#ventpost

[fifthdimensionfoid]

does anyone else feel so dirty and sick because they are in the tcc. like I love this community and I love researching perps and shit but when I hear what people say Abt the tcc it makes me think and reflect and I just feel so disgusting in my skin, like I know that if my family knew they would be so fucking disgusted in me, and if my friends knew fully how deep in it was they would be too bruh someone kill me now

[theabigailthorn]

a weird thing about having a big YouTube channel is that occasionally someone fucks you over in the course of this crazy thing called life and you have to exercise Herculean restraint not to make a video about them and wreck their shit

this must be how Connor Kent feels when she gets misgendered and has to be like "I could vaporise this asshole... It'd be wrong... but I could..."

(also to avoid speculation this is about me doing some non-social media work for someone and them fucking me over it's not about YouTube drama or some shit)

[gravedlullaby]

Newsflash! If you say to someone “you do not seem autistic to me” “you do not seem that you have bpd” its very invalidating and insensitive. This also goes with chronic illness. Everyone with a disorder acts differently, some mask symptoms until they cannot handle it anymore, and just because someone seems to be doing well on the outside means nothing!!

[phantomchick]

Me: reading through Jason fic with the Tim Drake tag excluded

The fic: Jason had nearly beaten a child to death in Titan's Tower, he was just as bad as the Joker!

[doribuki]

ao3 author curse hitting during pride month feels very different i gotta say

(im okay! shaken and battered and down a car but alive. thats what matters.)

[oath-of-obsession]

shame claws at my throat. i will always be too much.

[missagpmuttpuppy]

I've been watching The Amazing Digital Circus and its a beach episode and for the first couple of minutes I was thinking to myself "Wow everyone's so pretty in their outfits! I wish I could wear a pretty outfit." and then it progressed into more "I remember when I used to go to the beach." and then "I remember swimming... I used to love swimming..." And... Now I realize that, swimming isn't really something I can do anymore. Not like this. Not in this body.

[ligeiahawthorne]

like it hurts to know he probably believes i'm just lazy

and every time this happens, i feel unsafe with him, as though being fundamentally unseen and mischaracterized puts me in danger. bc it can and has.

i used to disbelieve myself, and abused myself in the process, chasing goals i believed i had to perform in order to earn the space i took up. but that's neither necessary, nor right to do. and i didn't and don't deserve it.

and i honestly refuse to re-perform that self-torture just to illustrate the truth to someone who says they love me but can't just believe me when i share my lived experience. i shouldn't have to retraumatize myself in order to be given the grace i already deserve.