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New fic! Because ZJ doesn’t have enough! Summary: The process of forgetting the death note takes a neurological toll on Light, but according to his journal, it seems he’s gained as much as he’s lost. L is reading, and is fascinated.
Light/L, currently rated T
The process of forgetting the death note takes a neurological toll on Light, but according to his journal, it seems he’s gained as much as he’s lost.
L is reading, and is fascinated.
Mood music: Lover- the Anniversary (https://youtu.be/m4–iowBAC8)
The process of forgetting the death note takes a neurological toll on Light, but according to his journal, it seems he’s gained as much as he’s lost.
L is reading, and is fascinated.
July 24
He finally let me out and I feel like I’m starving. They fed me, I don’t mean that. But I’m ravenous for something I can’t identify, cannot name. I’m restless, but the chain keeps me tethered to his infuriating orbit.
I tell him I’m not a murderer because I’m not one, and I can tell he thinks I’m lying. But I have no memory of killing, of being Kira. Surely I’d remember such power, evil as L thinks it to be. He taunts me and I pretend he cannot wound me. That the armor that’s crystallized over a 50-day imprisonment is the impenetrable fortress I need it to be. I pretend he’s my friend. He pretends the same.
Only I wish I could tell him how much I need a friend right now. I wonder if he could understand what it feels like not to know yourself, to wake up each morning thinking I am a nightmare to him. That I am something he hates. He is curious but he is capable of hate I am sure. Why else would he have locked me in a cell for so long, alone and separated from everything important in my life? Not that there is much that is truly important to me, but I missed my family more that I would admit. I cried more than I’ll ever admit. Never admit to him.
I’m quiet because I’m thinking, I haven’t had anyone to really talk to for weeks. But he thinks that’s suspicious, that I’m quieter now, more reserved now. Is that what Kira would do? He says it so often and I’m not sure if he’s waiting for me to show him or hoping I will...or if he’s just angry he had to let me out and is stumped. If I had to be honest, I feel depressed. I’ve lost something and I couldn’t even say what it was. I hope it’s not what he thinks it is, the source of his hate. But it was something important, and I see the shape of its hole, the footprint it left as it walked away and left me. It was me, whatever it was, and I need it back.
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Chapters: 10/10 Fandom: Death Note & Related Fandoms, Death Note (Anime & Manga) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: L/Yagami Light Characters: L (Death Note), Yagami Light Additional Tags: Aphasia, Neurological damage, L is reading Light’s journal, Yotsuba Arc, Light is Kira but cannot remember, but he feels the loss, L is fascinated reading the made up words for new emotions Light is having, and falls in love, Drabbles, that unfold as a story over time, He thinks he has amnesia, Obsession, Dangerous irony, some sexual content, lies/truth Summary:
The process of forgetting the death note takes a neurological toll on Light, but according to his journal, it seems he’s gained as much as he’s lost.
L is reading, and is fascinated. An opportunity presents itself for him to get closer to Light, but at what cost…
Last chap up! Hope you enjoy
Two weekend updates just posted to AO3:
- Chapter 9 of The Neologisms of Yagami Light, Keyframe
- A short one-shot Truth Serum expanded from a prior drabble I posted here by the same name.
As for other fics, I needed to write these as my mood has been a bit more somber and pensive the past couple days. But bigger updates are on the horizon once the blues shake off. Never lasts too long with me :) Thanks as ever for reading and especially your lovely comments that keep my motivation high.
