Why? - draco malfoy
hi! this is my first time writing cheating!draco x reader, soo it's going to be a mess. Remember! I'm so so new at writing fanfics so my writing is shit and English is not my native language.
Summary : You have been dating Draco for 6 months and you've been a lot better since Draco came after your parents dead. He has been the best boyfriend you could ever ask for. But nothing this good last forever..
Warnings : negative thoughts, cheating, suic!de, shitty writing (lmk if i miss something. I'm so sorry to the people who is struggling with their mental health.. I feel you and believe me we can do this! I love you <33)
'There he is.. with her.'
Draco Malfoy a.k.a Slytherin Prince, Potter's enemy, an asshole, and your ex boyfriend.
You don't know what the heck he had done to you because you're so in love with him and had been dating him for 6 months.
He's super nice at first. Always on your side, comfort you whenever you felt down, compliment you, support you and being effortlessly romantic. But after 3 months... he started acting weird.
He stopped greet you with kisses on your cheek, he didn't wait for you after classes, he didn't ask you to sleep with him and that drives you crazy.
People might say you're just being 'dramatic' or 'overreacting' but after days like that people start to see the slytherin prince relationship is getting worse.
There is also some people that asked you if you are still dating him and you would be lying if you say your heart didn't break a little. But you just ignored them.
You didn't know where things goes wrong. You've been nothing but good to him. You even do his homework if he forgot about it.
You feel like you're not enough. You thought maybe it's because of your weight so you started eating less. You keep throwing up but you keep saying that 'it's going to be alright'. Little did you know, it will never be alright again.
And when he keeps hanging out with her. You got jealous and your heart shattered when you realized he might chose her over you. He's everything you had. You have no family, not very much friends and he's the very first person you ever gave your heart to.
But of course, Astoria fucking Greengrass will always get what she wants.
Everyone knows she had a crush on your boyfriend. Well shit, even Draco knows.
But still, he still hanging out with her and didn't even realize his own girlfriend always get left behind. He often forgot dates that you planned to spen time with him too.
Draco thoughts:
He love you. Wait, no. He loved you.
Everyday after you guys got official.. He feels like he's the luckiest person ever lived on earth. But after months, he slowly lose feelings...
He started hanging out with Astoria because only now he realized how attractive she was and even though he was still your boyfriend at that time, he felt like Astoria was much more important than you.
So he stopped showing loves for you and start forgetting you.
He often thinking about the decision of leaving you but he always asked himself.. 'is it worth it?'
But of course, after months he gets too frustrated so he decided to just go for it.
Before that day, Astoria already asked him if he likes her back and he said yes.. Astoria was over the moon that time and immediately ask him to broke up with her, so he did.
Narrator pov :
He knocked on your dorm and you opened the door. You were on cloud nine when you saw it's him. He finally came.
But when he didn't greet you and just enter your dorm with no emotion, you can sense something was wrong.
"What's wrong, Draco? Are you alri-" he cut you off.
"I have something to tell you." he said with a stern voice.
"oh okay. What is it?" you asked.
"I-" he hestitated at first knowing that he could lose the best thing that ever happen in his life but when the thought of being with Astoria crossed his mind. He didn't care about you anymore.
"I'm breaking up with you" he finished.
You froze. Stunned as a doll. You couldn't get words out. You just stared at him with wide eyes. And finally spoke.
"W- what? Why? Draco please tell me what did I-"
"I don't love you anymore" he simply cut you off with that sentence.
Your face was pale as a paper when you realized your negative thoughts is becoming real.
"I'm sorry, but you're not enough for me y/l/n"
He used your last name and that's when it hit you. He doesn't love you anymore and that also mean, no one loves you anymore..
You gathered yourself up and wiped the tears that won't stop flowing from your eyes and replied with a simple "Fine."
Draco is so shocked. He didn't expect you would let him go this easily but this is what he wants.. right?
When he snapped out of his thoughts he saw you packing all of his things with your wand and quickly passed it to him in a luggage that he left when he decided that he want to sleep with you sometimes. Well, that 'sometimes' is over now.
"Take it and leave. Now." you said with a wavered voice.
"O-okay" he stuterred, still couldn't believe you handle it like this.
When he closed the doors you immediately fall on you knees, grab your wand and cast a silencing spell. Then, you screamed and crying so loud. Because he's the only person you have and now.. You lost him too.
-4 days later-
Pansy and Blaise are the only one who came visit you after they heard what's happening.
Pansy and Blaise are your only friend and your bestfriend and you're so grateful to have them.
While Draco, made it official with Astoria.
They didn't hang out with Draco after what he did. Apparently, he's been cheating on you. He have slept with her multiple times before he broke up with you and he didn't even regret it.
Pansy and Blaise have forced you to go to clasess and after days they tried to convince you to get out of your room, they succeeded.
You felt so grateful to have them but also hate them for making you do this.
-
The very next day, you guys three walkef into the great hall for breakfast. Even though you dont want to eat, Pansy forced you.
You decided to move on, but after seeing him, with her holding hands and laughing your heart break to million pieces.
-after two weeks-
He got closer to her so fucking fast. Like they are made for each other.. maybe they are.
You ignored them and started to think about more important things..
Where can you go? Your family are not rich, You have no realtives so, how?
Usually Narcissa will took care of you. She would let you stayed at the Malfoy's Manor. Even Lucius gave you permission to do whatever you want..
You always stayed at Hogwarts when it's holiday because you don't want to feel like a burden to them but what were you going to do if school ends?
You came with one the only solution.
Su!cide.
That's the only way you can end all of this suffering. Or so that's what you thought.
So here you are, Astronomy Tower.
This is the place Draco asked you to be his girlfriend.. So, before you end your 'pathetic' life you wrote him a letter and leave it in front of his dorm. Oh how you wish you could turn back time.
Without thinking and wasting time anymore, you jumped, craving to be free again.
When your body is falling you can only think about one thing.
'At least he's happy.'
Then everything you can feel was pain and it started to get dark.
Draco POV :
He's currently patrolling around the hallway hoping to catch some of Potter's friends.
'pathetic gryffindork' he thought.
He's been snapped out of his thought because of the gasping and gathering in front of him. He could see some of the prefects and teachers.
'Bloody hell wtf happened? Even Dumbledore is here?' he thought again.
Everyone looks shocked and some was even crying so he slowly approached the crowd.
And he froze when he sees a dead body laying on the ground with blood pooling around her.
He doesn't noticed it's you until he looks at the face that are covered in blood. He's pale as a paper when he goes down to your hands to see the promise ring that he gave you..
He quickly made his way to your dead body and hesitantly put your head on his lap.
He started to cry and kept mumbling "no no no y/n open your eyes please y/n.."
At this point everyone is shocked because who would have thought The Draco Malfoy still had feelings for this poor girl that he cheated on.
"No no no no no Y/n?? Open your eyes darling please- ope- open your eyes" he stuttered while caressing your cheek.
Proffessor Mcgonagall step forward and asked for other teachers to help her to bring you to St. Mungos.
Your body got carried away from him is enough to make him regretted everything he had ever done to you.
The only thing that he believes is, it's his fault.
If he didn't cheat on you, you wouldn't even think to do this. Everyone know you are a kind and a very joyful girl.
'what have I done? I lost her. My fault. My fucking fault' he scolded himself in his mind.
While the teachers and prefects started to fade away, Draco couldn't move. With your blood on his shirt, he couldn't do anything except crying, screaming and kept blaming himself for everything that happen.
Blaise just arrived and his heart ache to see his best friend like this. Even though he's still mad for what he had done to you, Draco is still his best friend. So he approached him slowly.
"Draco, enough, let's go mate. Let's clean you up." he told him.
"My fault my fault my fault" he kept hitting himself with his covered in blood hands and mumbling the same thing again and again.
"Mate Don't blame yourself. You doesn't even know why she did this.. C'mon man, you are covered in blood."
"No blaise. You- you don't understand. Its my fault! She wouldn't k!ll herself if it's not because of me!" he cried.
"I-I can't.. I love her. I want to apologize to her Blaise. She- she died thinking she didn't matter. SHE DIED THINKING I DON'T LOVE HER" Draco screamed that even make Blaise flinched.
At this point, Blaise ignored what he said and help him to his dorm..
When they got to the common room, Pansy was there, crying.
When it came to gossips things will spread fast at Hogwarts so what make you think when someone died people won't know in the very next day..
Pansy turned herself to Draco and gave him a dissapointed looks before running to her dorm.
Blaise asked him to ignore it but how could he? Even Pansy agreed that it is his fault.
Thank god there's no Astoria when they got to his dorm because Draco didn't think he could handle seeing the girl he chose to be his and let you go. The most precious person to him. He couldn't help but keep replaying every happy memories that he had with you..
Your laugh. Your smile. The way that you will always blushing if he called you sweet name.
After he cleaned himself up. Blaise came in with a letter on his hands.
"I found this in front of your dorm... It's from her"
Draco hesitantly took it and started reading it because he was dying to know what makes you do this shit while Blaise made his way out.
Let's just say that letter make him teared up so bad that he wish he was the one who jumped off the Astronomy Tower because of the last things that were said in that letter was..
'I'm sorry for not being enough, Draco. I tried. I guess I'm not the person who destiny to be with you forever, but you'll always have my heart. Always and Forever.'
-the end-
Damn. This turns out so bad lmaoo. Sorry if this is bad! Oh and I think someone already done this? (maybe) I never read one before but istg i'm not copying anyone.
Have a great life! <3