Nicholas Grider,
from Fixture/Zikherkeyt
The book of the people is simple: one page of “love the stranger” and a thousand of “no, really.” Or you need an out, had a hand, had red thread and a sidelot of doubt, shofar blast cutting out abruptly, the wind of high holidays needed elsewhere to sculpt elaborate fair-thee-wells into concrete. The elsewhere or come hither game is to shove or get shoved and everybody wins goes home smiling fucks the spouse kicks the dog slaps the kids which is Fortune 500 for how to abide, unless you ache yet more: you need factory floors, you need a vacuum, an anechoic chamber, a stone wall for a veil, you need solace instead of silence, What You Need
is a song by the band INXS, come over here and let me show you my sukkah made of words, let’s talk meshugenah, you turn dead language on like a faucet, the faucet leaks, sometimes this contains sex and sometimes precludes it, means Adonai stops by to say hey there, cowboy, kauboi, means sleepless dreams, you holler a come over here sleepless dreams, I need a storm cloud of you, where I means there’s still a him and he‘s way over yonder and wants nothing from you or cold pills on fine china, enough to serve
Where the quick of dark is a wall on which’s written Wrong Answer, where hallejuah is relevant and quivering is self-taught, where the main vision you do have is scarlet and silver in every direction, structure not shelter, gray heavens, angels are functionaries, disposable like Kleenex. Meanwhile aliyah grabs you by your dress shirt, reaches through shirt and finds lungs, turns breath into wind, turn miracles into social occasions, meanwhile you slide into sunshine that should mean stay home albeit adrift or you were preceded in life by an apology, such as:
excuse me sorry I lost the red thread of the obvious present (and I’m you again), no door key for the public solitude you call home, the sleep you can’t earn, a direct-dial Adonai beyond your being a simpleton or needing to be no ghost, correspondence courses in Kabbalah 101 or TV and gun repair, so jetzt travel is mandatory and means you run down every dead-end alley you can find, you’re au revoir, votre cécité est une vision éblouissante, monsieur, you’re over there, you’re someone else, and God is right behind you, prepared to lunge
Bio: Nicholas Grider is the author of the story collection “Misadventure” (A Strange Object) and the experimental book “Thirty Pie Charts” (Gauss PDF). His work has appeared in Caketrain, The Collagist, Conjunctions, DIAGRAM and elsewhere.
He is also a contributing writer to the new lit/culture magazine Entropy: (www.entropymag.org).
About the book: Fixture/Zikherkeyt is an exploration of how some disparate identities, languages and forms might overlap, ranging from autism and aphasia to Yiddish and rabbinic supercommentaries and Dear John letters.