Dear Diary,
Today is Sept. 11TH, on a Monday evening. This morning started off quote eventful, I almost had a run-in with my older sibling. Mind you, he's been staying with us (me & my mom) for almost a year now, almost.
I went downstairs to put some water in the freezer to get cold & when I came back upstairs, I overheard him saying stuff about me, like he usually does whenever I show my face around the house.
I don't come in contact with him cause we're not on the same frequency, so I just leave whatever trace of sibling rivalry in the clouds. After all that happened I had some eggs with a roll-over & some cake with a cup of coffee, even though I've already had a cup before i ate.
Before I go on any further I would like to mention that I've finally gotten into a relationship, with of course an older mature man 🥹. His name will not be displaced at a current time, as I'm protecting him& I's privacy, even though he doesnt mind me talking abiut him.
He's very sweet, caring, loving, & I believe he loves me for me. He's seen my actual picture & hasn't said anything mean or hateful to me. We're on our third day of dating & I already feel like I am in love, but I don't want to speak too soon. I know I'm still guarding some of my emotions from him, just so I'll know I'll be sure of him. He lives in another city then I, but we're already planning to see each other in person, which I'm still skeptical about due to my amputated foot & my diabetes, y'know??. So every moment he brings up about coming to see me I get really scared & triggered all at the same time & my PTSD kicks in , but I remind myself that he'll love me for me .I just have to keep on telling myself that he'll understand.
& on top of that this is just the beginning of what might be the best thing that's ever happened to me 🥰. I'm so excited to see where this relationship is headed & if all is right, & the gods that the same then he's going to be my future husband ❤️.
Sincerely, @d3ar--d1ary
