you have a panic attack
WARNINGS: I talk about panic attacks in this, but other than that nothing.
A bullet-point list of how Newt would react to you having a panic attack (reader x Newt)
thank you to @apps99199 for requesting <3
I feel this request on a personal level so let’s get started :’)
You arrive at the Glade and whatever and adjust to everything
Newt becomes your best friend
And while you feel comfortable and secure in the Glade with him, there’s a feeling of anxiety that you can’t seem to brush off
At first, you try to just ignore it and live your life
During the day you put all of your effort into working and then spend the evenings hanging out with Newt
However, when you’re alone in your bed at night dark thoughts seem to plague you
There’s a voice at the back of your head saying things like “What if you never escape” and “You’ll be here until you die”
And then one night you can’t help but think about the possibility of losing Newt
It almost drives you insane
You try to calm yourself down by breathing in and out slowly, eventually drifting off to sleep
But that night you’re plagued with an awful nightmare
It involved you and Newt running through the Maze together, desperately searching for a way out
When you guys turned a sharp corner a massive spider-like creature screeched loudly and leapt towards you
Newt quickly shoved you out of the way you fell to the ground
“NO!” you screamed, diving towards Newt.
But it was too late; the creature’s pincers had pierced through Newt’s chest and a bloody pool began to form at his feet.
You awoke from the nightmare with a start, your heart beating furiously
Cold sweat covered your entire body
You were still paralyzed with fear but you silently sobbed for what felt like hours, simply laying completely still and letting the tears flow
The next morning you felt truly awful; you were extremely exhausted and emotionally destroyed
You didn’t go to breakfast and instead sat on a log near the bonfire because staying shut in your room was making you feel even worse
You knew Newt would be looking for you but seeing him would ignite your feelings of anxiety even more; you just couldn’t stand the thought of losing him
Your heart started to beat faster and faster
“Calm down,” you kept repeating to yourself
When you saw all of the guys heading towards their stations your stomach clenched in anticipation of seeing Newt’s blonde head poke out though the crowd
You looked down at your feet so as to not draw attention to yourself, feeling more nauseous by the second
“Y/N!” you heard an all-too familiar voice bellow happily.
Usually when you heard his voice, butterflies would erupt in your stomach
But now it just made your breath quicken out of apprehension for the future
You could hear him running towards you, his footsteps getting louder and louder each second
You clutched your heart with both hands and tried to slow your breathing down but it was no use.
“Y/N!” you heard him yell again, this time sounding like he was in a panic.
Your vision blurred and your chest felt heavy; the oxygen seemed to be running out.
Newt finally reached you and immediately crouched down so that he was level with you.
He rubbed his hands on your knees and then gently guided your head up so that your eyes met with his.
“Please tell me what’s going on. Are you okay?” he asked, the apprehension contorting his face into a frown.
Your body felt hot all over and you couldn’t seem to register what was going on around you; Newt’s words went in one ear and out the next.
It seemed like some of the boys had formed a circle around you and Newt.
You felt your gaze drift to look at the other guys and you felt your cheeks redden with blind embarrassment.
“Hey hey hey,” Newt said, gently grabbing your face with both hands, forcing you to avert your gaze from the other Gladers back to him. “Don’t look at them. It’s just you and me. No one else, okay? Just us.”
You nodded because you didn’t feel like you could speak at the moment.
Newt lightly ran his hands up and down your arms. “Just focus on my voice and nothing else. Can you do that for me?”
You nodded again, forcing yourself to look into Newt’s eyes; once your eyes met with his you almost melted despite the chaos ensuing inside of you.
It had always been so easy to forget about the world and get lost in his eyes, and right now was no exception.
After a few seconds you could feel your breath slow down and you capitalized on that by focusing all of you attention to Newt’s voice and the way his warm hands felt on your skin.
“That’s good. Keep your eyes on me, love. Now can you tell me what’s going on?” Newt asked softly, still rubbing his large hands up and down your arms in a slow, soothing manner.
Your mouth was dry and you felt very shaky but you knew that you should talk in order to return back to a stable state. But what would you say? Your thoughts were racing and wouldn’t slow down. Newt’s eyes crinkled with concern. After a few seconds of silence you blurted out, “What if we never make it out of here?”
Newt paused, then stopped rubbing his hands over your arms and instead cupped your cheek with his right hand. “Listen to me. We will get out of here. I will make sure of it.” He ran his thumb gently down your cheek and moved his face closer to yours. “Because you’re all I care about in this stupid place.”
“Promise?” you replied shakily, tears threatening to spill out.
“I promise,” he stated firmly. And with that you jumped into his arms and he held you as tightly as he could to his chest as you cried with fear, sadness, but most of all, gratitude. You felt so grateful that you had Newt, and he was honestly all you wanted and needed.
“Now let’s get the shuck out of here away from all of these shuckers,” Newt murmured into your hair once the tears had slowed, which made you giggle.
WOOOWWWW
I almost made myself cry multiple times while writing this can I have a Newt please
BUT BASICALLY:
He would always know how to help you during panic attacks
The other guys would be lost with knowing what to do with you
They would kind of just gather around you which made things worse and Newt would FREAK OUT and be even more protective over you than he usually is while you’re having a panic attack so he would glare at them and tell them to get lost swoon
He would never crowd you and would always try to get you away from all of the chaos so it was just you two
He would always tell you to focus on his voice and to maintain eye contact while he gently stroked your hair or slowly rubbed your legs or arms
If you had a panic attack at night he would hold you and rub your back while whispering dumb, cute stories about his memories in the Glade until you drifted off to sleep
Newt is so good at calming you down
He just loves you sm cries and hates more than anything seeing you in pain