#neospeaks

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Hello did you know people still get the plague well I think of T virus strains mixed with other illnesses one can get and I think they should mix T virus with the plague

[poindxxter]

TW for sexual assault

i havent been coping well since i came to terms with the fact that i was SAd for most of my childhood. but i'm learning to deal with it through exploring similar themes with OCs .

i've wanted my abuser dead for so long and i didnt know why other than that he was a shitty person to me and his sister.

so anyways here's my newest OC, vincent, post-killing the man who kept him captive for his own sick pleasure. after enduring years of suffering he couldnt take it anymore. a part of himself snaps. but he realizes he really enjoys violence. seeing that bright red just makes his brain lose control.

he takes up fighting, underground boxing, etc to cope. his favorite hobby and eventual career.

oh, also, he's a vampire.

he eventually meets a girl he falls in love with but i havent really thought too far into all of that. they met on tinder, go on a date in a dive bar late at night, the rest is history.

part of another piece i did. i dont like it much anymore so this is all you're getting of it

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sometime early last year i created an alien original character to cartoonize how i view the world. venty rambling mad man style under the cut

with autism, my experience feels almost subhuman. as though i wasn't given the handbook to how to human properly. i've always connected with characters that didn't really understand humanity that well. werewolves, vampires, angels, aliens, etc.

with how much i enjoy the stereotypical little green/gray alien you'd think i'd be much into space. when i was younger my school would take us on a field trip to a planetarium nearly ever year. maybe it was because other students didnt seem to grasp the concepts that well i don't know. but i would learn pretty fast. so i grew bored of repetition and eventually grew to find astronomy boring.

that unfortunately happens to me a lot. i find myself interested in so many things but when i seek them out in an educational setting, i grow bored and frustrated. i dont understand human ways of educating. i can't stand it.

thats not the topic of this blurb though. i had gotten better at my charade. people didn't find me weird or disturbing anymore. i still think back sometimes to irl friends saying they're terrified of me. and i can tell now that i am too much for some of my colleagues to handle.

i go through trial and error for how i must act. and it is almost.. tiring.

so i guess i draw this guy to cope. he's come back in my mind in the past few weeks because i recently dyed my hair green. a friend mentioned that when she sees the color she thinks of me. and all of my green stuff. my airpod case is an alien. i bought a green phone case to match (though i havent used it yet because this one isnt completely broken yet. but its close) i have 2 inflatable green aliens of various sizes. its become my brand to be seen as this.. unearthly thing. i guess i cannot complain when i see myself as just an imposter in human skin.

this character doesn't technically have a name. i imagine his species doesn't have them. or maybe its just in a language we do not understand. but i called him joshua when he's disguised. i wanted just some plain name. though i think i want to change it to neo. i think he would like the matrix a lot. understanding feeling different. i think he would like neo a lot.

names have always been a weird thing to me. a word we rely on and relate to deeply. i relate to mine, in some ways. at one point it served me quite a lot of joy. but in the past year or two i've gone through so many extra names that also felt, at the time, relatable. they're just titles i don't care for now. the one i use now is just one i've decided to keep out of some reason i can't quite place. i like neo as well i think. a lot of people who don't know me well call me neo because they don't care enough to look deeper into me. i believe it fits the tiring human persona i put on for people

i honestly dont know what im talking about at this point. i was finishing another piece that ended up ugly and at some point i just took the markers and just went ham. my brain started monologuing and i was like fuck, if i dont get this out of my brain i will surely die. it wont stop talking if i dont get it out somewhere. so i quickly drew the doodles up top and called it a day.

point is, green green green...,.,, i couldve been such a scientist if i was human! i'm hugely into anatomy and biology but i grew up in the south so my educational system was, and is, fucked! i cannot enjoy biology anymore because my teacher in high school was mega christian and did not enjoy teaching half of the subjects!!!! i cant stand anatomy because my CLASSMATES WRRE ALL MORONS THEY JUST DIDNT WANT TO TAKE PHYSICS I WANTED TO BE THERE I WANTED TO DISSECT THE FUCKING HEART . but i was paired with girls who were too scared.

when my tablet is charged enough i'll draw the alien in a much better setting. and color him. and draw his girlfriend he has a girlfriend. i need to figure out why i keep giving me characters women partners when im mostly attracted to masculine figures but thats a discussion for a different day

enjoy my descent into madness ill return tomorrow

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i often draw myself after i do something with my hair because i struggle with identity issues and a lot of people seem to think hair is such a big part of your appearance. i know ive said it before but to me my body is just a video game avatar to switch up the wardrobe and stuff whenever you get bored

and with all the bed rotting im doing im starting to get really bored with life

i originally wanted to go blond but nobody in my life seems to think i'd make a good blond. so green it is. the bleach didnt lighten some parts of my hair so theres still brown in there, while the dye didnt stick in some places so i'm still very yellow. but i dont mind too much, because it's temporary.

here's to hoping i find joy in my body this year 🍾

[queenharumiura]

Can I just put my url here for the positivy =x? I like to see you writing them hahaha.

Send me a url and I’ll write some positivity for it. ||Sure sure! Same as before, I’ll talk about Mun first because I’m always curious about muns over muses. 

Emiko (Or just Emi for short)

Open: I specifically mention this since i’ve seen it a few times. If you’ve a problem with anything Emi does, just talk to them. She may seem curt with wording choices, but I promise you that she’s understanding and nice. I talk to her all the time and ask her questions and she’ll always take the time to understand me and fix something if she was doing something wrong. Talking to her on anon will not help you. Just be open with her and she’ll reciprocate.

Caring: Though shy, Emi is a caring person once she starts to warm up to you. She will sometimes pop in randomly to ask how you’ve been or ask if you are okay if you happened to post an ooc post talking about anything troubling you. || On my end, she also likes to hound me to go to bed when I should, since I don’t like to be a good girl and sleep at normal hours. 

Angst: If you like angst, then Emi is a pretty good person to talk to since it is one of her favorite genres. Pretty much, anything is open in terms of angst from what I’ve seen. If you crave angst of various levels, Emi can most likely supply that.

Protective: Emi is a person who, if you get friendly with her, she will look out for you. If she sees someone is bothering you, she will stick up for you. I’ve seen it maybe once or twice already. Emi is not going to sit back and just watch people get away with sending hate. If you ever want a friend who you know will have your back, Emi is a good person to befriend. 

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Gokudera (There is also Haruka who is a genderbent verse)

Characterization: Note the fact that the Gokudera she plays is based on her headcanons of the character. (much like how I play Haru) Still, Gokudera is still very close enough that he’s similar to canon. You will not be lost when interacting with him. As there are multiple twins of characters going around, I personally believe that her Gokudera is an interesting change of pace, and honestly offers a wider range of plot ideas. 

Haruka: Specifically mentioning her because I personally like the fact that though she is the genderbend of Hayato, it is not just a simple sex change. The age, and relationship changes. She is not the right hand, she’s a teacher, and is older than the rest. Some of the other characters are different as well. Most of all, her personality is similar but different from Hayato’s– which I find is great. I personally think that is more realistic, and offers more freedom in rps. 

Verses: Many different verses to play with. Of course there is the usual TYE and TYL verses (Tsuna living or Tsuna dead) along with default 18years old. There are other verses besides these to play with. I won’t list them because this way I can indirectly get you to check out the blog and find out for yourself. wahaha

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TLDR

Summing things up: Their Hayato is slightly different from what you may expect, but it isn’t bad, nor is it unreasonable. He’s a bit different and complex and it makes things interesting and in a way refreshing. I would recommend the blog. 

[queenharumiura]

Cleansingflame c:

Send me a url and I’ll write some positivity for it. ||Alright, so I’ll start off with the mun since I feel people are always most concerned about the mun rather than the muses: 

Kou (I call em Kou-cub though)

Temperament: Kou-cub is a person who is in a good mood like 9.5/10 (.5 is when they just wake up and hello zombie Kou) 

Friendliness: A very sweet mun when you first encounter them. They like to tease a lot, but it’s never bad. Always friendly intentions. Reminds me of a puppy with how happy they get when they see a friend. 

Understanding: A very understanding individual. If you talk to them about being late with replies or anything, they are always willing to wait for you and accommodate. 

Writing style: I’m not good at describing writing styles since I honestly suck at recognizing them. I judge writing styles by how easy it is for me to read it. Kou-cub’s writing style is easy to read and things are written very well. In particular, I do enjoy their use of descriptions, which is something I personally lack. 

Genres: Pretty much, anything goes. You want fluff, angst, funny, etc? Just ask for it and Kou-cub will likely go for it. A very open individual. 

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Yamamoto (I only interacted with this muse and not the other yet)

Characterization: Yamamoto is very in character. Well played out. You see a lot of his protectiveness, his easy-going nature, and his friendliness. That isn’t to say Yamamoto is a push over, which isn’t the case. Yamamoto will take names if he has to. Pretty much all the lovabl qualities of Yamamoto Takeshi are here. 

Flexibility: No, I don’t mean the leg thing The way they play Yamamoto is flexible in the way that with different characters or verses, Yamamoto will react differently. Sometimes Kou-cub will also just have Yamamoto do things on a fun trolling business. I think it’s a good thing to branch out and have characters do things that aren’t so strictly ic. Makes things fun and gives variety to threads. 

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TLDR

Summing things up: This blog is of excellent quality. A+++ Would recommend. Go for it. If you aren’t following them, I really recommend that you do. Tell them I sent you.

[queenharumiura]

Yellow~

From the color [x] meme

Yellow: Your writing us great! Keep it up!

Thank you very much! I’m glad that you think so! I also give you yellow and also Orange (’I can hear Yamamoto’s voice in your writing’)

[queenharumiura]

cuz ur going into details about 100 white orchids. I throw u the url 1 more time

SEND ME A URL AND I WILL TELL YOU WHAT I THINK OF THEM !! ((... I mean... I could try... I guess. I may end up repeating myself a lot. Oh geez. Spare me.))

Under readmore because ofc still long and again, ish deep.

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Let me start off by just... CRYING. Why. Why did we do this to me? So sad. My poor fingers.

Anyways. Let’s see... so one of the things I didn’t go in depth about before. 

So I already explained my trust issues. I’m kinda sneaky, I guess you can say? I like to sneakily find out information. Guess you can say that’s a bad trait of mine. 

The reason why I say a lot of things that I don’t truly mean is to see how the other person will react. It’s in a sense, me testing the other person, kind of? 

To see if they really mean a lot of what they say. Like do they really truly like me. Do I really think that they mean what they say. I can honestly say that Kou has passed each time. 

Helps me know that Kou actually truly likes me. Also the reason why I just got so ridiculously attached to Kou, to be honest. 

I just... how is it possible for such a person to exist? May be sinful, but def an angel. Yep. Totes. 

I believe it. I really admire Kou for many things. My love for Kou is just. Idk how to really explain it. It’s strong though. I don’t really think I even know a word that accurately describes how I feel. 

Is friendship soulmates a thing? idk man, but it should be. 

Honestly where would I even be right now if I hadn’t met Kou. OUH!!!!!

OH! BEFORE I FORGET! That’s the thing I forgot to say in the last thing! Long rambles make my brain too scattered to function. 

So, I’ve mentioned this in passing a few times. I’ve come close to quitting everything many times. The first time, I was very close to doing so after maybe my third week of creating the blog. 

Kou and met around this time and we were starting to get along. I got too lazy the first time so I didn’t quit. I didn’t want to go around and talk to my current partners and tell them I was quitting. 

After that there were at least maybe 2 other times I’ve wanted to quit. Kou is actually one of the biggest reasons I didn’t quit. I am that person who, if I quit, I have no longer a use for skype. I only go onto skype for RP reasons. 

I would also cut all contact with anyone if I quit rp’ing as Haru. Since everyone would remind me of the hardships and the reasons why I quit. It would hurt. I’d just disappear and never talk to them again. 

Now tell me, do you REALLY think i’d be willing to be Kou-less in my life? LOLOLOLOL-No. That’s a big fat no. 

Also, I love the rps I have with Kou. I love talking to Kou. I honestly love seeing when more people go and talk to Kou and interact with them. Hell, I understand why some blogs though they don’t really interact with me (if at all) they talk to Kou. They are just that wonderful of a person. 

I also suspect there is also the fact that I play as Haru and she doesn’t... exactly... have a lot of love in the fandom. That’s okay though. I love her enough for everyone else who doesn’t. 

For real though, the amount of trust, affection and all that I have for Kou is not something that i’m used to. 

Probably one of the reasons that I actually allow for them to tease me and I don’t really often try to fight back. Also another reason, which i’ll admit, that I actually try to be a bit cutesy around them. 

Since they find me cute so why not? Why not just anti-up the cute a bit? If it makes Kou happy, I’ll do it. 

AHAHAHHA;;;;; laaaaaameee alert. 

I honestly do not really do the cute scene very often. Maybe with my mom. Maybe. Other than that. HELL NO! I do not really like being regarded as cute. I aint cute, okay? 

I made the exception for Kou though. Kou is a special case. I’ll accept it for Kou if it makes them happy. Kikenn is also the other case, I think. Other than that, I secretly, deep down squint whenever someone calls me cute. I don’t take that. Only those two people I’ll allow to think of me as cute and I’ll actually consider it a compliment. 

I probably allow for Kou to do so because I consider it Kou’s way of being affectionate since they really like to tease. I am the same way and I love to tease people. I find it cute. So if it’s the same way, I’ll allow Kou to think me as cute. 

Seriously, i’ll do just about anything for Kou though. I love Kou that much. I’m a super duper loyal person and if you are able to actually get my love, then you’ll be hard pressed to lose it. 

To be honest, I really doubt it would happen, but if we ever stopped being friends, I’m pretty sure my heart would actually break. It will find a way to break. I’ll find a way. 

I feel like I forgot something else but oh well. I probably didn’t. //shruuuugs