yuuji.

Then I woke up.

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Today has been a day when I woke up with bad anxiety. Been feeling sick (throwing up way) while feeling like someone's groping my guts all over the place. I didn't take Opamox when I went to sleep last night and I've been feeling it today whole day.

Not only that but once more I've been thinking, in negative way, why the hell I am alive, why the hell I was even born. Because right now it all / my life and me overall feel meaningless in all possible way.

But if I have to say something good: I had a dream about Verti last night. I was in bedroom but it was empty except having tiny fireplace and few book shelves. Verti was playing happily with his soft rainbow colored ball which he loved even in real life. Then my sis spotted his favorite fabric tunnel standing against the wall, giving it to him. Oh boy, didn't he dive in that tunnel instantly, chasing and diving after the ball with such joy and speed ❤️ Just like he used to.

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Took melatonin earlier to sleep better after a very long time and, you know what? I did sleep better. Maybe an hour more than recently but I also feel more restful.

Not only that but I remember having this weird dream and Sukuna (first form in his white kimono) was in it. He never said anything to me but I saw him from different perspectives and at one point he was looking at me from the corner of his eye(s). No any evil look etc. Just neutral.

I woke up and instantly realized I've seen this exact same dream easily over 20 years ago! No Sukuna excisted back then! And yet he was in the dream then, too.

Anyone who's been following me a long time propably knows / has seen me say this before but: this is not the first time this has happened. I keep dreaming about the same dreams every once in a while, usually decades later, which I've seen already back in the days when I was a teenager (80's - 90's). These dreams always have hold a character in them who did not exist back then, but exist now - and still somehow I was able to "see / meet" them. It's fascinating to say the least :)

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Had a dream last night where I was escorting sis to the airport since she was going to Japan with her best friend. The airport was just old huge tower which has been rebuild from spare parts after an accident which had happened decades ago. For example there were old rusty fire ladders as stairs.

Sky was covered with black clouds but behind the tower was setting sun which colored horizon red. It was beautiful yet unsettling. To my right, when facing the sunset, was a bit greenish gray horizon and there was 3 huge tornadoes. 2 of them was more on the right while third was coming towards them from the left. The shape of them was off some. From the ground came short straight part, then there was "ball" shaped part, another straight part before tornadoes started to wider towards the clouds.

They made no sounds and there was no wind overall. We don't have tornadoes in Finland but I still do find them fascinating, really liking their forms and strength.

I need to do some more googling about red sunset's and tornadoes' spiritual meaning. Red sunset, so far, could mean something is coming to an end while tornadoes symbolize emotions which are starting to become overwhelming (fear, stress, anxiety etc).

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Been having lots of weird dreams once again in many nights but this time, I don't remember them. Only very faint flash there or there - like remembering seeing brown color, still without being able to remember them.

Right now I had another dream but just before I woke up, I heard gentle male voice, saying:

"They are working hard (on themselves). You need to work hard too. Only that way you will succeed."