hateful energy ruining the story ruining ability to protect people grey spaces sometimes making it hard to save people who need it right away . feeling more grounded feeling purpose in finding roots rooted roots. not survival salmon janky duct roots. . actually having time now no excuses really just choosing joy dystopia or not soft and gentle joy idk not sure how helping maybe just staying calm feeling stable being unstable . maybe talking about it? maybe other people agree I feel like moving and scared not sure feels disagreeable topic "let's argue" new greeting in public lets figure this out we might not have a lot of time idk. . I feel like mommy and daddy are fighting. and now I have to be mommy and daddy. . It's too confusing now the parts, scattered. me, just glue. slowly gluing together joy and it being right there today . even as I type this thinking of positive button end of phrase. live journal living happy seed looking for sun lots of meat and brain matter water contained in here just like yours. connecting and honoring rythm jump rope. perhaps decent metaphore for engagement now... too fast, too slow, what are you doing, new game, that's my rope. okay, metaphore and talking being cheap like my writing forest gump writing . practicing talking righting practicing feeling things maybe even feeling things feeling things has it started yet spongebob in water never getting soaked . yellow dove grey cared for things nice things caring things helping caring things care