HI YES I KNOWWW IM BACK OKAY JUST ONE LAST SONG ONE LAST SONG HER ME OUT HEAR ME OUT hear the OUT!!! out the HEAR!!!! 💔💔🥀🥀
It's definitely a much more Vigil centered song, but I feel like it's fitting to showcase his own perspective and pov yknow? It's a very sweet song, and okay BIAS BIAS AGAIN!!! its a song from my own home country that's very popular </3 but again, felt fitting :DD It's called "Kahit Ayaw Mo Na" from This Band.
I'm,,, unsure what route this song would take place in. But I feel like it's best fitting for the route where Ilian learns of Jestyn again haha FUCKASS Jester!!!
now ARE YOU READY TO HEAR THE OUT CAUSE IM GONNA HEAR THE OUT!!!
Kahit ikaw ay magalit Even if you get angry
Sa ’yo lang lalapit, I'll come closer to only you
sa ’yo lang aawit I'll sing to only you
Kahit na ikaw ay nagbago na Even if you've already changed
Iibigin pa rin kita kahit ayaw mo na I'll still love you, Even if you don't anymore
SIGH okay ill admit it here I should be focusing on my reblog but Im lowcenuinely getting distracted and making these since the songs are TOO good and I wanna share so bad </3 and I originally meant to share in the reblog so Ill try to keep it as surface level as possible but I always thought of it nice if Vigil was slowly learning to play the guitar, and wouldnt you know it, this is a perfect song for a guitar woah!!!!
I always thought of it ironic that the catalyst to their relationships conflict is Ilian learning of Vigils ties to Jestyn and doubting his character and actions, that Vigils affections had been conditional and clinical when its most likely the opposite. Shown in the small ways where "ill come closer," "I'll still love you" follows lines like "Even if you're angry" "Even if you don't want me anymore."
I somewhat like to think that the first confrontation, while Ilian gave Vigil enough to explain himself, it probably wasnt enough to fully encapacitate everything and yknow, miscommunication D: I think it'd be why Vigil would seek Ilian out, just wanting another chance to be heard out?
O, bakit ba kailangan pang umalis Oh, why do you have to leave?
Pakiusap lang na ‘wag ka nang lumihis I'm begging you to not go leave
Tayo’y mag-usap, teka lang, ika’y huminto Let's talk, wait a second, stop
‘Wag mo ‘kong iwan, aayusin natin ‘to Don't leave me, we'll fix this
Ang daling sabihin na ayaw mo na It's so easy to say you want to leave
Pero pinag-isipan mo ba But have you thought it through?
Okay you will BEAR with me because filipino songs translated to english can sound very stiff!!! But this is one of my favorites part of the song alongside another part but this chorus is so lovely to listen to <3 I think its great to show in Vigils own urgency and desperation to at least be given one second to at least - idk!!! explain?
I dont think he comes into it fully expecting to fix it, but he wants to at least amend a few things and not just - let Ilian stir up whatever narrative and views he's already setting on Vigil. Ill continue this on because the next part ties in great because it comes after this!!!
Lapit nang lapit, ako’y lalapit Closer and closer, I'll come closer
Layo nang layo ba’t ka lumalayo Farther and farther, why are you getting farther?
Labo nang labo, ika’y malabo Blurrier and blurrier, you're blurry
Malabo, tayo’y malabo Blurry, we've become so blurry
I feel like this REALLY Shows Vigils persistence. And that,, sort of realization that he really IS losing Ilian yknow? I think it sucks more since Vigils being,, rather stubbornly hopeful about it. but still sort of realistic? Likely knowing that things wont be the same. But I again dont think he'd come into it with the hopes of getting it all back, but he definitely doesn't want to leave it like this. I think you talked about this already with my lastt ask haha ILL GET TO THAT TOO
but I cant imagine yeah how indeed confusing and possibly scary it all must be to Vigil. Especially with the more and more Ilian becomes so much harder to reach. That sort of realization and fear that maybe, love alone won't be enough to make two people move toward the other.
Bumalik, at muli ka ring aalis You came back, and you'll leave again
Tatakbo ka nang mabilis, yayakapin nang mahigpit You'll run quickly, I'll hug you tightly
Ang hirap ‘pag ‘di mo alam ang ‘yong pupuntahan It's difficult when you don't know where you're going
Kung ako ba ay pagbibigyan, o nalilito lang kung saan If you're going to forgive me Or if you're just confused
This part reminded me of the on-and-off bit you mentioned haha, OUGH NOW IM SO SCARED even I dont know how they're gonna work out </3 It'd scare Vigil too I bet, because even he wouldn't know, the unknown of it all scares him, to lose his footing this much and be so unsure but I know he'd bear through it. I think it's plain to see he isn't giving up easily haha, but I wonder how much or well, how long he'd fight for it. He hasn't given up yet, but I think the thought of Ilian possibly given up already would hurt GUH even this is making me tear up haha
A lot of the next parts of this song repaets with the chorus and hook but still very good!! but ends off simply!!!
Kahit ikaw ay magalit Even if you get angry
Sa ’yo lang lalapit I'll come closer to only you
Kahit ‘di ka na sa ’kin Even if you're no longer mine
OKAY loosing my train of thought a bit here but I always feel liek at the end of it, even if they weren't lovers or anything closer anymore, he'll accept that - it hurts, but Vigil would know somethings might never be the same but he'd still care and that'd be the baseline for the why of his persistence. Anyone would be worried, and he most especially would be, I always feel like Ilians thoughts can cycle and stir badly and usually becomes something bigger when you're alone. Vigil doesn't want Ilian to be alone, is that cliche? haha
Even in both routes I feel like he'd want to know that Ilians okay, AND OKAYYY maybe its obvious he wouldn't be but it'd be the why he doesn't just - want to leave it to this. I don't think he'd be ready to leave Ilian just yet
PRESENTATION DONE HOW DO YOU RATE IT BLINK SMILE GUH okay shorter than my last submission but definitely tried to be less wordy since I need to go back to this draft haha GOOD DAY OR NIGHT NUIIFUL ugh ur son SUCKS!!! LHLHLH
Okay my draft crashed out and doesn't want to save but I cannot copy the text for some reason so I have to copy screenshots of what I wrote, so sorry c ToT
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UGH I'M SO MAD THAT IT CANT BE IN TEXT the screenshots came out so blurry smh but I feared to hit the picture limit so I had to zoom out
Hopefully it's still readable </3