#nick speak

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yes hello my name is Nick and i rewatched this scene 176 times and i cannot HANDLE how their relationship progressed in this show i am such a wreck im going to write an essay on this scene so hold on folks

ok so first of all Yumi has always admired Sachiko. From day 1 she was in love with this woman because of what she saw on the outside; a beautiful, gracious perfect woman, daughter of a rich family who everyone knows. Rosa Chinesis, the perfect student. Then they become Sisters and Yumi gets to know the real Sachiko

and the real Sachiko Ogasawara is a fucking pain in the ass

i mean holy fucking shit this girl made me so mad so many times, her mood swings are the worst, she scolds Yumi for stupid things, she gets frustrated over small details and lashes out unecessarily, and when Yumi wants a bit of attention she just brushes her off for something else. GOD SACHIKO MADE ME SO FRUSTRATED

but... Yumi never gave up. She never once held a grudge against Sachiko. Sure, she had that breakdown when she thought Touko was stealing Sachiko from her, but that was because Sachiko was acting weird. She was colder than usual, more distant, and Yumi noticed the small details because she came to know Sachiko.

but after they made up, their relationship changed. and this show made such a good job of changing it slowly and almost imperceptibly, that I didn't even notice until SEASON 3. IT TOOK ME THIS SCENE TO REALIZE THAT YUMI GOT SO USED TO SACHIKO ,THAT SHE LEARNED HOW TO HANDLE HER. AND SACHIKO WAS THE ONE WHO PUNCHED ME IN THE FACE WITH THIS INFORMATION, WHEN SHE SAYS THE WORDS "How did you become so good at handling me?"

AND YUMI DIDN'T EVEN REALIZE THAT. I DIDN'T EVEN REALIZE THAT. BUT SACHIKO DID, BECAUSE SHE KNOWS HOW FRUSTRATING SHE CAN BE. SHE RECOGNIZED HER OWN FLAWS AND THANKED YUMI FOR NOT GIVING UP ON HER, AND YUMI WAS SO CONFUSED BECAUSE THE THOUGHT OF GIVING UP ON SACHIKO? NEVER ONCE CROSSED HER MIND. EVER. 

anyway what i'm saying is, the fact that Yumi loves Sachiko so much and learned how to handle made the viewers learn how to love Sachiko and handle her.

This is one of the most well-written relationships i've ever seen im so weak for them goodbye

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not to be dramatic but mamamoo has been honest to god keeping me sane for the past months, i have no idea how i’d get over some things without them soooooo thanks for existing i wish i could tell them that some day bleh

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gonna be forced to wear a dress tomorrow i want to die

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im watching Paranoia Agent and my head is FUCKED

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someone told me i post selfies with the same expression every time so guess what im gonna post a selfie with the same expression i do every time this isn't model central bitch, pay me to smile and i'll even show you my teeth if you want, here's my paypal 

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IM FEELING SO GOOD ABOUT MYSELF DAMN

IM ONE PRETTY MOTHERFUCKER

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like, I am honestly in shock over that trailer and I have a lot to talk about it so?? i will do that?? right now?? this is gonna be personal and all over the place because i really can’t do words when it comes to what FLCL means to me haaha

so, for those of you who know me for my lapidot fic Never Knows Best, this is the anime that inspired the title and pretty much all of the fic itself. It’s a short anime called FLCL that aired in 2000 (some of you weren’t even born in 2000 i think????) and it aired till 2001. It has six episodes. It’s a mess. It’s the best anime in the world. for me.

SO like,,,

of course I didn’t watch it when it aired, I was like, six at the time. I remember watching FLCL when I was in high school and figuring out life, you know the drill. I was starting my weeaboo years, it was one of the first anime I watched. The first time, I actually dropped the show on the first episode because it was just too nonsensical for me lmao

Then my friend insisted on me watching it. (Thanks Malu, holy shit.) That friend was also the one who made me confess to my current girlfriend back then?? We’re together for 4 years now.

I should really get in touch with Malu again, fuck.

anyway

where am I going with THIS OKAY so. I watched all 6 episodes of it in a day and I was left speechless. It spoke to me in such a deep level, like nothing ever had. Nothing ever came close to what FLCL means to me. Ever.

I’m not sure anything will

some people who have been following me for a while know this, I think, but,, you know when you say “oh this show is my religion”? Well, in this case it really is. it seems dumb, i know, putting it like that. But my entire philosophy in life comes from FLCL. From Mamimi. From Haruhara Haruko. From Takkun. These characters reflect who I am. When I didn’t even know who I was, they did. They helped me through some shit. Still do.

I have a FLCL tattoo on my wrist. It’s a yellow vespa with “never knows best” on top of it. It was my first tattoo

I was scared of what would come of this new season. Because FLCL was essentially Gainax; it was everything Gainax should have been for the rest of its life after Evangelion endded (also another show that reflects who I am, but I’m not gonna get into that). So hearing that Production IG was going to handle the animation made me feel uneasy. I thought the characters designs would change, the animation would change, the.... feeling of what FLCL truly is would cease to exist.

But watching that trailer..... man

it brought me back to my high school days, when I was still figuring shit out. And hell, I’m an adult now. And I still am figuring things out. 

Life is just you trying to figure things out and watching everything around you explode in a mess of bad decisions and good fleeting moments that make you want to stand on a bridge at dawn and eat stale bread with some company as you watch the river beneath. There’s not a place like that in my city, but there are places I can go to get that feeling.

that FLCL feeling.

so yea, this show is about growing up and becoming an adult. I grew up, I am an adult. I still don’t know shit. I can’t believe I was lucky enough to have Haruko come and save me once again as a 23 year-old mess of a person. like,,,, this show coming back in 2018 makes me certain that my life will change again in 2018. fuck

fuck 

i’m so excited for this change

cause you know. i still don’t know best

and i’m sure i never will. 

thank you for showing me this. and welcome back, FLCL.

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i’m actually writing a Moonsun fic lmao end me